My husband learned that his first lover was widowed and wanted to help her. What should I do?

My husband and I have been married for six years and have always had a good relationship. The only fly in the ointment is that we don't have our own children yet, but we are working hard and believe that we will become a happy family of three in the near future. In September this year, my husband's first lover took her husband to her husband's hospital to see a doctor. Because of my previous relationship with her, my husband tried to take care of them after he came. Although I feel uncomfortable, I sympathize with their situation on the one hand and don't want to embarrass my husband, so I turn a blind eye to everything.

A few days ago, my husband's first lover passed away. When I went to see my husband yesterday, I saw his car parked on the side of the road, holding his first lover in it. Just as I was about to go forward, my husband drove away with them. I thought about it for a long time. I decided to communicate with my husband for the sake of our marriage. I was just about to speak when my husband came home at night, but I didn't expect him to say something that made me more nervous.

My husband said to me at that time: "She is also poor. She had a bad life, and now her husband is gone! " I said, "Yes, but she has nothing to do with us now. You have tried your best to help her! " "I didn't expect my husband to say," A little help! "Today, I sent her to the station, and she went back. When she left, she said that in order to repay me, she would let me be the godfather of her son! "

For a moment, I felt particularly angry. My husband and I have been married for so many years and have never been pregnant. Originally, this is a heart disease of mine. I didn't expect my husband to recognize a godson himself, and he was also the child of his first girlfriend. I said loudly, "I don't think you need to be the godfather, just be the biological father of other people's children!" " The husband said, "You are crazy! What's the big deal? As for being so angry? " I said, "Do you still think this is a trivial matter? What's the big deal? I saw you hugging her this afternoon, and now this happened. What do you take me for? I don't object to your helping her, but everything should be measured, right? I'm your wife, not her. We're family. Do you understand? "

Husband said: "She is very fragile now, and the person who can rely on here is me. I'm not busy. Who can help me? " In the afternoon, she was so sad that she cried and leaned on me for a while. How can it be so ugly in your mouth? People are so poor, can't you be kind and generous? "I said," well, I'm vicious, I'm stingy. If you are not satisfied with me, we will divorce, and then you will go to her, and you can be together! " "I didn't expect my husband to say," Divorce is divorce. Do you think I dare! " "My husband left angrily and didn't return overnight.

I am also confused about our marriage. The original beautiful feelings became like this after her husband's ex-girlfriend appeared, so helpless! Am I really wrong?