At which moment did you want to slap your former self to death?

When I recall what I did in the past at night, I always want to slap myself to death. I feel that I am so unbearable that I don’t want to remember it at all. Every time I think about it, I feel very regretful. If I could go back in time, I would never do this. I was an art student at the time, and I went to find an art studio in our city. There I met the boy I had been secretly in love with for 6 years. One day after class, I returned to the house I rented and saw him on the street. We had never met before, it was like meeting for the first time. He didn’t know me. The first time I saw him, my heart started beating wildly. Love at first sight really existed.

After that, I met him through friends and quickly got together with him, but he is a Libra and is very kind to everyone. I really want to confess to him, but in my heart I knew very clearly that he probably didn’t like me. Later, a group of us went to the art exam together. We had two cars. He played very well with a girl and always helped her carry her painting supplies. I After seeing it, I felt very sad. He invited me to build the same car as him, but I refused. I turned around and left with another group of friends. The main reason was that the relationship between those friends and him was not particularly good.

Our relationship has not been that good since then. Although it was just a small thing, in my youth at that time, it was enough to make the other person feel that I didn't care about him. He might be He has a good impression of me. Now that I think about it, he always buys the things I like to eat, and when he encounters books I like, he will always buy them for me, or take pictures and send them to me so that I can go back and buy them. He is very considerate. The reason why the relationship gradually became cold may be because of my personal attitude.

A small thing that day became a watershed in our relationship. If I could time travel, I just want to travel to that day. I would tell myself that I must walk with him, I must If I confessed to him at the right time, maybe we would be together forever. I really regret it.