I totally lost?

Your words can affect my mood, you can change my day's mood, you can decide my life's mood, and I am completely lost. Our distance is in your eyes, but not in my heart. You can see all my movements, but you can't understand one of my expressions. You can say anything you want, but I have nothing to say. I totally lost. My heart, you will never understand, your love, I will never want it. It's just a game between us, but you take it seriously. I lost, completely lost. Between us, there is no result, only the process, but I took it seriously and I completely lost. Your words can affect my mood, you can change my day's mood, you can decide my life's mood, and I am completely lost. You say you like rain, but you take an umbrella when it rains. You say you like sunshine, but when it is sunny, you hide in a cool place. You say you like the wind, but when it is windy, you close the window. So I'm afraid you'll say you like me, too.