One of my youthful memories: Maybe one day you will regret knowing me.

Maybe one day, you will regret knowing me.

I always remember the first sentence you said to me at that time, because I was surprised at what kind of life experience could make you say such a thing to someone you met for the first time. All stories began with this sentence.

At that time, I came to Wuhan for the first time and studied in this big city. Without parental restraint, it is like a bird escaping from a cage, with a little confusion in excitement. Like all adolescent boys, I have always wanted to know a perfect confidant of the opposite sex. But my looks are not outstanding, and I have no confidence in communicating with girls.

Fortunately, at that time, the network was relatively developed, and everyone had QQ, so I started searching online. Originally, I thought that the internet could get rid of the shackles of appearance, but in reality no one replied to my message.

It was at this time that suddenly one day, the system reminded me that a good friend had passed. This made me very happy. I quickly sent the first message: Hello, nice to meet you!

But after waiting for a long time, the sentence appeared on the screen: Maybe one day, you will regret knowing me. This sentence surprised me and made me curious about her. Then I also know that if I can't make her like me in the next sentence, maybe I can't communicate with her.

I don't know how I came out: I once regretted it, but time didn't give me such an opportunity. The moment I said it, I admired myself a little. After waiting for a long time, she finally responded: well said, nice to meet you.

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In this way, we really began to get to know each other.

Through understanding, she gives me the impression that she is a conservative rural girl like me, and seems to be somewhat exclusive to the outside world. And my curiosity about her is getting heavier and heavier, because whenever I send her a message, she can always reply to me as soon as possible. She is three years younger than me and should still be in high school. Maybe they are allowed to play mobile phones at school? And whenever I ask her what she is doing, her answer is always boiling medicine. Maybe her family runs a Chinese medicine shop.

I began to try to slowly shift the topic to herself, hoping to open her heart, get to know her better and maybe help her.

It turned out that her family didn't open a pharmacy, and she didn't go to school, because her body didn't allow it, and all the medicines she cooked were for her own use. My heart sank. What kind of illness can make people unable to go to school? And you need to take a large dose of medicine every day?

She has suffered from blood diseases since she was a child. Although she explained it to me, I still don't quite understand. Simply put, some elements in her blood are lower than ordinary people, which leads to her poor resistance and difficult coagulation. How bad is the resistance? When others go to the hospital to see a doctor, she will get sick because there are the most germs in the air in the hospital. Because she is a girl, every month's holiday is an adventure for her, because it may be dangerous because of the difficulty in stopping bleeding.

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I thought the disease had brought her enough harm, but in fact, the physical harm is often not the most painful, and the most painful is often from our closest people.

Because of this disease, my family spent a lot of money and energy, went to many hospitals and saw many doctors, and none of them could be cured. Finally, the old Chinese doctor introduced by others gave her a good prescription to cure her disease. So there was the first scene, and she had to cook medicine for herself every day.

However, any medicine always has side effects. If you want to cure her disease, increase the elements in the blood and improve her immunity; Depending on the androgen in the body, the side effect of the medicine prescribed by the old Chinese doctor is to stimulate her androgen secretion. This has a great influence on her as a minor. During the voice change period, her voice began to become rich, and there were always some strange eyes around.

What saddens her most is that once her brother scolded her in the shopping mall, because she couldn't stand the eyes around her, which made her feel ashamed and her father didn't like her very much. Fortunately, her mother loves her, so she can support her until now.

So she no longer likes shopping and taking selfies that girls like, and she doesn't like dealing with people she doesn't know. At this time, I also understood why she said that to me in the first place.

But after such a long time of communication, I feel that she seems to be rejecting the outside world and just wants to stay in a corner that she knows very well, and I should have the obligation and responsibility to help her go out and meet new things.

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So I started telling jokes to amuse her. And she seems to rely on me more and more. I talk to her about everything, even some private things about her.

I am also beginning to be glad that my goal seems to have been achieved. She gradually began to be willing to talk more, take selfies for me, accept new things and not exclude external things.

She also gave me a name: Star. No other opposite sex has given me a special name since I was a child. Looking at this name, I felt as if it implied that I could bring her hope, so I accepted it gladly. By the way, she said her name was Han. When I first heard this name, my heart was still a little chilly.

But the development of things seems beyond my control, because I never thought that one day she would like me and I would be with her, although it was on the Internet.

Speaking of who we like first, she said I like her, and I smiled and said you don't like me. I have also thought many times from the bottom of my heart, whether I have lost the feeling of liking, or whether I have not been tempted by her, and why there is no love for others in my heart. But I don't want to hurt her when she first came out.

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In the later days, I seemed to be all to her. Seeing my news can make her happy, and we have changed from text messages to phone calls.

When I first heard her voice, although it was a little different, I wasn't surprised, probably because my voice was not good either. Every night, I talk to her on the phone, and sometimes she calls me when she can't sleep in the middle of the night. Then I got out of bed and chatted with her on the balcony for more than an hour, and finally sang to put her to sleep.

One day, she said she wanted to see me. I was a little excited, but she didn't have a computer, and her mobile phone didn't support video calling at that time. For me, she went to a nearby Internet cafe. Although the environment there was noisy and smoky, she put up with it for hours before seeing me.

I was very happy when I saw her, because although her voice was different, she was really a beauty, and I also had a beautiful girlfriend who was envied by others. I also talked to her for a long time that day.

Later, she went to Internet cafes more often. Finally, she bought a computer and I bought a second-hand desktop, which made it much more convenient for me to video with her. Only then did I realize that although she stayed at home, she danced so well that I felt incredible. How lucky I am to know her as my girlfriend.

She said that she had a wish: to visit me in Wuhan. I didn't care at that time, thinking it would take a long time to realize it, so I casually replied, okay. But what I didn't expect was that the next year, she never traveled far, and came to Wuhan from Suzhou alone to meet my boyfriend.