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Equinox Flower

When I think of you again, it is a kind of desperate sadness. Happiness is far away from me, and it's too late to say anything.

①

During the intermission of CS competition, I took time to chat on QQ. Few people are online at this time, and I get along well with one of the girls. She told me her name was Noel, and I said my name was Baby. This is certainly not my real name, but it's easier to fool girls. Noel gave me the feeling of simplicity and loveliness. She always giggles.

I am 22 years old. They all say that I am sick and have a good job to play CS, but I am a person who is used to being free and loose. My parents have a high pension and live in an apartment by myself. Life is actually like this. I love CS, and my dream is to be an Asian champion. I can give up everything for it.

I found Noel often surfing the Internet, and I also like talking nonsense with her. I dare not say anything else. I am the best at coaxing little girls, especially Noel, who is simple. I like being angry with her. I always said she was stupid, and she gave me an angry little face. Actually, I mean, she is so cute.

They say I'm an online pest, because I always trick the little girl online into reality to be my girlfriend, and then say goodbye when the novelty is over. I'm not bragging about how handsome I am, I'm just stating the facts.

I knew it was time. I said to Noel, "Let's meet!" Before that, I had called his wife online for more than a month.

I sat in KFC waiting for her, praying that she wouldn't be too dinosaur. At 9 o'clock sharp, a girl pushed the door and came in. She seems to be covered with sunshine, so dazzling. At that moment, I thought I saw an angel.

I just watched her sit down opposite me. She wore two braids, and the broken hair on her forehead was a little halo. I can smell Lux soap and apple shower gel on her body, and Su Yan's face is a little childish.

"Are you Noel?" I asked her.

She took a bite of the coke straw and gave a "mmm".

"Are you an adult?" Why do I feel like I'm cheating a minor? Hearing this, Noel looked up and stared at me. Her eyes were big and she said seriously, "I will celebrate my 20th birthday next month."

I don't know if there is love at first sight in this world, but I know that my feelings for Noel are unprecedented, strong and unique. I don't know if this metaphor is appropriate, but I think she is like a pink strawberry cake, so cute that people want to bite but can't bear it. I seem to be enchanted and incoherent. In a trance, I saw her smile at me, and the sun overflowed, splashed and dribbled.

I used all the methods I could think of to "cheat" her. At the moment I took her hand, I told myself that she was my woman and the woman I wanted to protect.

I play CS as usual every day, but I don't forget to chat with her on QQ. Occasionally, I get a few MM's, and I can receive her message almost every day: "Baby, be good, don't get MM's, you should add clothes in cold weather."

Our team successfully entered the quarter-finals, today is the finals, lunch break, I looked at the dry lunch box, no appetite. Walking out of the competition area, I saw a familiar figure squatting at the gate and went over to see if it was Noel. I patted her and she was obviously startled. Seeing it was me, she breathed a sigh of relief and handed me an insulated rice cooker. After I took it, she hurriedly hid her hand behind her back, but I still saw the blisters on her hand.

The rice in the box was a little cold, so I asked her, "Have you been waiting long?"

"Yes, your phone is turned off." She pouted.

"I told you not to come. Come on, let your husband hug you. Are you tired? " I feel a little distressed.

"If I don't come, you will be hungry. You are not good at all, and you are picky about food. "

I was eating the rice in the box when Noel sat next to me and asked nervously, "Is it delicious? Is it delicious? " I gulped down my meal, to be honest, it was terrible, but I can imagine how this girl who can't even wash her socks groped for my first meal. My heart has been touched for a long time. I smiled and said, "My wife's love lunch is certainly delicious. Don't you think I ate it all? "

Noel listened to a satisfied smile and stood up and left.

"Baby, where are you going?" I asked her.

"Go home."

"Don't worry, I'll take you somewhere." I brought him into the competition area. I didn't take girls to meet friends, let alone the competition area. The teammates were curious when they saw Noel. She shouted "little sister-in-law, little sister-in-law", and her face flushed. My teammates came to tease me. I know in my heart that I am really in love with him.

②

One day on QQ, I asked her, "Noel, will you marry me?"

She still giggled, "good. I used to feel terrible when others said they wanted to marry me, but now I suddenly want to marry. "

"Well, Noel, believe me, when I save enough money to make you the most beautiful bride, we will get married."

Although our team didn't win the first place, the second place in the province is already very good for our newly formed team, so I decided to continue to work hard and play the first place.

There are more and more competitions in CS, and I am getting busier and busier. I forgot how long I haven't thought of Noel. I always play late, and occasionally I see her on QQ, and she is always silent. I don't know what happened to her. Now that I think about it, I know I was wrong, because I never cared whether she was happy or not.

One day, she said, "Can you talk to me for a while?"

I said, "No. I am now in contact with the game and waiting for a call. " The game is about to begin. "

"Not for the time being?"

"Noel is good."

"Is CS really important to you?"

"yes."

"What about me? Am I not important at all? "

"equally important"

"Which is more important, me or CS?"

“CS。” I didn't lie to her.

For a long time, her QQ avatar didn't shake again.

A few days later, I saw the message she gave me: "I don't know if I can wait until the day when I am more important than CS. You should take care of yourself in the future ... "I think she seems to be saying something stupid, and she closed QQ before she finished reading it.

③

A few months later, I came home from playing CS, exhausted, and fell on the bed and didn't want to move. At this moment, the mobile phone rang, and I didn't want to answer it, but it kept ringing. As soon as I saw Noel's number, I picked it up angrily and said, "Didn't I tell you not to call me these days?" You have no idea how tired I am ... "

There was a roar on the other end of the phone ... Are you a fucking man? "

It's not Noel. I'm shocked. "Who are you?"

"You don't care who I am. Noel will go to the funeral tomorrow. If you want to be a man, come and see her for the last time. "

Noel. Funeral? What with what? I wanted to ask again, but the phone suddenly hung up.

Suddenly a sense of terror seized me and I desperately called back. It took a long time for someone to pick it up. It was a very old voice, "Are you looking for ..."

"Where is Noel?"

"She's ... gone ..." The voice was obviously in tears.

My head exploded. Did something really happen to Noel?

That day, I saw Noel being carried out by them. She still has a smile on her face, but the angelic smile no longer shines. Noel's friends looked at me with hatred and tried to eat me. Noel's mother told me that Noel suffered from thrombocytopenia, and her family wouldn't let her do anything, fearing that she might accidentally break her finger or something and bleed a lot. I thought it was cured, but somehow, platelets suddenly dropped and heart function began to fail. A few days ago, she suddenly recovered. We all know what this means. She said she wanted to call you when she heard your voice, but her cell phone was turned off. She said you must be playing. Someone said they would come to see you, but Noel wouldn't let them. She said this game is very important to you. She's worried that you'll be angry. She cried when she said this, and we all cried with her. She said that one day you will understand that she is more important than CS, but this can't wait ... Noel's mother wiped her tears again.

I leaned against the wall of the hospital morgue and wanted to cry.

④

I haven't played CS for several days, staring blankly at Noel's QQ map. I seem to have been drained of my strength since Noel left. Physical and mental exhaustion.

I opened Noel's QQ and realized that I was the only one in it.

I noticed that there was a website in her file, which was opened as a mood station and contained various stories, including an article signed by Noel.

"I can't imagine how hopelessly I love him. I like his gentleness and the way he pretends to be fierce. I think if he asks me to marry him one day, I will definitely marry him.

I'm very unhappy recently. I like listening to him, but he won't even talk to me because he is busy and he wants to call CS. He stopped calling me a little fool. He never said he loved me or sent me flowers, but I still like him.

One day I told him that the river was flooded, and he said that he would watch it with me in the future, and I was very happy. One day, I saw a lovely puppy. He promised me that we would have one in the future, also called Noel. I am very happy. He said that he would accompany me to the movies and fly kites in a few days. I am very happy. Although these have not been realized, I believe they will be realized one day. But I'm afraid I can't wait that long.

He said that CS was more important than me, and I was not angry because it was true, but I was very sad and cried secretly. I don't think I'm strong enough and I'm not good enough. The doctor said my next birthday is April 4th, and he doesn't know my birthday yet! But it doesn't matter.

I am weak again. I'm tired just after typing a few words. It's really useless

I know he has many girlfriends, which is good. He won't be sad when I leave. Although I really want to marry him, I have been expecting him to send me roses, even if there is only one. Many people sent me roses before, but I confiscated them. Because it stands for love, I think I may not wait for the day when he gave it to me, so I secretly bought one for myself. I don't think he will ever see what I wrote, so I can knock at will. That annoying voice keeps repeating' Sorry, the number you dialed is power off'. I really want to talk to him again, even if it's only for one minute. Listen to his voice. We haven't seen each other for a long time. I miss him every day. Really worthless, crying again, alas, in fact, I really can't worry about him. His eyes hurt after playing games for a long time, but I bought eye drops but I couldn't give them to him. Besides, he is very picky about food ... "

I haven't finished writing the article. I think she is tired. There is a flash at the end. I clicked play, and the elegant voice echoed in the empty room.

"I walked so far with you quietly/I didn't even notice that my eyes were red/I heard you say that you have changed now/I still love your smiling face/this old road hasn't changed/it's sunny every time I pass by/I think of our past/tears begin to spread bit by bit ... every time I close my eyes/I always see/all your promises will come true/I kiss your face/you are no longer with me/.

Flash is a bit rough, but the tears I have been holding back for a long time are still dripping down, and there are lines of fine print at the end of the picture.

"I want to hear you say you love me, so let me know;

I want to accept the rose you sent me, just one;

Want to spend more time loving you, even if it's only for one day;

But now, my hands are shaking and I really want to see you again. "

I sat alone in a dark room and finally burst into tears. I just miss you, my favorite woman. I haven't had time to spoil you, fulfill my promise, and make you my most beautiful bride.

Damn CS, I haven't seen you for the last time. Damn me.

Yes, I finally understand that you are the most important, but unfortunately you can't wait for me.

⑤

It didn't rain in Tomb-Sweeping Day this year. I gave up CS and became a white-collar worker. I will definitely ask you to be my most beautiful bride.

"Happy birthday, little fool."

I come here every week. I just want to tell you that a pure white tombstone is just like your purity. The breeze blows my face like your hair, and I miss your smiling face. I still like it best.

My friends and family are surprised at my change. I don't smoke, play CS and surf the Internet. I have a cute puppy like you. We agreed that I would call it Noel. I just want to talk to you again and send you your favorite rose.

Baby, I love you.