True first love story, moved

Hehe, I will write one myself! I'm still studying. I have a crush on a lovely little girl in my class. She is short and kind, and always has a smile on her face, which attracts me. I am timid. I look at her silently every day, but she never looks at me, which makes me very sad. Later, the teacher arranged for us to sit at the same table. I am very happy, but I dare not show it. I kept my distance from her because I was afraid of classmates' jokes. Because I am introverted and timid, I have been afraid to tell her that I love her. In winter, she told me that she was cold, and I immediately took off my clothes for her to wear. My classmates laughed at me and laughed that I was better to girls than boys. I was so nervous that I was afraid that she would know that I had a crush on her, so I ended it as if nothing had happened. . . . . In the second semester of knowing her, we were no longer deskmates. I looked at her and smiled silently, but then I learned that she fell in love with a boy in the class, which was a bolt from the blue for me! I miss her before going to bed at night. Slowly, I think it will be better for me to be a silent angel to protect her, because he can give her happiness, but I can't, so I have a bad attitude towards her this semester, because I want her to hate me, so I can stop loving her, but I know I have fallen in love with her deeply. . . . . . I have known her for the third semester, and now this semester, I am hot and cold to her. I really want to tell her that I love her at once, but I can't, because I hate refusing! Later, knowing that she broke up with him, I quickly comforted her on QQ. I don't want to make her sad, because if she is sad, my heart will hurt. I also told her many ways to relieve stress and how difficult my love is, but I didn't talk about her because I couldn't give her happiness. Two weeks after school started, I learned that another male student in my class liked her, and that male student always talked to her. They seem to get along well, but I don't know what she thinks. If they have a chance to be together, I will still bless her, because he can also give her happiness. . . . . . I am willing to be an angel who silently guards her, comforting her when she is sad, giving her happiness when she is angry, and I am satisfied when I see her happiness!