Getting out of the triple trap of "love, sex and desire" in life —— My mental journey in 18 and my confession of being late

I lay quietly in bed and looked out of the window through the old wooden window with lattice. It was getting light, and I didn't think anything. I am waiting to get up. This is my childhood, but now it has become vague and beautiful.

The best time when I was a child was to get rid of evil thoughts, completely relax and do what I like, be simple and happy, and be like a blue void in body and mind.

Then I went to school, primary school, middle school and university, and a series of changes were dizzying. When I looked back, I found that I had changed beyond recognition, and I had left the pure world.

After learning knowledge, he has a bad temper and is critical of his parents. I am short-tempered, impulsive and selfish. I have no filial piety in my heart. What I want is knowledge to change my destiny, and I want to leave the countryside.

Television became popular when I was in primary school. I always enjoy watching TV series, movies, martial arts and love when I have time. Those bad shots always come into my sight and leave a deep impression on my mind.

In the third grade of primary school, I began to have admiration for the opposite sex, and in the fifth grade of primary school, I began to have desires, which was out of control. The heart is greedy for love, the body has desires, and it is sweet, and the consciousness is fleeting. Since then, the blue void has been filled with all kinds of dirty garbage.

Walking with ideological baggage is like walking on a narrow path, the future is getting darker and darker, and there is still the risk of falling off a cliff if you are not careful. This life lasted until the summer when I graduated from college.

The sun is like fire, and the countryside is quiet, without the popularity of the past. Except for my parents, I spent that unforgettable summer almost alone. I actually had a chance to understand the nature of lust and all kinds of troubles. At this moment, I felt a golden corner suddenly appeared in the cloudy sky. The arrival of this day is too late and too rare.

The concept of awakening is like a beam of light, which clearly shows the ups and downs of life.

That long summer has passed and has become an important node in my life. In the later years, I never gave up traditional culture and Buddhism. I regard them as a good medicine to save suffering, as a mentor to turn over a new leaf, and as a yardstick to start thinking.

I used to love watching TV dramas and movies, but now I give up watching them. I used to see the opposite sex deliberately causing trouble, but now I know that I shouldn't, so I won't do that anymore; I used to have a lot of thoughts about lust in my mind, but now I know it. It's too harmful.

I used to indulge my desires, but now I finally have the ability to nip them in the bud and focus on more valuable things. In order to stay away from evil thoughts, I read traditional cultural classics every day, enrich my mind with the teachings of sages and wash my dirty soul.

It is a difficult and complicated process to get out of the three traps of "emotion, color and desire" in life, just like it is easy to drop a drop of ink into clear water, but it is difficult to take it out from clear water.

Looking back, I saw my way out in lust, and I said:

The difference between holiness and madness, care about an idea. Sacred thoughts are crazy, and crazy thoughts are sacred. As soon as you think of your heart, your feelings are deeply rooted, and fate is enough. This feeling is increasing day by day, so you have all kinds of tangled and arrogant ideas later. Even if most people have families, it is selfish to see his beauty.

Or a desire, born from the brain, grows immediately and can't go any more. It is these countless thoughts that drag people into the trap of "lust", so if you want to get rid of suffering, you have to start with this idea.

Heaven does evil, especially against it; You can't live if you commit a crime. Mills of God grind slowly but sure. Doing good is a blessing, but doing bad is a curse. Karma, not happy at all. Laugh at the thought of consciousness; When you are confused, you are sad. A pure-hearted man is also a Quaker.

If you don't do well, you will be inspired by all kinds of misfortunes. Ruthless people are prone to liver disease, greedy people are prone to kidney disease, and women who have abortions are prone to gynecological diseases. Sexual desire not only seriously affects people's health, but also has a great impact on people's fate. The corruption of officials has always been inseparable from lust.

To pursue one's ambition, one must believe that lust is empty. Sexual desire is not real, but we really suffer from it. Why is love not true? Loving couples quarrel, where is love? Why is the hue unreal? Hue, painted skin also.

This skin is flesh and blood, especially the contents of the skin. The color is not clean, but we are wrong. As soon as I met the situation, I immediately became delusional and persistent. Where is the chance of liberation? Why is desire not real? Without thought, where does desire exist? Layers of analysis, lust is false or false, lust is not worth it at all, and it will suffer a lot. With this in mind, you should be cautious when you start thinking again.

Zhu Dexiao comes first. Filial piety is the foundation of virtue, and teaching is born. Father and son are related. I am old, and I am old. People who respect others but not their parents are nothing.

I have long lacked a heart to honor my parents. This shows that there is something wrong with the foundation, so the building can't stand the wind and rain outside anyway. So I strengthened the foundation: Disciples' Rules, First Filial Piety ... Parents should call slowly, be careful and not be lazy ... If you are injured, you will worry about your parents, and you will be hurt by your morality.

If you walk on the right path and keep this sincere respect for your parents, you will keep your inner justice and evil will not happen. Greed, lust and lust will naturally weaken.

The sage's teaching woke me up, and the realistic dilemma prompted me to leave quickly. More than two years is still too short, and it passed in a blink of an eye. When I opened the photos of my undergraduate course, I found my wretched face and felt sick in my heart.

I still like myself now, although I have a heavy erotic habit. It takes time to clean up my mind, and the process of cleaning up has made me feel the long-lost happiness.

My heart was not covered by desire, my body and mind relaxed, and I suddenly felt happy and moved. This is the life I should live. Because of obsession, I have lived in the ocean of eroticism for too long, and I can't get rid of it at all, thinking about eroticism.

Now that I have been exposed to traditional culture, I finally understand how people should live. A gentleman goes against his will: it is necessary to make mistakes and be upset! An upright man is open and poised, little people are always sad! A spoonful of food, a spoonful of drink, people can't bear to worry, and they won't change their fun when they go back! Learning while learning is a pleasure!

When I got home, I found my parents were old and their eyes were full of concern. I was ashamed of my parents. Over the years, I have failed in virtue and career, which worries my parents. The heart began to become peaceful, obviously angry, and stopped when it felt wrong. Put down your point of view, follow your parents' ideas, and don't want to argue with your parents. The relationship with parents becomes close, like an old child, which makes them very happy. This familiar feeling is back, or the child. It's just that the child crossed the erotic shoal, found the direction of life and learned to be a man again.