We haven't seen each other in our hometown for a long time.

We haven't seen each other in our hometown for a long time.

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Peter Hessler, an American, wrote at the beginning of Oracle Bone Inscriptions: It takes six hours to travel by train from Beijing to Anyang, from the present capital to the city considered as the cradle of ancient civilization in China. I sit by the bed, and sometimes I feel monotonous and numb involuntarily. The scenery outside the window repeats like wallpaper: a farmer, a field, a road, a village; A farmer, a field, a road, a village. This feeling of repetition is not new.

This repetitive landscape can be seen everywhere in my early studies. Every year when I go back to my hometown after school, I will take the train like He Wei. The monotonous and repetitive scenery is vivid in my mind: a farmer, a field, a road and a village. Among the countless villages standing in the Great Northern Wilderness, one is my hometown. What changes have taken place in this landscape in recent years? Farmers can hardly see it. High-rise buildings under construction suddenly appeared in fields, and villages became more and more scarce and empty. In fact, my hometown is just like what Dr. Shanghai University said in his notes on returning home. Except for the difference between the north and the south, there is no difference between human feelings and the secular. Most of the young people have gone to the city for a year, but all the people left in the village are old people and children, and there are fewer and fewer pure cultivators.

No one grows crops anymore: on the one hand, the land is divided less and less. In my impression, ten years ago, everyone in the village was assigned nearly three acres of land, and now it is less than one acre; In addition, the harvest of farming is getting lower and lower. A year later, the cost of pesticides, fertilizers, irrigation, etc. After being eliminated, the whole family will eat the harvested grain, and the rest will be sold in pitiful RMB. For farmers, having enough food is no longer a problem, but having no money to spend is a big problem. In order to make money, they have to get rid of the bondage of land, go to the city or change careers. As long as there is a way to make money, they will try.

No one will miss the simple life of an acre of land, and the wife is hot. Parents are willing but unable, and no one wants to stay in the countryside and serve that farmland. Not to mention those young people, the outside world is too wonderful, temptation is everywhere, and there are possibilities everywhere, and staying will only slowly wither. In the TV series "Ordinary World" adapted from Lu Yao's novel of the same name, Tian Xiaoxia invited Sun Shaoping to the state-run canteen for dinner on the eve of high school graduation, and warned him by the way, even if he returned to the countryside, never forget to study: never give up studying anyway! I'm afraid that when I see you again in a few years, you will become a completely different person. All you say is eating; With a wallet on his shoulder, he bought a cheap baby pig on the street of Shigejie. Fight with neighbors for firewood or an egg. I don't brush my teeth, and my books are torn and burnt.

This is not to discredit rural life, it is a living reality, and it has been like this for many years, as if it has never changed. Can't we all be confident enough, just like the Nobel Prize-winning poet Cheswolf? Milosz said that he has been cautious in a small place all his life. It is because he has been to many places that he has not become a cosmopolitan person. And those who have lived in the countryside all their lives, their understanding of life can not go beyond their own acres of land, palm-sized sky, they have no choice. The biggest difference between rural life and urban life is that the former has only a state of life that is slowly shrinking, withering and aging, while the latter at least provides countless possibilities for life.

Working in cities is a common choice for young people in rural areas. For people who are married and have children, they are more willing to do small business in nearby counties to supplement their families. The most paradoxical thing here is that for those migrant workers who enter the city, they know that the city is not their hometown. When they leave their hometown and enter a new city, they are more aware of their uniqueness in the city. Although I live in the city most of the year, the city is only a temporary place, and people turn around and leave when they earn enough money. Of course they want to live in the city, and many people have succeeded. They worked hard in the city for most of their lives, bought a house, got married and gave birth to children. Since then, they have become a part of the city, but their memories still live in the countryside. It takes at least two or three generations for a complete urbanite to complete this transformation. For migrant workers, the city is a capitalized other. Regardless of the world, cultural differences, urban policies, working environment, etc. They all know that they are not part of this city. There used to be a large number of villages in the city where I lived, among which millions of migrant workers gathered. This year, with the demolition and construction of villages in cities, most migrant workers were psychologically expelled. Such things remind them all the time that this city has nothing to do with them. Therefore, when they have saved enough money, they will go back to their hometown without hesitation.

Few people miss rural life, which is the present situation in rural areas. Change won't happen again. What impressed me most was that this change seemed to be sudden, like an ancient way of life that had never changed since ancient times, suddenly broken by a powerful driving force, and everything began to flow at once. All solids have dissipated. Only by changing can we keep pace with the times. Once it stops, it will be abandoned by the times. This involuntary change, led by the times, can be felt by office workers in cities, and farmers living in rural areas have a deep understanding. What they see and hear is such a huge material and spiritual gap. Their fear is even more ingrained, because the land has no dependence, which means that they have taken the last straw in their hands. Only by being rescued, resolutely leaving and looking for a new way of life can we keep up with this change.

Can you borrow the English sociologist sigman? Bowman's terminology calls this changing world a liquid changing world. Liquid life, as its name implies, is a flowing life, a state of life that lives in an uncertain environment and lacks stability. This life is full of lingering anxiety and fear. We are afraid of being caught off guard, of not keeping up with the trend, of being left behind by others, and of ending before we start. The mobile life is full of countless fears, which is Bowman's most accurate experience of the mobile modernity. The flowing life implies an idea that the surface layer is the whole meaning. You have no spare time to pursue what is contained under life. To borrow Bowman's words, everything in this world is unchangeable, including the fashions we follow and the objects we pay attention to: we have dreams and fears, we are eager and tired, we are full of hope, but we are restless. The surrounding environment on which we make a living and plan the future is constantly changing. In this mobile modern world, everything is fleeting, and the only constant is change itself.

In our society, change is the only certainty. The city is changing, and so is the countryside. We are all chasing our dreams and lives, but some people have realized their dreams and some have failed. I just got Evan Osnos's "The Age of Ambition", which aptly describes the era of great changes in China: in China, the national narrative, once a collective chorus, is disintegrating into a billion stories with flesh and blood, personal temperament and lonely struggle. This era is the era when ugly ducklings become white swans. A peasant woman's daughter can work hard and make progress, and a factory assembly line female worker can soar to the board of directors. Wage earners can set up listed companies, and the son of a coal miner can influence the progress of the times. It is these successful stories that inspire farmers' sons to enter the city. They also have their own ambitions and are unwilling to spend their lives in the countryside. But with this ambition, no matter success or failure, no matter the city or the country, it will never go back after the change. We have all become strangers in our hometown, passers-by in a hurry, and modern people who have kept their illusions unchanged by the short touch of the Spring Festival. The process of urbanization assimilates migrant workers into urban people, and at the same time homogenizes their own image in the countryside. In my hometown, several measures will be taken in the next few years, that is, gather the villages together and move to the city, and then contract out the remaining land for large-scale planting. This trend of forced urbanization in rural areas is very obvious. A lot of land in our village has been contracted, and no one regrets losing it. This means that if you don't actively look for other ways to survive now, you will be forcibly expelled by the urbanization model sooner or later. It is better to actively seek change than to wait for death. If this change cannot be prevented and avoided, why should we regret it?

Homesickness is fatal romance, behind rural life is darkness and bitterness, and homesickness is the forced smile of intellectuals, so I have always been full of doubts about Liu Liangcheng and Han Shaogong's rural prose series. Svetlana, a Russian female scholar at Harvard? Boim defines nostalgia as longing for a home that no longer exists or has never existed. In other words, homesickness in the distance is not homesickness, but if you return to your hometown that you miss so much, but you can't find the feeling of going home again, that is the real homesickness. Nostalgia is a kind of loss and displacement. Nostalgia is also an emotional impulse, spiritual drift, memory addiction and illusion awakening. A childhood song always touches people's hearts, not because it sounds good, but because it affects childhood memories. All we think about is the illusion of memory and the dream home. The urge to go home hits the inner fence again and again. Once you can't resist the urge to go home, you will bring a sleepwalking in your memory back to a sober reality and put it into action. Disappointment will crush the defense line of your fragile spirit, and sooner or later, you will find that the home in your memory is full of holes and beyond recognition. In other words, when those people lament that the countryside is losing its tradition, don't forget that they are writing in a house with bright windows in the city.

In 20xx, He Wei's wife, LeslieT Chang, wrote a book called "Female Workers". This book disgusted me, because she admitted for the first time that she was an outsider when facing those migrant workers, but she stressed that everyone I met was the same. It is this identity that opens our hearts and spans the heavy history, educational background and social class. This is wishful thinking. Your social class, educational background and China identity are all insurmountable gaps, and sometimes this gap is not set by your observation object, but by yourself. In fact, the biggest revelation of this book is that it makes me realize that our sons from highly educated villages are no different from LeslieT Chang's point of view. We have turned ourselves into strangers. I'd rather admit that most of these migrant workers are silent, and we can't write their stories as objectively as possible. Their stories and lives, their sufferings, are all too pale and powerless under the package of words. The truth revealed by LeslieT Chang through "Working Girl" is nothing more than a well-decorated text, a strong subjective perspective, a preconceived conclusion and a real illusion filtered out by curiosity.

In other words, after leaving the countryside for a long time, we all became strangers who could not go back. Whether it's those of us who go to town by reading, or ordinary migrant workers who go to town very early. The same is true of our experience in the countryside. The countryside is alienated in the eyes of others, and going home is an illusion of self-deception. We are marginal people in the city, strangers in our hometown, and spiritually homeless vagrants. The only difference between us and those migrant workers is that we can tell, modify and express our experiences. They are silent actors. Their behavior is more important than ours, because they returned to the countryside with their experiences and memories of the city and changed the face of the countryside. And we just sing the elegy of the countryside, continue to live and miss in the city, and look for the hometown that we can't go back for a lifetime.

The sentence of being wronged, helpless and sad alone in a foreign land is universal (43)

A person who is wronged in a foreign land is very helpless and sad. 1. Let me be your support. Although my shoulders are not wide enough and strong enough, I can cry when I am wronged.

2. All the pain is always in my heart. Everything in life, wronged their own experience, sad to bear.

3. Smile, don't complain. Leisure, carefree, casual, casual. Just a hundred years later, a flower blooms, and life is doomed to change.

It may be that young people are too wronged to escape when they grow up, but they can't get what they want when they grow up, and they can't get it when they grow up. Life is so dramatic, but where should I go? ?

Loneliness is probably like this: no one laughs with you, no one bears your sadness.

6. Not all the pain can be said, and you will get used to it if you endure it for a long time; Not all grievances can be confided, but they will be relieved when they are figured out.

7. No matter how good things are, there will be a lost day; No matter how deep the memory is, there will be a day to forget it; People who love again will go far one day; No matter how beautiful the dream is, it will wake up one day.

8. A sad woman, why compromise? In your eyes, you like tolerance. In his eyes, you are just a little toy. What do you mean? Muppets?

9. If you feel wronged, buy some snacks that you have always wanted to eat but didn't eat, find a gazebo and eat until you are satisfied.

10. The older people get, the more they can understand. In the grown-up world, love is second, and getting along is the most important thing.

1 1. When no one understands me, I learn not to explain. I learned to be alone when everyone ignored me.

12. Life is not about compromise. The farther back, the smaller the breathing space. Life is not for making do. The more humble you are, the farther away some happy things will be from you.

13. There is a kind of loneliness. If you endure injustice, you can make everything better, so you choose to shut up. No one noticed your change, and no one walked into your heart. The more peaceful the outside world is, the more people there are, and the greater the grievances and loneliness in your heart. The seeds of loneliness planted at the beginning grow in a person's repeated self-questioning.

14. Reality is called reality because it is too realistic.

15. I dare not be angry with you, for fear that you will ignore me and leave me alone all night. I dare not even send you a message, for fear that you will not want me.

16. You never know how hard it is for me to know behind my back, no matter how wronged or how much I miss it.

17. There are two ways to forget someone, time and new love. If you still can't forget it, there are only two reasons: the time is not long enough and the new love is not good enough.

18. Why do you feel wronged at work? It's always your fault.

19. Because the boss doesn't know the real situation, I blame you for your incompetence. Is it really a hundred words?

20. If you have been injured, you will understand; When you cross it, you are mature. You have to lose something before you learn to cherish it. You always have to hit a wall to learn what to change and what to give up.

2 1. Stop torturing me. My heart was cut open, and it was not blood that flowed out. Why not cherish it?

22. I am willing to endure countless sleepless nights in exchange for your pity for me in the past. I will travel all over the world to pity your thoughts of me tomorrow.

A person who is wronged in a foreign land is very helpless and sad. 23. I think too much about some things, have a headache, and want to get through my heartache. So, don't think if you are in a panic, don't think if you can't get it, why humble yourself. Perhaps silence is the best expression when it is useless to say more. There must be something in life sometimes, so don't force it if you bump into it. After all, life is a long whole process, every inch of time should be experienced by yourself, and every cup of morning dew should be tasted by yourself. It is your mood, not your pain, that determines whether you are happy or not.

24. It turns out that people's hearts are so big that they can hold a hundred kinds of grievances.

25. It's raining. I haven't slept yet, and my heart is bitter and irritable. But I don't know how to say it, no one can say it, and I don't know who I can tell. What I said is melodramatic. So I stuck it in my mind and thought.

I just want a sincere friend. When I am angry, I will quarrel. When I am happy, I will chat. I never make friends with money, and my friend is not that kind of person. But you hide so much, I just think you are hypocritical! Why do you always feel wronged, right and wrong are reversed, and deceiving others' sympathy can also deceive your conscience?

27. Being wronged at work, he was not only inconsiderate, but also angry with me and even turned off his cell phone. Does this make sense?

28. People who really work hard, the world will not ignore their sweat.

29. I clutched the door tightly with my hand, fell to the ground feebly and began to cry. I regret what I did. Can You Ever Forgive Me?

30. If you feel wronged, don't blame others. No one deliberately has a hard time with anyone. Sometimes, he is just careless or ignorant.

3 1. Injustice is not being wronged. The real grievance is that you can't say it when you are wronged, and you can't even have emotions.

32. Actually, I am a very ordinary person, not as mysterious as everyone thinks, and not a psychiatrist, but I can feel your mood with my own heart.

33. Should the objective facts be said or not? In fact, it is not a matter of hesitation. Needless to say, some voices are wronged.

34. People who know you will always be around to protect you and won't make you feel a little wronged ... People who really love you will do a lot of things that love you and won't say much ... If you have such people around you, please cherish them. ...

35. The end of emotions is not swearing, not venting, but silence.

36. Start with what you like and end with what I am redundant.

37. Silence is a person's greatest grievance.

38. Although I know the ending, I am still a devoted person. Even if I say nothing today, I will still like you when I wake up tomorrow. You know, I'm worthless.

39. I always taste all the pain alone. There are some things I can't talk about anymore.

40. "I thought I could really fall in love this time."

4 1. The biggest regret is that you can't even say it clearly in person. Maybe what can be solved by a hug will eventually become a stranger without any explanation.

42. I have never wronged myself, but I always wronged you.

43. In fact, people who love you are unwilling to hurt you; People who hurt you don't love you.

Talk about feelings in a foreign land (53 sentences)

Talking about feelings in a sentence of being wronged in a foreign land (I) 1. Right or wrong is just one sentence. Human feelings are just a lifetime fate. Why do you want to wronged yourself and delay others? Paying sincerity may not have true feelings, but if you don't pay honesty, you will definitely not cherish it.

The humblest thing is that you ignored me for a long time. I was obviously sad, but when you started talking to me, I was so happy that nothing happened.

You can cry wronged, but don't let everyone see your vulnerability.

4. Reading a book once and reading it again will give you a new feeling, but there will be no new ending.

In fact, it is not sad to be misunderstood. Suddenly someone will help explain and feel wronged and want to cry. You see, someone really knows I didn't do anything wrong.

6. "I always accompany him when he is in low tide. I always exchange tears for his tenderness. I always accompany him when he has no money, so tell me why I don't deserve it."

7. My mistakes in class ruined the reputation of their gym. It is better to be a long-term person. I don't know what they think, but I feel wronged and cried in the yoga room for a long time.

8. You can be wronged and cry, but don't let everyone see your vulnerability.

9. If you feel wronged, find a place where no one is there, shout out your depression and let go of your heart.

10. One person's grievance, one person's understanding, one person's bitterness and one person's injury. Learn to pretend, learn to be brave.

1 1. Let me be your support. Although my shoulders are not wide enough and strong enough, I can cry when I am wronged.

12. I began to choose to disappear, and I finally don't remember you.

13. Dear yourself, unworthy people, don't mind. Don't pay for things that aren't worth it. Don't let yourself feel sad and wronged, take care of your emotions and adjust to the best state.

14. The saddest thing is to overestimate my weight in your heart. I woke up when you left. It turns out that I'm just a foil, and anyone can replace me.

15. I didn't know what sadness was before, but I felt that crying out my heart was the saddest thing. Later, I learned that sadness means that when you look at his head, you will still smile, be gentle and soften your heart, but you know better than ever that you can no longer get close to the person in front of you.

16. A person takes care of himself and is mature enough to touch his feelings.

17. I don't want to give up, so I have been insisting, and I don't want to cry, so I have been pretending to laugh, and my tears have been falling.

18. If you feel wronged, try to keep a diary and record every bit in words. Kneel down and hug yourself if you feel wronged.

Talking about feelings in a sentence of being wronged in a foreign land (part two) 19. Don't want it if you can't think of it. If you can't get it, you just don't want it Why do you want to wronged yourself?

20. I can't say how I feel. I don't know who to tell my heart to. The pain in my heart is only known to me. Wine is the most real thing. Except my parents, everyone else really thinks for themselves. Why do people live? ...

2 1. People who respect their fathers will find happiness in their children.

22. My girlfriend was wronged at work. I don't know how to help her or enlighten her.

23. Many things in life are like wisdom teeth. The best solution is to unplug it. Instead of, put up with it.

24. I put away all grievances, jealousy and sadness so that you can't see them.

25. It hurts much more when I hold back my tears and cry out loud than when I cry out loud.

26. The Second Minister came back and asked me to have dinner with him. I was in tears, like a wronged child, explaining my grievances. I spent the whole day processing data, and my computer crashed after work. . . The vice minister said that he was, too, and both of us were unhappy-the idea of the end of the day. . . I'm sorry I promised not to go to dinner.

27. The most regrettable thing now is probably that I didn't read the book well, the people I like were not together, and I didn't live the life I wanted.

28. I feel uncomfortable. I don't want to say anything. I want to go to a region, but I don't know where to go. I also feel that there is no place to go …

29. You taught me to be strong and cruel. Later, you said you missed me for who I was.

30. I have been trying to adapt to the world, whether it is temperature or people's heart.

3 1. Laugh if you feel wronged and laugh for ten years. Ten years later, who can remember the grievances of that year?

32. When a person loves you, your willfulness and your shortcomings are all lovely. When a person doesn't love you, it's wrong to talk, not to talk, and even to breathe.

33. If you feel wronged and can't help it, just drop a tear for yourself. When you dry your tears, forget the grievance.

34. If you feel wronged, don't blame others. No one deliberately has a hard time with anyone. Sometimes, he is just careless or ignorant.

I can't promise to help you solve all your problems, but I promise I won't let you face it alone.

36. I still live alone The promise is never in the same boat, but the flowers fall in the dream, and the withered flowers can't be found.

Talk about your feelings in a foreign land (Chapter III) 37. Don't always blame anyone. If you are good enough, how can you be left behind?

38. "I almost touched the stars, really, but then it was almost dawn, and the ladder was unstable and I fell down." Later, I even lost the courage to look up at the stars. "

39. I cried on the way home, and my tears collapsed again. I can't do anything to walk like this, and I can't be proud and extravagant anymore. What else can I say? What else can I do? I really hope you can hear me.

40. Youth is a rush of ignorance, which always leaves lingering wounds.

4 1. It doesn't matter, I will be my own queen, and I will not wronged myself until I die.

42. It was quiet all around. I heard my heart broken by lies. Everything was destroyed in an instant.

43. There is loneliness in your eyes, but you always look strong. Your story hurts, but you seldom tell people what you are talking about.

44. Family is always the warmest harbor. No matter how wronged or wrong they have done, others may laugh at them or alienate them, but family members will not. They will always be with us. So spend more time with your parents when you have nothing to do. This is the greatest happiness in the world.

45. The band-aid has been stuck for a long time, and it hurts when it is torn off. In other words, you have been with me for a long time, and I will be sad if you leave, so don't leave, okay?

46. "tenderness is really useless. I will speak voluntarily in silence, but after I finish, they are still busy. I never talk about other people's sadness, but they still poke my wound with a knife and gun. "

47. Perhaps the hardest thing to let go of in a relationship is that you and I are lovers. I have never done anything unnatural, and you have never done anything wrong to me across the gap. It's just that fate can't help you and me

48. No one knows whether everything I have done for you is worth it.

49. Some things, if you can't figure it out, you don't want to; Some people can't get along if they don't get along; Some feelings, don't get it; For some reasons, don't say it if you can't explain it clearly!

50. If you really love someone, he will become the weakest part of your heart. You have no choice but to take care of him. Being with him is painful and happy, sometimes full of hopelessness and injustice. But psychologically, I am very dependent on this feeling, and all the exits are closed by this feeling. The only thing you can do is to love him without asking for anything in return and get used to it like drinking water and eating. You know he is not good enough, but you are just hopelessly in love with him.

5 1. Recently, I'm really upset to be crazy, feel wronged, feel useless, my self-cognitive ability drops, I don't want to talk, I don't like to talk, and I'm going to be depressed. It's really hard. It's okay. It's okay.

52. If I have the courage, will it end right? Not the same; If you persist, will your memories be different?

53. I am not the one who knows the difficulties, but I am the one who knows the difficulties. I'm not brave and good at fighting. I'm the one who disarmed. I am not a bitter person, but I am a compromise person. You don't see me, you don't see me.