Why do you think abortion is cruel?

I gave birth to two babies, and I didn't want both of them just to get divorced, but although I often think so, I know I can't do it at all. I know I can't beat children. I think this child is so cute, just like an angel. What if he was born to be a particularly smart, obedient and sensible person? If I do, I will miss my own children when I see other people's children, so although I am unhappy, I will not deprive my children of their lives. Everyone has everyone's thoughts and thoughts, and that's what I am. Either I don't have them, or I am reborn.