Birthday greetings from deceased relatives

Article 1: Birthday message of the deceased

On June 1 day xx years ago, my mother was born in this difficult world.

There are too many memories about my mother. 16 Li is the only relative who can make me cry occasionally in the long night. ...

As early as February 7th this year, I said in a blog post subtitled "The Last Seven Paintings of My Son's Kindergarten": After reading the blog post, 10 years ago, my parents who died appeared in front of me. I wanted to write a few words in memory of my parents and compile a series of picture books. But now the fireworks and firecrackers in the Spring Festival have blown my head off, and I can't calm down and sort out my long thoughts about my loved ones. I dare not perfunctory my parents. I can't write about my dead relatives in the noise of "delicious food, gunfire, intoxicating food, singing and laughing on TV flying around …"!

I can't write about my mother because I always feel unprepared: I haven't sorted out the thread of the past, and I haven't got rid of the noise of the world. ...

I just returned to the studio from my friend Lao Ni's home in Songzhuang at noon. Somehow, a bottle of wine, two pounds of fish, three people and four dishes are still tossing people ... I received a short message from a painter friend who came back from France: why should Qianshan look for scenery, a childlike innocence and beauty everywhere; Why bother to decompress, a little childlike innocence, invincible joy. Mentality is always aging, life is carefree, and happiness is in your heart.

I am absent-minded. I replied: I wish you a happy holiday!

He is very happy. Where can I have fun?

From late March to early April this year in Tomb-Sweeping Day, I was in Wuhan, and I couldn't go to my parents' cemetery to worship because I caught a cold while rushing to paint. I don't feel guilty about it. This morning, I replied to a blog friend's article about unfilial post-90s generation. I left a message: whoever is filial laughs best. I have always adhered to the belief that not regretting major events is more important to the closest relatives and the elderly than the living husband, wife, children and relatives and friends, because once they die, if you feel guilty, there is no chance to make up for it.

My mother graduated from high school in the late 1930s and joined the anti-Japanese propaganda team. She met her father, who was also a member of the "New China" drama club under the leadership of Tian Han, a member of the National Government. During the period of War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression, the "New China" drama club cooperated with the main force to move to the north and south to call on the people to be excited, and the front and rear were homeless ... During this period, my three sisters who had never met before died one after another and two disappeared.

After the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, the soldiers of the "New China" Drama Club ushered in the new China, but the hat of the "National Government" formed an indissoluble bond with my parents. This kind of "national government" plaster on my parents, like the golden seal on Lin Chong's face, lasted until the end of the Cultural Revolution ... I really can't bear to uncover that painful wound again. Fortunately, my mother is optimistic and open-minded. When my father broke into the cowshed, she went to work and shouldered the food and drink of ten people in the family. It was not until the "New China" Drama Club of the Central Organization Department was an anti-Japanese organization led by the * * * Production Party that my parents joined the revolution in xx42 and enjoyed the corresponding treatment ... I remember that my father read the red tape and said, "My life has been ruined by you. Now that my children are working, we will not live for a few days. What's the use of this! "

I have always been dissatisfied with my father Nuo Nuo's weakness and timidity. He has been passive for decades. What's the use! This rock-breaking remark is more powerful in my mind than the line "Fire at me for the new China".

In the bonfire of the Anti-Japanese War, my mother became an important drama actor in the "New China" drama club from middle school students. After liberation, she became a literary cadre in a cultural center and was sent to a primary school to teach arithmetic during the Cultural Revolution.

My mother has a solid family background and received a good early education. Finally, she walked off the platform and became a teacher, which opened a precedent for our family, including me and ten people, to engage in education.

My mother is very helpful in teaching, and my nephew benefits from my grandmother's personal biography. In the fourth grade of primary school, she won the fourth place in the mathematics competition of five provinces in central and southern China. After going to work, I didn't take any entrance exams: before I graduated from primary school, I was lobbied into the school by the principals of three or four key middle schools and continued to study in key junior and senior high schools. During the college entrance examination, I watched the World Cup at home all day, because I was robbed by a key university in Beijing before, and I didn't graduate from the university. I obeyed the national arrangement in the choice of state organs and staying in school to teach. My child cloned his cousin's history before graduating from primary school and was tricked into one of the experimental classes by three key schools. He got more than 600 high marks from junior high school until he went to college, and now he works in the central government.