Some feelings after taking children to participate in the unified stall in the mall

Go to the night market planned by the mall to stand out. Arrange mom to sit in the rest area near the mall booth. We went directly to the night market after dialysis from the hospital and came early. Some stall owners have set up booths.

The booth was crowded and the temperature was 37 degrees during the day. At this time, the shopping mall doesn't turn on the air conditioner, which is very stuffy. The mall provided a unified table, but fortunately, a vendor in the group bought me a folding stool to sit on. 18 yuan.

At half past six, my little cousin came over from work to help me take my mother home first. Then come back and help me take care of Mo Xiaomei.

During this period, Mo Xiaomei slept, and her hair was so hot that she couldn't do it.

It is really difficult for Mo Xiaomei to bring her into this environment.

From six to half past nine, three and a half hours.

Talk about some feelings of participating in the stall for the first time.

1. My booth is small and things look messy. Nothing special.

People who live nearby come out for a walk after dinner and come and see more. Shopping mall activities haven't been spread out yet, and there are few ladies.

3. set up a stall. I make soy sauce. I am a professional.

There is a glasses seller, and JD.COM has his own shop. Offline stalls are also available for sale.

* Miss T next door is her own factory, which is also sold in offline stores.

* A little girl who sells snacks such as spicy edamame and double skin milk is a student. Tik Tok works well, with thousands of hits. I used to set up a stall at the night market where I took my children with my neighbors last time. The daily turnover can be 1000. Of course, the stall she sold here yesterday was not so good, and the traffic here was not enough.

* A stall owner selling foamed ice powder went to another market to set up a stall to sell clothes today. Continue to come to our mall to sell ice powder in the evening. There is also a discount in the stall group, and each stall owner in the group after the preferential appointment is limited to a piece of foamed ice powder. It is said that it is generally sold around 7 yuan, and the cost price is 3 yuan. The stall owners in the group are early adopters. I haven't eaten. I ordered one. I found that he directly added the person we booked as a friend and pulled a group. Let's get it after we get to the phone booth. If it is delicious, it will be his repeat customers in the future, and the business is doing very well!

* Miss Jie from the booth next door works during the day. Usually, after work at night, I will also set up a stall outside to sell hair bands and hair accessories.

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In contrast, I, who looks very diligent and takes my baby out of the stall, actually has a very low rate of return. Being busy has no practical value, and I am very tired.

I charged 40 yuan the first night, and my mobile phone was dead. I rented a charging treasure with Alipay for three and a half hours, and I deducted 8 yuan when I returned it. Bought a bottle of water, 2 yuan. Plus the folding stool 18 yuan I bought, I didn't make any money today. My little cousin came to help me see people. Instead of letting her eat anything, she bought me a bottle of water to drink.

When you are hungry, eat the sugar packets you bought to pad your stomach. Go home at night/kloc-after 0/0 to cook temporarily and eat together. They followed me 1 1 for dinner.

Those who volunteer to set up stalls must endure when they are tired.

66 yuan was accepted the next night. Two pairs of earrings were sold at the opening ceremony. The stall owner who bought me a bench came to see me and liked it very much, so he sold it to her cheaply. Another acquaintance passed by and bought 10 yuan's hairpin for her daughter. This time, I took Mo Xiaomei to set up a stall alone, only to find that one of her shoes was dropped in the mall. Take the things to the booth and go back to find shoes. I couldn't find it halfway, so I had to come back and set up a stall. When you put your shoes near your home, pray that you can find them.

The stall in the mall was still a little stuffy, so I brought a small fan. Mo Xiaomei began to cry a little because it was too hot. I'm fine after getting used to it. Let me hold it. Or sit on the bag on the floor and play with the storage bag I put under the table.

It starts at 9: 30, and it's almost 10 when I get home. After looking at the stall owner, several people said that the business here was not good and it was not hot, but it was better for him to set up a stall outside to do business, so he called customer service and quit. My little cousin called to ask me about today. The meaning expressed in the words is that it is best not to go on this hot day, but to take the children with you. Originally, I wanted to stick to my business regardless, instead of fishing for three days and drying the net for two days. After these two days, I am actually a little shaken.

Mom also said beside me, my dad, some people used to say that he seemed to be busy all day, and it was useless to win. Because I just muddle along, I can't earn money to go home.

I know what it means. She was afraid that I would be too busy to make money and bring myself down. They are not easy, old and young.

I feel a little frustrated and feel that I can't do anything well. I also know that I am now working hard with low quality, just comforting my sense of self-worth.

I made it clear that I just wanted to do something, otherwise I would fall into a panic like a person who is waiting to die in a mixed life. Now I'm eating my mother's resources. Although I am taking care of my mother and children, I can't go to work and have no income. The truth is, every bowl of rice I eat is eaten by my mother. I think I'm willing to mix it up and die, and I'll waste it sooner or later. I didn't tell my mother about the last sentence. Mom won't let me think so. Instead, I feel that I am dragging me down. I want to take care of her here, and she can't help me.

This is an infinite loop.

I bathed Mo Xiaomei at night and found some small thorns on her lower back when she was wearing diapers. After giving her a bath, I rubbed prickly heat powder. I began to feel that I shouldn't want to find a sense of value and let my children follow me to eat this meaningless pain.

When I go home at night, the electric car is dead and I can't climb the mountain. The battery life is officially declared dead. I need to change the battery.

Because the electric car was bought by an acquaintance introduced by my second cousin's brother-in-law, I asked my second cousin last night whether to go to the acquaintance or to the garage opened by someone in my uncle's village to change the battery. In short, I just want to find an acquaintance with peace of mind and discount. I didn't receive this message until this morning.

As soon as I got home last night, she sent me a message telling me not to set up a stall. I can't take responsibility for anything that happens on the road at night. Even after riding a bike at night, she feels dangerous. If something goes wrong, there is no one to rely on. I said the contract had been signed, and then I'll show it to you. I will pay attention to safety and slow down on the way. I didn't recall the news. I vaguely know that she can't stand me and won't listen to their opinions. She insisted on taking Mo Xiaomei to the night market to set up a stall and ignored me.

Mo Xiaomei didn't get up until eleven o'clock, so I bought a car and changed this battery myself. Come back and take the baby to cook, and take her to take a nap after three o'clock in the afternoon. I took a nap at four o'clock and saw the information of my second cousin. The simple words I sent this time made me particularly depressed and even couldn't help crying.

Can't explain the mood now. Dissatisfaction with the status quo, self-doubt, fear of the future ... maybe both.

Living, why so many things. Living, how so tired.

I should realize how my mother felt when she bought the affordable housing she lived in despite everyone's opposition.

The big cousin and the second cousin are also very opposed, saying that it is for their own good. They are in poor health, and their father is the only one who lives on a small pension. I'm afraid I can't pay back the money I borrowed when I bought a house.

Mom said that she once answered a phone call from her second cousin and told her a story. She cried all day after hanging up the phone. I just can't help crying.

I know my second cousin is perverse, thoughtful and considerate of others. I think we're all fine. That is to say, the words are strong and even hurt people's hearts unconsciously.

At that time, I also said, mom, I know my second cousin has such a temper. Don't be so sad because of what she said. Buying a house is your own business, and borrowing money from others will be repaid as soon as possible. Live your own life.

A few years ago, after my father died, my cousin who opposed buying a house turned to her mother and said, fortunately, I bought this suite at first, at least with a place to live. Many years later, they recognized my mother's practice, but at the beginning, my mother's tears broke my heart, and only she and I knew.

Now it's your turn, or your mood will be affected.

Sure enough, it's simple to talk! It's really hard to do it!

I know the truth, but it's still hard.

Give me time to adjust my mood.

Today's lunch: rice flour meat, loofah, fried pepper.

Mom eats leftovers at night, and I go out to eat cold rice noodles. When I get back, Mo Xiaomei will cook some noodles for her.