Xiao Min’s story

? The sound of firecrackers outside the window is endless and continuous. The fireworks render the entire world that can be seen from the window. Xiao Min in the house is heartbroken. The Spring Festival is the beginning of happiness for a happy family. Source, but it is the catalyst of pain for sad people!

? I don’t know what year the Taibai wine on the table was. I grabbed it casually and looked for relief in the confusion. Alcohol is a short-term ecstasy! This sleep felt like I had slept for 30 years. The 30 years were vividly in my mind, like a fast projector, playing out all the important episodes in my life in my mind!

? Little Min was born in winter, and was abandoned in a firewood pile at the entrance of the village a few days after birth! She was picked up by a family in the village and raised as a daughter. Her adoptive father loved her, but her adoptive mother thought she was a burden. The man in the family made the decision, so Xiao Min grew up amidst the awkwardness and dissatisfaction. She went to school and was no different from other children of the same age. Strangely, when I was 16 years old, my adoptive father passed away. He went to the coal kiln and collapsed to death. On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, he collapsed and died in the coal kiln in Shanxi on the 17th of the first lunar month! When the body was brought back for burial, the old people in the village saw the thick layer of callus on Shitou's (adoptive father's nickname) right thigh, which was proof that he had lived for 53 years and worked in a coal mine for 17 years. No one noticed it when I was young, but it was only remembered after death and enshrinement!

? After losing a sum of money for the funeral, the rest of the money was never seen again. Xiao Min also did not enter the school again that year. It was supposed to be the last year of her third year in junior high school. During the semester, just like this, I entered the big family of society in a hurry and without any warning.

? Came to Xi'an alone. At the age of 16, her understanding of the city was originally admiration, love and curiosity, but for her, it was to make a living. Her first job was in a private small village in the city. She made underwear in the workshop, and it took her a month to basically learn how to make underwear. At that time, she was just growing up, and no one told her about the modification of underwear. She made so many sets, and in the dead of night, She picked up the pink underwear that she had made that was just about the size of her own breasts, but was just about the size of her rudimentary breasts. She stood in the bathroom in darkness because she was afraid to turn on the light and disturb others who would find her stealing the underwear, but she was enjoying it alone. Appreciate the way you put on your underwear in the dark, open your eyes and look at your body in the dark, close your eyes because you are afraid that you will not be able to see yourself in the dark, just like this, look at yourself quietly and think about yourself , increasingly shy and mature! At the age of 16, her desire for beauty was just that!

? After two years like this, she left the place that gave her insights into life. She wanted to go out and get out of the workshop, see the city of Xi'an, and see what else she could do besides making underwear. After doing something, being frustrated and deceived, and realizing the complexity of society and the warmth and warmth of human relationships, after two months of wandering life, she failed to find a job suitable for her age, so she continued to make a living, working as a cashier in a restaurant. It was there that she met the first man in her life, a man who was 6 years older than her. He was loyal and honest. He picked her up on time after get off work every day. He had a second-hand electric car. The man on the roof of the rental house used a dilapidated guitar. The two lines I sang to her: You are the scorching waves of September summer, and you are the yearning for the sudden heavy rain! She hated his smoking, but she still picked up a lighter to light a cigarette for him. As if he accepted a man's cigarette, he blocked the firelight with his hand, making her both a lover and a brother. In the long village in the city, there was no night at night. On the way to the lamp, countless times the two people held each other's arms and talked about their future beauty. He talked about her, and she thought about him. The bowl of hot noodles at home warmed the man's stomach and held the man's hand. Heart!

She asked him: Is it delicious?

He said: Delicious!

Her: Then you can eat it every day!

Him: OK! I will eat your noodles every day from now on!

? He met all her expectations for love. He was ignorant about love, but at an age he was looking forward to it. He was full of passion. After knowing each other for half a year, they got together. There was no blessing or wedding because her adoptive mother She has remarried a long time ago and is now the head of the family.

? Just like that, it was time to get a marriage certificate. The two went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to apply for a marriage certificate on the second day of Xiao Min’s birthday! Half a year later, the child was born. Not long after the child was born, the man died on the construction site. No one told her how he died. They only said that something happened and that he was holding the hand tightly in his hand when he died. No one touched the family photo and the day's wages, not even Xiao Min, they just left like that! There was no one else at that funeral, only her and her young child. It was the most extravagant time for them. They followed the city people to the crematorium. Xiao Min said: If you are buried, you can't be with us. It's cremated. , our family can be together forever, so we can take you with us wherever we go!

? Xiao Min struggled to survive alone in this city for several years. Later, her acquaintance with Lao Song gave Xiao Min unlimited imagination and hope. The shock of the child being far away from the world was a blow that had long been felt in his heart. We know it well but cannot accept the pain of reality!

? Maybe there is no one or thing that can tempt her anymore. Day after day, she lies in bed in a daze and confusion, recalling the scenes of the past, like a passing cloud. , like stabbing her heart with a knife, not letting her die, not letting her live. In this life, people are born to experience something. No one told her that living is like a walking corpse. Living is just because she doesn’t have the courage to die. In the first half of her life, The painful struggle will be the end or just the beginning... no one knows.

During the Spring Festival after Lao Song died, Xiao Min left that city, and no one knew where she went! When I came back two years later, I was with a man and lost my left arm. Xiao Min rolled up his left sleeve and returned to her hometown, the place where she was raised and where she had her first memories. The spring was warm and the flowers were blooming, and the two of them In the farmland, you farmed and I farmed. Later, when the family situation improved, a replacement wedding was held. The villagers’ story about Xiao Min stopped at the description of that wedding.

? Xiao Min’s wedding did not have a complicated process, it was just about eating and entertaining guests. There were a few young people in the village who loved the fun and asked them to tell them how they met and the process, so Xiao Min told them .

Xiao Min: Why did you marry me?

Him: You look good.

Xiao Min: Will you be good to me?

Him: As long as I don’t die

Xiao Min: I don’t want you anymore, okay?

Him: Then don’t do it!

Him: Why did you marry me!

Her: Because I met you.

Him: I don’t want you anymore?

Her: Then don’t do it!

Him: Will you marry me?

Her: As long as we are alive!

?The wedding is over like this! Discussions in the village arose one after another about young people's frivolous feelings towards Xiao Min! Xiao Min and he only work in the fields!