My mother always cries, and I feel a lot of pressure ... I feel guilty about spending money ... What should I do?

I saw many comments urging her to be herself, but it was really difficult to be herself in this situation. My mother is crying, too. I will remember her words all my life.

Once I asked my mother why she was crying for poverty at a good family dinner (including me, my mother, my father and my sister). I thought she would encourage me to study hard and make money, but she didn't. She and my father cried for a long time, and finally left me a sentence: "Why don't you let me say poor?" ! We are inferior! "At that time, my heart was broken? I am extremely disappointed in my parents now. I'm almost depressed. I tried to kill myself and wrote a will. ? Now, if you also have a strong sense of inferiority, even depression, then love yourself, read more books on financial management and tell yourself more: I am not worse than others, as long as I work hard, I can get what I want, and finally wish you happiness.