25 years old, nothing, what should I do?

At the age of 25, I finally became a loser in my mind.

Having been a loser for 25 years, I soon came to 20 17.

I was born in 1992. According to my ID card, I am 25 years old. What kind of person am I? Being nothing, being lazy, eating to death, being smart and being pretentious, these are the real me.

At the age of 25, many people understand this truth. They used to think they understood, but they still didn't understand when they were 25 years old.

None of the goals and ideals that should be achieved before the age of 25 have been achieved, especially when people around me are gradually realizing them, the more worried I am.

25 years old, living in a rental house with a monthly rent of 650 yuan, dreaming of having a car and a ticket girl. I just saw a car on the Internet yesterday, Porsche 9 1 1, which is very handsome. I will buy it for her in the future.

At the age of 25, I am empty-handed, but I am already dreaming of an unknown 30-year-old, but on second thought, I am afraid again.

In the dead of night, skillfully open familiar folders, put on headphones, stare at the screen with a straight face, think recklessly at high speed, enjoy a few minutes of spiritual happiness, and try to find a trace of life fun and meaning.

Every night, I will persuade myself to go to bed early instead of staying up late, but my body is very honest. Until six o'clock in the morning, I can finally comfort myself silently. It's time for a good sleep. Staying at nightclubs gives people the illusion that you are working hard in life.

This is me who has accomplished nothing at the age of 25.

Since I can't find the so-called self-confidence in reality, I try to find it in the game world, thinking that I can call the shots and be worshipped in the virtual world. As a result, I abused myself as someone else's dog, held my breath, continued to work hard in the virtual world, continued to stay up all night, and constantly charged my equipment, and finally became an internet addiction teenager in the eyes of my parents.

What should I do when I have Internet addiction? You can only find a stronger addiction to fight it.

At this time, I am smart enough to give up surfing the Internet, indulge in the huge fantasy world of novels, and try to empathize with the powerful male pig's feet, imagining that I will become the president of the overbearing male god, with IQ and EQ beyond the chart. Everyone loves Gao Fushuai who can't find a sense of accomplishment in the real world, even if it is only a fantasy, even if it only exists in your mind for a moment, even if others are crazy, you are also the emperor of thought and the slave of reality. In the eyes of parents, you have been addicted to novels from internet addiction teenagers, holding mobile phones all day, and they are full of disappointment.

When you can't learn any more, you drop out of school to work, thinking that you can start from scratch, strive to meet noble people, and strive to make your career change for everyone. I didn't expect work and life to be harder and more cruel than you thought, and time passed faster and more ruthlessly than you thought. The clock in the factory turns more ruthlessly than at any moment, and there is no price discount for your time due to emotional fluctuations. You are the cheap labor who keeps hypnotizing in your ear.

A year later, you finally broke out completely, quarreled with your parents, dropped out of school for a year and resumed school. At that time, you thought you could turn over a new leaf, turn over a new leaf, embark on a normal life path, get into a good high school, and even fantasize about going to a good university like others in the future. As a result, you have worked hard for two months and can only watch the gap fall behind step by step. As a result, you didn't get into the ideal high school. In this way, you continue to work, and in the eyes of your parents, your efforts have once again disappointed them.

After working for two months and watching my classmates go to high school one by one, I can only work silently. I feel unwilling again. This time, I did not hesitate to kneel to my parents and forced them to die, in exchange for a chance to study in a technical secondary school. In the eyes of my parents, I have been disappointed in you more than once.

I went to Guangzhou and studied my favorite major in middle school, thinking that I could study hard and overcome my shame. As a result, in the first year, I was lost in a free life and didn't know what struggle was. I played when I graduated, and when I entered school, it seemed like yesterday, only to find that I was the last in my class. I got a dispensable diploma, but I didn't learn any professional skills. After several years of tuition, I got a piece of paper. But time waits for no one. I have to find a job to support myself quickly. Finally, I found that I couldn't find a good job, so I had to stay at school temporarily, to put it mildly, to comfort myself. This is only temporary, but I resigned after working for a year and lived a life of three days' work and four days' rest. In the eyes of parents, you are already like this. I advise you to go home and live a good life. Stop messing around and wait for death. It also costs money. Sitting at home is an ideal way of life and is called a senior tramp.

Photography costs money. What if there is no money? I naturally told my family that it was called venture capital. As a result, I bought a set of photographic equipment for 20 thousand yuan and started photography. I took pleasure in taking part in all kinds of photography activities, bought all kinds of photography books, soaked in the library and kept taking pictures of my sister. I even fantasized in my mind that I might find a model as my girlfriend. As a result, my girlfriend didn't see it, and the money was almost gone. what can I do? Naturally, I can only see if I can take a job to solve the problem of eating, and go to the wedding to shoot smoothly. The first order is 300, thinking that as long as I work hard, I will be able to shoot more than one order sooner or later, and one order will break a thousand. As a result, more than 20 shots were taken, but a single order still failed to exceed 600, the order was not enough for you to live, and the money was spent again. At this time, you are looking for people who spend money, borrow money, and pay IOUs, trying to save your life.

At this time, you find that you are not working as hard as you thought. You think it's great, but it's nothing. You finally have to admit that you are a loser.

In this way, I have been waiting for death for more than a year. Photography stopped, money ran out, and debts followed. The once free life is gone, leaving only a pile of debts. I have to solve it, I finally know the price, finally know the price of freedom.

It is often said that the standard of wasting time is whether you have learned anything.

My parents finally can't rest assured to go to Guangzhou to play, and you dare not connect, because you know how miserable your situation is and how useless you are, and you can't even treat them to a delicious meal.

Defeated by reality, you honestly went to find a job as a photography assistant, worked for half a year, and paid off some debts. Unfortunately, the speed of making money can't keep up with the speed of paying off debts, and there is a crisis, so we can only rely on friends to tide over the difficulties again and again. You can only verbally promise your friends that you will pay your debts on time, but you break your word again and again, disappointing a few friends and beginning to despise yourself. ! !

Every time there is no money and no one borrows it, so I can only ask my parents for money humbly. It's not easy to be a parent.

My parents will also have no money, so that every time I ask for money, my parents work hard. I asked myself, why can I live this life with peace of mind? When you live a heartless life, you always need someone to shelter you from the wind and rain.

Finally, my dad didn't even dare to answer the phone and deleted my WeChat. I can't help feeling sad, more for myself and a little for my parents.

I worked as a photography assistant for half a year and then lost my job. Through a friend's introduction, I worked as a photographer in a photo studio for two months, and then turned positive for half a month. I was fired, and I clearly remember the loneliness at that time.

20 17.5. 17. At that time, even if I was dismissed, I was still full of confidence, thinking that I could go to the next level. As a result, I spent two months in a daze, working for two and a half months and resting for two and a half months. I guess I'll be old in the future, so I can tell people how lazy I am.

At the moment of 20 17.8.2, there were seven dollars left in my bank card. I didn't know what to eat for the next meal and how to pay the rent. There was a string of bills on the wall, totaling more than 20 thousand. White striped flowers are nearly 40 days overdue. It is estimated that my credit card will expire in a few days, and I don't know where the situation will get worse.

In the past, I was pessimistic in my heart, optimistic in my appearance, full of idealism, unwilling to think about the cruelty or even ruthlessness of reality, and faced life with a wry smile. However, facing life, you can only admit that you have finally become a loser.

The first time I faced myself so truly, I felt as if I had put down something and picked it up.

Actually, I've been thinking, I 18 years old, and I'm 25 years old. Will I be disappointed now? I should be disappointed.

At the age of 25, I finally became a loser in my mind.

Finally, count my feedback as my first reader.

If you want to be a person and do something, do it well, work hard and don't be crazy.

What life likes most about this little Bichi is that it beats you from time to time, frustrates you, makes you give up your stupid ideas, and makes you lose something every time.

Finally, over time, unconsciously.

You have finally become the person you hate.

Oh, I remember, that word is loser.

Written on 20 17.8.2.