Broken Sunshine_1200 words

In my heart, you are very fragile, but there is a hint of stubbornness in your eyes. Looking at your immature face with a maturity that does not match your age, my eyes are filled with tears.

You have broken hair, your bangs are slightly tilted, and the corners of your mouth are slightly raised. I stood in front of the mirror for a long time, without any words, just standing there blankly staring at my other self in the mirror.

I have been with you for a long time but I don’t know what to say. I can only look at you, who is depressed every day, and then appears in front of everyone with a happy face again the next morning. It is inevitable that there will be a little pain in my heart.

Your seat is next to the window, and I often see you moving your eyes out the window from time to time. You like to look at the scenery outside the window and appreciate it alone. In your heart, they are sacred, maybe , is just your only reliance in school. In the eyes of others, you are very quiet, even to the extreme, and they all call you a lady. Not familiar with it? You also have a crazy side, but you are not good at expressing or communicating. The inadvertent disguise cannot be taken off for a long time.

That's just you. Every time after school, I have to stay until dark before leaving. You like to travel alone in the dark night and enjoy quiet contemplation. Under the sway of the street lamp, watching you penetrate the layers of mist, the cold wind blowing on your body, your tired back leaves behind the loneliness along the way.

You named yourself Sui'er because you hope that you can be like Mai Sui, even if you still have a little strength, you have to make the final struggle. Maybe it's because you don't want to give up Feier, Xin'er, or more people. Although we are like shadows, sometimes we really leave a trace of confusion for each other. I remember that when you were in Xiaohe, the first article you published was recommended by a senior member named "Bingxue Ling'er". When she wrote you a comment such as "make a friend", you were so stupid at the time. Since you would ask her repeatedly, "Can I make friends?" Maybe you were so innocent at that time. You never thought about semen or anything. You just wanted to be an ordinary high-level person. Even if you only accumulate five to five points, as long as you I am happy in my heart, and I am willing to do it no matter how "bitter" or "tired" it is. Perhaps because of your simple personality, as time goes by, you have more friends day by day, so they think you are very popular. It often arouses the extremes of many members.

They all say that you are considerate. Only I know that it's just your surface. Maybe, as Wu Lei said, you are indeed a person who is good at disguising, because you don't want to show your fragile face to others. Unconsciously, one month and two months passed. Maybe because of your curiosity, after you clicked on the composition of a specially hired person named "Bingxue Shui Ling'er", you admired her excellence and her personality. Gradually, after staying in the chat room for four months, you decided to go to the composition forum to get to know the member you once admired.

Came to the forum through the introduction of the little purple goddess. She became the apprentice of a senior member named "CLY1219" that day, but she didn't know that she was one of the important people of Bingxue Shui Ling'er. You like to call her Master Leier affectionately, but you never care about her attitude towards you. Perhaps all of this is a series of coincidences that have allowed you to get to know "Princess Xiangling", "Edelweiss Angel", "Colorful Dancer" and others. Perhaps because they had similar aspirations, they soon became close friends. Perhaps it was your reckless impulsiveness that led to the long-lasting romance. The matter between you two is a mystery in the eyes of many people. No one knows that you, who was once a biological sister to "Princess Xiangling" and "Edelweiss Angel", will become your current enemy. From that moment on, you changed, some say, you became ruthless, cold, and mysterious. The innocence of the past is gone, replaced by some sad colors. From that moment on, you no longer restrain yourself and often use others as a tool to vent. Some people say that you have become too outrageous. Some people say that it is the tragedy in your heart that is inspired. All kinds of words tempted you, and finally, you couldn't help it anymore, and you started to quarrel with Wu Ye Wu Lei. I know you can't forget the past and the pain they caused you, so you reject them and resent them everywhere. Rather than saying that, it's more that you are too resentful.

It all happens so fast that you are caught off guard.

In the end, even she, the one you always relied on, left because of her studies. You are truly lonely. It seems that God has closed a door and opened a window for you.

Let you have Xin'er, Xiaoying and others again. You cry out feebly, but what is gone cannot come back.

No matter how conspicuous you stand, the sun will never reach your corner. You hide yourself too deeply. There is a wall in your heart. You often hide in dark places to touch the fragments of the sunshine of the past. The sunshine of the past is broken, and then your innocence disappears.