Talk to blind people and fools

I am not blind, but I want to be a fool.

What changes can you make in half a year? Maybe you are full of lies, maybe you are used to being scolded every day, maybe you paralyze yourself with some humble expectations, and at the same time envy other people's lives and live a life you don't like.

I am not blind, but I want to be a fool.

When I am not blind but a fool, everything I do is: nothing, she is just a fool. When I am neither blind nor stupid, everything I do is: Well, she is just a fool.

I used to like to write down all the joys and sorrows, as well as love and thoughts in memos. ...

I've been losing sleep recently, thinking about these strange languages all the time. I found that I have white hair on my head and I can't pull it out. Suddenly, I woke up from my dream. I was lying on the bed at home, holding a little doll whose hair was cut off by my brother. I smiled involuntarily and suddenly reacted. I didn't go to work a few days ago, and I was lying in my warm and comfortable big bed. This may be a dream. It's okay. Go back to sleep.

On a sunny morning, I need my mother's crying to get up. Everything is familiar and warm.

No, why didn't my mother call me as usual, but looked at me with eyes she had never seen before, sad and sad ... what happened at home? "I'm really a fool." I didn't know that my mother came to teach me to fold the quilt, teach me to dress, and take me to wash and eat breakfast. Everything was so natural and strange. Why is my brain so clear, but my mouth won't say it? I can only hear a few squeaky monosyllabic shouts. I watched a lot of soul-piercing dramas and immediately realized that I was wearing them. ...

After breakfast, my mother asked me to meet the chef Xiao in the living room. My mother tried to squeeze out a smile. Your favorite little plum mantra "God, it hurts" has come out again. Please watch carefully and don't run around. I'm going to work with my father and sister.

I nodded involuntarily and smiled.

Maybe I really became a fool, but I have a normal soul in my body.

I turned around and saw how the mobile phone was in the corner, excited and excited.

I ran to get my mobile phone, WeChat, QQ, Weibo, Bili Bili, Tik Tok, these are all my own. Why, when my family is away, I move freely and don't think too much. I browsed my mobile phone and silently thought, can I do many things that I didn't dare to do before? Anyway, I am a fool now.

First, I didn't have time to confess to the male god at school. I called him and told him that I had always liked him for several years. Although I don't like him now, I must let him know.

Second, scold everyone I hate, classmates, colleagues and strangers around me, and tell them that I hate them and that kind of life.

What else can I do? Well, yes, tell mom and dad not to worry about themselves. Sister should work hard and raise me as a silly sister.

After all this, suddenly only happiness is left.

Mom came back, touched my head and said "good boy", then stuffed me with snacks, turned around and walked to the room with dad. It turned out to be my favorite biscuits and potato chips, and the taste of lime was faint.

The soul in the body commands this body, which can also be said to be my body. When I walk to the door, I hear my parents discussing things about me inside, and finally I only sigh.

I am such a lovely and cheerful child. Then I don't know how it got like this. I lost my job, which brought so much bitterness and pain to my parents.

My soul tells me that this is your own prayer. ...

My sister cooked the meal, my mother quietly touched her tears, and my father looked at the ceiling and lamented. Then they smiled at me and took me to dinner with my favorite pickled fish and chips.

After listening to my sister discuss with them and want to take me back to pack my things, they nodded and agreed.

With the familiar smell of vehicles and people, I want to go back to the place I didn't like and stayed for a long time. My soul didn't want to go back. My body licked Sugar-Coated Berry happily and took my sister's hand.

After driving for half a day, the familiar smell at home suddenly disappeared.

When I was packing, I saw the books and pillows that I had the honor to move from school. Suddenly I tripped. Why am I still lying in bed with a pillow? A colleague knocked at the door outside and shouted, Li Jing, come out quickly. The leader called you. I became a fool, so I came back to work. Oh, I am dreaming.

I tied my hair casually and went out wearing a pair of canvas shoes. I was scolded, worked, flattered and found snacks as before. I haven't eaten hot pot with my good friends for a long time. I miss it.

Suddenly, I realized that the atmosphere was different from the past. My colleague showed me the mobile phone. How come there is a long joke in the unit group, which was sent by me, and I suddenly trembled. Take out his mobile phone, there are many text messages and missed calls. The male god said, sorry, he already has a girlfriend, wish me happiness. Gee, I like Fei Qiming now. Much sunnier than you. Mom and dad's phone, sister's news, told me not to think too much, go to work well, they are all fine, and then showed me the photos of pickled fish and potato chips just made. Last time I went home to fry tofu, the oil in the pot ran away and my sister copied it and laughed at it, haha. Unit group exploded. After a careful look, I scolded everyone, including the leaders who are respectful to them at ordinary times, as well as friends and classmates. I didn't think I was such a person, so never be friends with me again.

At this moment, I wish I was both blind and a fool.

When have I ever done these things? How should I do these things? But it's exciting ...

An inevitable pause.

I dragged my luggage home with the same car as I dreamed, and lay at home for many days, as if I were very happy.

One morning, my mother suddenly looked at me with that kind of "familiar" eyes and told me to get up for dinner, which made me inexplicably nervous.

Suddenly, my head hurts. I was hit by a bed. How can I be familiar with pillows and curtains? Don't I just wake up now? ...

Get up, drink a mouthful of cold water in the cup, clean up and wash, thoughtful.