Trophobia makes me afraid to step into a barber shop

I wanted to get a nice perm during the May Day holiday, so I went downstairs to find a barber shop. There is a barber shop not far from my home, but when I passed the door of the shop, I hesitated because I saw a very fashionable young man inside. People who have read my articles should know that I am at a loss in front of handsome guys and don’t know what to say.

When I was looking for a barber shop in the past, I always looked for a shop that didn’t have young handsome guys. I felt that if a middle-aged man or an older sister gave me a haircut, I would be more comfortable psychologically and be able to talk. More. I wouldn't dare step into a store with a handsome young man. I'm just shy and don't talk much. I think this would make both parties awkward. But this time I wanted to get a haircut nearby, but there was only one nearby, so I had no choice but to go in. Fortunately, the person who permed my hair was a middle-aged man, but the person who washed my hair was that young man. Oh my god, for someone like me who has never had much experience with boys, the process of washing my hair was very painful. , it just feels a bit unnatural. I like boys who can dress up and are good-looking, but if I see them, I won’t dare to get close to them, because when they get close or talk to them, my heart will scream like a marmot, maybe It’s because I feel like I’m not good enough. It's fine when you face ugly boys or boys who don't know how to dress up. Although this young man is not very good-looking this time, he is about the same age as me. He is dressed in a fashionable fashion and is very considerate. I couldn't help but think that boys in the service industry are much more considerate than straight men.

? Nowadays, there are basically one or two trendy men in barber shops. The ones that are not there are hard to find. I’d better change myself. Be more confident and bold. But if someone is with me, I will Better.