In memory of my grandmother (Miao)

Some people may not understand the meaning of the last two words in the article. I'm from Miluo, and my grandmother's name is (āi jiě) in our Miluo dialect. Is it very kind to look at grandma and say "āi jiě"? I really want to look at my grandmother and say more, but my grandmother can't listen anymore.

? 165438+ 10/3 in the morning, I was woken up by the alarm clock at 6.40 as usual. A simple, busy and full day begins with the moment you open your eyes. When I arrived at the construction site, I received a phone call from my mother before the things of the day were arranged. I feel something is wrong in my heart, because I usually communicate with my mother's WeChat more often, and the morning is not very good. ? "I'm leaving, come back soon." I was silent for a few seconds. For a few seconds, I seemed to be in another world, very empty, and then I replied "good". Sitting at home, I didn't chat with the driver. I've never done this before. I either talk to the driver about industry trends or talk to him about some wonderful and interesting things I have encountered in Didi's career. This time, I may make the driver think that I am a man of few words. More than 20 minutes drive to the door, many people are busy, busy building sheds, busy making rooms, and busy preparing for these days. When I got home, my mother was giving her a bath and my aunt was in tears. When changing clothes, my father held her old man's house and looked at her thin body curled up in his arms, which reminded me of my father's childhood. My tears began to swirl in my eyes, and I didn't let them flow out. Of course, I can cry like a painted cat. I remember when my grandfather left in 2007, I walked in the alley leading to my hometown, looking at the white flags on both sides, crying while walking, and walking beside my grandfather lying peacefully in a crystal coffin. Tears welled up in my eyes like fountains. After 14 years, it is still the original alley and the original building.

? Because Mianmin left, the family got together. This kind of scene usually only appears during the Spring Festival. My family is near Miluo and far away in Guangdong. Everyone rushed home when they heard the news, because "putting all virtues and filial piety first" is not only a traditional Chinese virtue, but also a "family motto" of our family. Of course, this is also the foundation of being a man. I will regard this as my grandfather. It has also become the flagpole of our generation. Since grandpa and uncle died one after another, Bo Er has stirred up the beam of the family. As the "leader" of the family, people admire him. I believe my grandparents and uncles will be very pleased to see them there.

Just yesterday afternoon, Mianmin was sent to the crematorium. When she was carried to the conveyor belt of the stove, we opened the coffin and saw Mianmin for the last time. We can no longer control our emotions. The eldest brother who brought up in one hand collapsed instantly, and the second brother lit a cigarette. I think it's strange because I didn't. Is it the cold atmosphere in the crematorium or trying to warm the already cold body with a weak flame? When we are young, we don't know how to control our emotions. When we grow up, we gradually learn to control them, but the collapse of adults is often at that moment, watching cockroaches being sent into the stove by conveyor belts, the sound of machines running, and the "beep" sound coming from the stove. You also burned us, scattered the ashes in the river in front of our house, and walked by the river when you paid homage to us. "I know he is not joking, he is serious, but" burning "may be an option, but" sprinkling "is impossible. What I want is to make a secret room passage in the movie at home after their "hundred years". When I miss them, I will trigger a certain "organ". I will go in and burn incense, whisper with them, share interesting stories about my recent life, talk about the latest gossip news, and the career development of my brother and me. I want to laugh in front of them and cry in front of them, because in front of them, we will always be children as children.

My aunt was put into the urn around two o'clock in the afternoon, which made me feel that life is sometimes quite boring. I was born as a human being, and turned to ashes after my death, but I couldn't escape the urn ... I looked at the urn carefully selected by my father for my aunt, which was very gorgeous, and then Bo Er got on the bus with her aunt in her arms.

? It's the early morning of 17. It's my turn to watch the vigil with my brother-in-law and look at the sweet potatoes in the box. I miss her again. I vaguely remember her Chili fried meat, which is very big. She can only move chopsticks in front of us after we finish eating. When I was a child, I had no pocket money. She always puts five dollars and ten dollars in my pocket. When she got to Alzheimer's disease, she didn't forget to ask me if I had any money to spend. From time to time, she took out dozens of dollars from nowhere and gave it to me. She is really like a candle, giving us all her love without reservation.

Dear Miao, tonight is the last night with you. You and grandpa must keep your family safe and healthy. If you have something to tell your family, go for a walk in the dream at night. If there is something missing, please tell me in your dream. Don't worry. Your family has two children and four children, and your aunt is protected by two children and four children. When they are old, our generation is supporting them.

? In fact, I am a person who doesn't like to show his feelings clearly. Maybe a lot of times I just didn't get there. I always feel that emotions have a critical point. You may be able to calm down the emotions triggered below the critical point in an hour or two, but you may not be able to calm down the above parts for a lifetime.

Finally, I would like to thank the leaders, colleagues, brothers and friends who have paid tribute to Cai Mianling these days. Dear, there is no you in the world, you will always be in my heart! You, have a good trip!

Cai zhouzhou

202 1 year 1 1 month17th.

165438+1October 18: I sent Mian up the mountain today and put her with her grandfather. 14 later, the two old people met again. Tomorrow, I will start to get out of the sad atmosphere and enter the working state. In the evening, after dinner, I walked to the door of my hometown. My mother asked me to turn off the lights in my hometown. I wish I could see the smiling girl sitting in the chair on my right when I open the door, but now there is only a picture of her old man on the chair, and I feel very uncomfortable. I want to go out and start my busy work tomorrow. Looking at the girl's portrait, I couldn't help kneeling and kowtowing four times as this farewell. May you bless the whole family with peace, health and prosperity in the spirit of heaven! You go!