Tell me about my sister

I am used to calling me "old sister" instead of calling me sister. My sister and I are 2 years apart, and we still spend a lot of time together. Before boarding school in high school, I spent most of my time with my sister. My relationship with my elder sister is quite good, but I still don’t feel that close. We rarely talk about emotional topics, and we don’t share any concerns or secrets with each other.

? My sister loves me. Due to family background, my sister entered the society after graduating from junior high school and worked as a nanny and in a restaurant. The salary at that time was relatively low, but she lived frugally and supported my living expenses and tuition fees in high school. Buy me clothes. Entering society so early, I guess there must have been a lot of grievances, but these ladies never mentioned it to me. I know she must have been silently suffering some things.

In my opinion, there were some traumatic events in my sister’s childhood. He must have been in the first or second grade of elementary school. I don’t know why, but his little cheek was slapped hard by his third uncle. The old lady always feels that the reason for her poor hearing in one ear is that slap. The slap happened in her childhood, but the psychological trauma has never gone away, which also caused the elder sister to have some low self-esteem. Indeed, my sister is not confident enough. She has been envious of others since she was a child, envious of her own classmates and those around me. The sentence that the old lady often mentions is: "Look at so and so, how white their skin is, how tall they are, how beautiful they are...". And I was often compared with my classmates by my elder sister. At that time, I was also very helpless and inferior because I also wanted to become whiter and more beautiful. In fact, after studying now, I can understand my sister's heart better. She wants to change but cannot change the pain, because she is not confident enough on the inside and uses the outside to show her beauty.

My sister is warm-hearted. She has worked hard in society for many years and has led small teams. She has very good communication skills. But I think my sister is sometimes too stubborn and always thinks that what she says is right. Sometimes she cannot distinguish the boundaries of things and will take care of too many things, making herself thankless. I always feel that my elder sister pursues more material and appearance, longs for success, and successfully owns a lot of wealth. This also makes her easily confused by the interests in front of her, and she falls heavily. I hope that this fall can wake me up, and I also hope that this fall can change my life and give me a new beginning.

Bless you, my dearest sister.