I'm just a friend in your story.

I tried my best to be gentle, but you never liked me.

1

Xiao Shi and Xiao Ya are my high school classmates. I was surprised that they were together in the summer vacation after graduating from high school. Because in my memory, Xiaoshi has always liked my best friend Linger, a provocative and lovely girl.

I heard that they broke up before they could send their blessings. The opera was sung in just a few days, like a breeze, beginning with expectation and ending with expectation. I thought this farce was over until I met Xiaoshi in the street four years later in the summer. It turns out that this is just a prelude.

2

Four years later, that is, the summer when I just graduated from college, it was the season when college students were unemployed. I met Xiaoshi who handed out leaflets at the crossroads in the shopping center in my hometown. He took off his hair, shook his big flat head, smiled and handed some leaflets to passers-by eroded by the poisonous sun. If it weren't for his trademark smirk, I would never recognize it.

I went over and patted his strong bones. He turned around and saw me, slightly stunned, and then smiled: "Hey, Lin Er, long time no see."

"Yes, it has been four years." I replied, looking at his mature face, thinking of the handsome young man who was full of vigor and vitality four years ago and seemed to set off a heat wave everywhere.

"The university is really a plastic surgery hospital. The longer the better! " He laughed a lot.

"Then you are really not good at choosing a school!" I sneered.

I haven't seen my old classmates for a long time. He invited me to chat in the new bar next to him. After a few commonplaces, I learned that he left his hometown to study in the north after graduating from high school. Later, he wanted to take the postgraduate entrance examination at Nanjing University of Science and Technology and go home to find a job with his so-called hometown feelings.

After a few drinks, I deliberately mentioned Xiaoya to him.

He looked up at me, awkward, then drank the last sip of wine at the bottom of the cup, leaned back in the chair, took out a cigarette and lighter from his trouser pocket, skillfully lit the fire, took a deep breath, and didn't spit it out for a long time.

"haven't you always liked shine?" I asked, "Why did you suddenly get together with Xiaoya that year?"

"Yes!" After he finished, he was silent for a few seconds. "accident ... how is she recently?"

"I don't know. I haven't contacted her since graduation. I should find a good job, be so stubborn and work so hard! " I replied.

"She hasn't graduated, studying medicine. There is still one year! "

Then he stopped talking and poured himself a glass of wine, his eyes glazed over. I can feel him immersed in deep memories. Soon, he seemed to have enough memories and slowly took a sip of his cigarette. The truth came out of his mouth with white smoke.

"That night, Xiao Ya suddenly showed me my fear, and I was very surprised. Because I thought I didn't have much contact with her and didn't know her, I wanted to refuse at first. But before I refused, she began to cry. I feel very flustered and uncomfortable. Then she told me a lot of things she did for me silently. I was very touched. For a moment, I thought that if two people were together, I would fall in love with her one day, so I promised her. "

He paused, shook the dust off the cigarette end with his index finger, and then said, "That summer vacation is not over yet, and I realized that I won't fall in love with her. I broke up. Come to think of it, I liked Linger for more than two years in high school. We can meet almost every day, there are always endless words, and we talk late every night. But even so, she only recognizes me as a friend. When I realized this, I told Xiaoya that I accepted her only because I was moved. " Say that finish, the cigarette in his hand has burned out, and he swallowed his wine in one gulp.

"Drink less, isn't it an alcohol allergy?"

"Hey, it's okay. In the past two years, I have drunk too much. It is estimated that I will fight poison with poison and will not be allergic again. "

No sooner had he finished than his cell phone rang at the right time. He said he was told to go back to work, so he paid and was ready to leave the bar. When he left, he finally said, "Seriously, I saw a sentence on the Internet that is true. Don't make important decisions at night!" " Say that finish, he turned to leave.

Looking at his back when he left, I felt a sense of vicissitudes in an instant, recalling what he just said, yes, after a long time, there will be love, but not necessarily love, just like him and linger.

three

After chatting with Xiaoshi for a month, I was invited to a small party of my high school classmates. As I expected, Xiaoya and Xiaoshi didn't attend. After eating well, everyone talks nonsense, some talk about dreams, some are depressed and unemployed, some are hired by good companies, and each has its own troubles. This is really a response to Old Master Q's words. I'd better see you ten years after graduation.

In the meantime, I sat next to Chen Juan and asked Xiaoya how she was recently and why she didn't come. Chen Juan is Xiaoya's best friend, with short hair and a red plaid dress. I know they are still from the same village. Chen Juan said, "She is busy taking the postgraduate entrance examination. She has been much better recently. She used to pull a long face all day and didn't listen to advice at all. It's no use comforting her. "

"What generation of doctors are still struggling. By the way, what happened to her before? " I asked.

"Not just scum." Then she sighed heavily.

Xiao scum, you must be Xiaoshi when you listen. I am a curious person, so I encourage her to tell her about them. Maybe she drank a little wine, or maybe she really has a lot of depression to talk about. The taciturn Chen Juan began to tell the stories she knew.

four

Shortly after graduating from high school, Xiaoshi went out to experience life and took a summer job. At this time, Xiaoya and Xiaoshi talked on the phone almost every day. For Xiao Shi, who has never worked, he was tired all day. When he got a call from Xiaoya, he naturally poured out a lot of bitter water with Xiaoya. One day, Xiaoya finally poured out his heart to her.

"Remember before the exam, I asked you to buy a harmonica. Do you ask me why I took the literary route?"

"Well, I remember. Who are you going to give it to?"

"No, I am learning the harmonica. Wait, I'll play it for you. "

After listening quietly, Xiaoshi proudly said, "I know, this is the city of the sky."

"Roots should be rooted in the soil, born with the wind, winter with seeds, and spring with birds. No matter how magical weapons you have, no matter how many terrible robots you have, you can't live without land. I am the root and you are my land. I like you, Xiaoshi. "

The sudden confession surprised Xiaoshi. Before he could return to absolute being, Xiaoya's crying on the other end of the phone had spread, as if he knew it would be a fruitless monologue.

Xiaoshi at the other end of the phone was speechless and at a loss. The prelude to love has already been played, and he has only arrived now. The wind whistling outside the house, the glass drumming, and the scattered lights not far away directly entered his heart. In his heart, there is already a person alive.

"I bought a lot of masks and wanted to turn white. I study hard and hope to be admitted to the same university as you. I practice piano every day and want to blow the whole sky city to you. I ... "

At this moment, Xiaoshi is no longer silent. "Well, don't cry. I haven't said anything. Why are you crying? " Did I say I don't like you? "

The wind outside the house stopped suddenly, and then the rainstorm came quietly and ravaged the earth. The storm mentioned in the weather forecast has just begun.

five

I haven't heard of them since that party. When my colleagues and I went to Shanghai on business, Xiaoya told me that she was a graduate student in Shanghai. After doing everything, I called Xiaoya and urged her to do her best. After eating in a western restaurant, we went to the Bund to enjoy the scenery. I heard that the night scene in Shanghai is the most beautiful, and sure enough. On Nanjing West Road, which is not spacious, pedestrians are bustling and shops along the street are playing with their own jewels. The Oriental Pearl in the distance contrasts with the neon lights on the Bund in front of us, giving off a faint color light, revealing all kinds of secrets hidden in this big city of Shanghai.

We leaned against the stone fence and talked for a long time. I'm talking about stepping out of the wall touched by society one by one. Her eyes were wide open and full of jealousy. I burst out laughing. A moment ago, I envied her at school.

"How did you come up with the idea of studying in Shanghai?" I asked.

"Shanghai is beautiful, and I like the fast-paced life." After a while, she added, "He said he would go to Shanghai before and liked the noise of this big city."

"He, who is he?" I asked, thinking that Xiaoshi didn't take the South Institute of Technology, so he shouldn't be in Shanghai.

"Xiaoshi!" She answered weakly.

"He's not ..." I seemed to know something, so I immediately shut up and just swallowed what I almost blurted out. "You haven't put him down yet?"

"He was my first love." In her eyes, the night view of Shanghai gradually blurred, tears reflected the light of the Oriental Pearl, and then slipped down her cheeks and disappeared on the ground. "I paid all the tenderness, but in exchange, he turned more and more firmly."

First love, there is sweetness in bitterness. Even if you let go of everything, the feeling of that day will not fade in your heart, but will only sink deeper and deeper.

That night, we went to the bar again and drank all night. The only appetizer is her love for Xiaoshi in recent years.

The curtain is closed again after falling, and the picture in front of us is no longer a beautiful night scene.

A girl in "Seeds of Love" learned to make sushi with joy, spared no effort to make and pack it, and watched the boys eat it with their own eyes, showing a happy expression on her face.

A gentle girl bought two cups of milk tea in the evening. She wanted to share her luck with the boy on a bicycle, but she was out of breath. She gave the milk tea to an old man on the side of the road and went home alone in frustration and sadness.

A devoted girl knits a scarf in the dormitory when others go out to play, and gives it to the boys personally when winter comes.

These are all things to do after breaking up. She just wants to impress him again and get the so-called "love".

"I did everything called romance, but you didn't look back, because you were moved again." After she cried the last sentence, she leaned in my arms and slowly stopped crying. Tears ran across her blushing cheeks stimulated by alcohol, leaving a trail of tears. I touched her affectionately and felt deeply. Now I understand why Chen Juan called him little love rat.

Feelings are like this. You just don't like me, so it doesn't matter how hard I try.

six

Today, five years later, Xiaoya has become a mature doctor, while Xiaoshi started a business in partnership with friends. Only because of my gossip did I participate in their stories, so I naturally became good friends with them.

Not long ago, Xiaoshi called me and said he would invite me to dinner. I met Chen Juan on my way to the bar, so I want to take her with me. Unexpectedly, she would rather die than go as soon as she heard Xiaoshi. I smiled. "In fact, he is not as bad as you said." Then her telephone conversation amused me for a long time.

"You don't know, a few years ago, I went to Xiaoya to find Xiaoshi, when he was in Suzhou on business. After I came back, I shut myself in my room for a week, and no one saw me. Later, I found Xiaoshi's phone and scolded the scum for more than an hour, swearing until I was poor. I'm not going to see him. Too embarrassing. "

"Awesome, domineering!" I was so happy that I couldn't keep my mouth shut. "Where's Xiaoshi, scolding you?"

"No, he just replied, well, oh, the most common sentence is that you are right."

"Mm-hmm, this is in line with his style."

When I saw Xiaoshi in the bar, I kept laughing and froze him. Then I told him what I was happy about.

"Why didn't you talk back then!"

"Good men don't hit women!"

"You are a good boy, standard love rat. I want to buy me a drink today? "

"Isn't there any good news for you? Business is hard to do. Just now, everyone broke up and looked for their own way out. I plan to go back to Fujian and let my uncle find me a stable job. "

"This is good news. You won't come to rub my meal today, will you? "

"Ha ha ..."

I paid the bill after drinking. I've always wanted to ask him if Xiaoya went to Suzhou to look for him, but he always avoided talking about it, and I was well-advised, so I didn't ask again.

Later, I learned that Xiaoya came to Suzhou to look for him, as if to make a final attempt. Even though I was embarrassed to see him, I stayed for two days. Xiaoshi took her to the railway station. When he left, he gave Xiaoshi a hug, but he was decisively pushed away, saying only that he had a good trip. At that moment, she seemed to be poured cold water, fully aware that he was already a stranger in front of her.

There will always be a time when we want to have a person's whole world, his vast blue sky and a country full of green grass. It was not until the moment of darkness that we discovered that no matter how beautiful the scenery is, it only belongs to the sun in his sky. If you are not his sun, even if you have this beautiful scenery, you can't enjoy it in the dark.

I just met Xiaoya the day before yesterday. She became mature and strong. This reminds me of a sentence: everyone's strength is a soft cocoon.