Love story

He said goodbye, not good night. After I hung up the phone, he sent me a text message saying, I'm sorry, you can't regain what you lost. ----[Reposted from DOTA]

I went to take the Level 4 exam again yesterday. What a coincidence, I was in the same exam room as you. You had a new hair style and you looked very neat, but you still look the same. I bought a pair of Nike sneakers with you. At that time, I said these shoes were ugly, but you said I had no taste.

We are separated by five rows and two groups. My English has never been good, and neither have you. When I passed CET-4 for the first time, you said we should learn English together, and I said yes. This sentence has never been realized.

After handing in the paper, I walked quickly to the door, in order to be closer to you. We looked at each other, but there was no communication. When I went out and walked in two directions, I saw your roommate. He used to call her sister-in-law. I smiled, and then he said, ah, sorry, I forgot. I said it's okay.

I heard the boy next to you calling your name and saying, hurry up, go back and fight. I shouldn't have taken this exam. You say, I C, I don’t know a single word.

At that time, every time you were in a bad mood, you would text me and say, Wife, I can recite the words. This has always been your excuse. I know that every time you say this, you just want to be quiet and let me not disturb you.

Speaking of which, you must be annoying me. I always call you when you are playing DOTA. As soon as I see your status becomes busy, I get flustered and send you a window vibrate call. Telephone. If your tone is slightly impatient, I will make trouble with you unreasonably. Then I listen to you coaxing me, my wife, I am wrong, why not, be good. I am so happy. I was crying just a moment ago, but I am happy the next second.

I know you always come to this forum, so when I have nothing to do, I come here to see what other posts you have made and what you have said. What you are talking about is all related to games. I actually really hate the game DOTA. I think it is just a bunch of monsters to fight and kill. I hate it and it takes up our time. I hate it when you and those teammates agree on a time every day to play this game day and night. Then he said to me, "Daughter-in-law, go to bed early, I'm going to fight."

This is your hobby, I understand. For example, I like to read some women's websites that you find boring, and play some very retarded Lianliankan and the like.

When we were together, you said that you gave up a lot of time playing games for me, and your teammates complained about you. But I still heard the blame in your tone. You blamed me for always being clingy to you. You said that boys like freedom. What you want is for me to appear when you need me and disappear immediately when you don't need me.

We eat together every day, go to class together, and walk on the road together. The result is that we are getting farther and farther apart, and you are getting further and further away from me.

You said wife, I feel sorry for my teammates.

I don’t understand, but I can understand your guilt and self-blame. I said it's okay, my husband is the best in my eyes.

I know you have worked hard for this game and have been practicing with your teammates. Let me eat alone and go to and from get out of class alone. I don’t have many friends. My roommates all know that we are always together and they never call me when we go to do anything.

I don’t blame you at all, I just feel lonely sometimes. I was walking in school that day and met the boy who used to chase me. He asked me why I wasn't with you. I said, ah, he has something to do. He said why is the beauty looking so sad? Let me treat you to dinner. I know you are chauvinistic and opposed to me dating all boys. I said I won't go, I have other things to do. He said the tutoring was really strict, haha.

They all know that we are very strict with each other. I don’t allow you to talk to other girls. Sometimes I am extremely stingy. Which girl did you act like in school? Which girl did you talk to more often? In short, I will be unhappy. I know this is not good. If you say I don't trust you, why don't you? I complimented a boy unintentionally, and you impatiently said it was easy to find him.

You always say that I am angry, stingy, unreasonable and willful. In fact, there are many girls in love who are not like this. I am trying hard to change it for you, but you say that I am cold to you and ignore you.

I am a little scared when I write this, lest you see it. You'll definitely know it's mine. You will say that I am hypocritical again.

I am always sentimental and crybaby. In the past, you always touched my head and called me silly girl. Later, you became impatient and cried whenever you wanted to.

Our money is all put together, and it is all placed with me. You are so careless that you have no idea. Our family conditions are similar. I try not to spend too much money on you. I keep good accounts every month. Make a rough budget every time you go out for fun.

It’s not that I’m not unmoved when I see those beautiful clothes when I’m shopping. Every time you say you like it, just try it. You say, wife, let’s buy it if we like it. Don’t be afraid to spend money. I hesitated and gave a reason, saying that the clothes didn't suit me, saying that the clothes were too short, saying that the color of the clothes made my face look dark, and saying that the clothes were not easy to match. Every time I have many reasons, why do you choose so many? I think they look pretty. I said I just didn’t like it, and then quickly pulled you away. I am only 20 years old, how could I not like the clothes in the window, but after thinking about it, I still can't bear to part with clothes that cost three figures. If I really like it, I don’t want you to buy it for me. I can just buy it myself when I go shopping.

You are actually very kind to me. When I was in poor health, you rushed to buy me medicine. You took me on a long car ride to eat my favorite food. Say good night to my wife every night. He held my hand tightly when crossing the road. You always like to call me stupid, but your tone is doting every time. I was still very happy to hear it.

When did you stop treating me like this? Is it because you like someone else, or are you tired of me?

You no longer reply to every text message I send you. When I call you, the first thing I say is, is there something wrong? Can't I come to you when I have nothing to do? Can't I miss you?

You said you like girls to wear pure and pure things. Before I met you, I probably dressed a little maturely. I don’t have the refreshing white T-shirts you like. For In line with your preference, I straightened my hair, wore canvas shoes and jeans every day, and combed my hair into a ponytail. I put away my little skirt, stockings and high heels. Because you don't like it.

One time I met a girl while walking. She was very beautiful, wearing high heels, a denim skirt, and black stockings. You said look at these legs. I admit that I was a little jealous. I said my legs were like this too, but you wouldn’t let me wear them. You say others wear it this way, if you dare to wear it this way, try it.

There is no logic at all in what I write. Should I write about the sweetness when we first got together, and then slowly write about our breakup, right?

Let me talk about the day I left. Because I'm going through it.

Seven days ago, you said, let’s separate. I thought you were joking, so I said, OK. You looked at me and said, I'm serious. I still didn’t take it seriously, I said I was serious too. Then you suddenly hugged me and said, I'm sorry, let's break up. My eyes suddenly fell down. I said in the calmest voice, why. You said, I feel tired. I said oh and couldn't say another word, I choked back with tears.

You said that being with me is very happy, but gradually you feel that it is also a burden. You said that I make you tired, always make you worry, always have a bad temper, and always make trouble unreasonably. You said that you I feel like I've done a good enough job, but it still makes me unhappy. You said, I love you, but I can't bear it anymore.

I still can’t say a word. You wiped away my tears and said, "Look, you love crying so much. You are not allowed to cry all the time in the future."

You took me back to the dormitory. At the door of the dormitory, you kissed my forehead. Turned around and left. I walked into the dormitory hall and looked back, hoping that you would smile and wave to me like before and shout goodbye to your wife. But no, you left without looking back.

I didn’t dare to tell my roommates when I went back to the dormitory. I put on my headphones and watched the movie, and then burst into tears. My roommate asked me what was wrong, and I smiled and said that it was so touching when I watched the movie.

Your avatar is grayed out. I know you have canceled the visibility of your invisibility, maybe you have deleted me. The separate grouping I gave you is still there. When I went to your school, I no longer had any special friends. The only news I had was the World Cup news you shared.

Your speed is too fast, I have no time to react. Someone asked me on QQ, what's wrong with you two? Why are you no longer a special friend? I said, ah, it’s divided. He said why. I said, I don't know.

I wanted to see things and miss people, but found that there was nothing. I only had these memories in my mind. I have bought you a lot of random little things, such as mobile phone chains, key chains, water bottles, wallets, belts, towels, hot water bottles, and even facial cleanser, shower gel, and soap.

I love to visit trinket stores. When I see something for a couple, I want to buy it. I think your table must be full of things I gave you. Are they still there now? There must be no photo of us in your wallet, or you have changed your wallet. You may have thrown away your mobile phone chain, keychain, etc.

You never gave me anything, except a big bear when you chased me. It's still on my bed, stained with my tears. I don’t want you to buy me clothes or shoes. Sometimes a simple thing makes me happy. I know boys are more careless and don't care about those little things.

But after we were separated, I found that I had nothing to recall, nothing to leave your mark on in my life.

From now on I can no longer hold your hand and walk around the campus, I can no longer hold your arm and act like a baby, I can no longer pretend to let you carry me, I can no longer hear you call me a silly girl, no more I can no longer put my hands in your pockets, I can no longer show off in couple costumes, I can no longer go to the canteen to steal chopsticks together, I can no longer drink a bottle of water with you and eat a bowl of noodles, and I can no longer rest my head on yours. On my shoulders, I can no longer call my husband incessantly when I act coquettishly, I can no longer kiss you when I say goodbye, I can no longer receive your call before going to bed, I can no longer ask you to wipe my tears, and I can no longer let you wipe my tears. When I can’t eat, you eat fat meat and I eat lean meat. I can no longer log in to your QQ to steal food, I can no longer drag you to take selfies with you, and I no longer even have the right to be angry with you

< p>When you think of this, may you feel a little sad and a little uncomfortable?

I will never interrupt you playing games again, never act coquettishly with you, never lose my temper with you, never be jealous of you, never care about you playing games all night, never again. I blame you for not accompanying me, so that you won’t be very tired, right?

I feel so sad when I write this

Memories are torturous things.

In these seven days, I met you four times, without saying hello, no communication, nothing. Sometimes I wonder if I should smile.

Look at you still wearing my favorite T-shirt and the pair of shoes I hate the most, and you still follow the NBA, the World Cup, and DOTA, as if nothing has changed in your life.

As for me, I cry more, don’t eat on time, and suffer from insomnia. I carry your phone over and over, but I can’t press it out.

The friends around you said, it’s okay, I still treat you as my sister-in-law.

They greeted me warmly when they saw me, but you disappeared from my world.

The final exam is coming soon. I said before that I would review with you, and you said yes. We have made many promises, but many of them have not been fulfilled.

You said that you would take me to meet your family during the summer vacation. You said that you told your family that you had found a girlfriend, who was tall, beautiful, and was good to you. You said you wanted to take me to meet your best buddy who is now a soldier. You said you would take me to Dalian during the summer vacation.

People around us say that we are a model couple. You can pick me up from get out of class on a rainy day, and you can jump out of the window at night to escape from bed and take me to see a doctor. I can knit scarves for you all night long, copy many recipes from the Internet for you to cook, help you organize study materials until your eyes hurt, and copy many notebooks for you. Every day I show you clothes, shoes and game peripherals on Taobao.

That’s it, you still don’t want me anymore

I’m used to living with you and regard you as my own family.

Every day when I open my eyes, I think of you, whether you have gotten up, whether you have had breakfast, whether you are fighting again, whether you will also smoke a cigarette and think about me.

I have started to adjust, I started to read books, started to eat by myself, and started to try to adapt to life without you.

The day before yesterday, I met my friend who was the same as us before, and he didn’t know that we broke up. He said let's get together someday, it's almost a holiday. I said we broke up. He said, C, when will it happen? I said just for a few days. He said, what does this kid want? I said maybe I was too annoyed and had a bad temper. He said, isn’t that what a virgin is like? Which woman doesn’t do that? Does he have someone else? I said, no, I believe him.

I believe that you are single-minded, even if there are many beauties around you, even if you always like to make trouble with little girls, even if you always mention other girls to me, even if they are better than me, even if I Always jealous. But I still believe you and won't fall in love with anyone else.

You said you could find a better one with my conditions, so you gave me freedom. Give yourself freedom too.

Now we are all free, is this the freedom you want?

Our story, from my point of view, some people will say that such boys are not worthy. But if you look at it from another angle, everyone would say that such a girlfriend should break up as soon as possible.

Every girl who has a boyfriend who plays games has faced busy avatars and constant automatic replies, and they have never understood them. What does that feeling feel like, saying something for a long time and only receiving an automatic reply? Waiting for the next sentence until you forget the last sentence you said? Looking at his avatar in a daze, waiting for him to switch back to the desktop. , I want to say but dare not say, want to disturb but dare not disturb.

Slowly I got used to it, and slowly I understood it.

Slowly, I started to have fun on my own. While he was playing games, I browsed Taobao repeatedly. When I got used to it, you were gone.

Maybe many couples are like us, cherish it, some people will never miss it once they miss it. It's impossible to get back together, just keep it as a memory.

I have almost run out of tears these days.

I went to class in the afternoon, and he should be in the classroom opposite me. I knew that he must not have come to class, and was playing games in the dormitory, or going to the court to play ball.

He always said that he should study hard, and I supported him. However, I still couldn't wait to study with him, read books together, and listen to music with headphones each.

Everyone in his class knows me. After class, I saw those familiar people walking past me, with sympathy or confusion in their eyes. They must be thinking, why are we separated?

Are you in a good mood now? Have you eaten well? Did you go out without taking your keys? Are you still misplaced? I am no longer with you to remind you, do you feel that something is missing?

You have been having a lot of fun playing games recently. I heard from your friend that you play Dota in your dormitory every day, and you play all day long.

Me too, I spent a whole day shopping on Taobao, but I still can’t stop looking at the messy things you mentioned, such as couple accessories and couple outfits. When you see some nice clothes, you think they suit you very well.

We used to go out every Saturday and Sunday, go to spring outings, go to movies, eat, go to the park, go singing, and go shopping. What I look forward to most is that every weekend, in On Sunday night, I start looking forward to the next weekend, and spend every day in happiness and expectation.

A few weekends before we were separated, we went out to play together, and you bought me a joyful balloon. I held your hand with it and felt very happy. It's all confiscated by you now.

I know you are online, on QQ, and on campus, but I can’t see you. I ask others about your current situation in a roundabout way, and they always get the same answer: play games every day.

We were in love, and it makes me sad to think about it.

I remember last winter, there was a heavy snowfall, and you accompanied me to class. As we walked, we didn’t want to go, so we had a snowball fight in front of the building. You waded on the snow, printed your outline, and wrote my name with your fingers on the heart. I drew a big heart on the snow. The outline existed for several days before it was a little blurred by the wind.

Once your dormitory went to KTV to sing, and you both drank a lot. A guy in your dormitory got into a fight with someone else. In the chaos, you didn’t know who scratched your arm. Tell me, you waited until I saw the wound before you downplayed it and said it was a fight. I burst into tears. I said why didn't you tell me? You said I told you why, just worry about it. Look, there's nothing to cry about. Then you pulled me into your arms.

I finished typing this paragraph very calmly. I thought I could narrate such a story without expression, but now I found that my face was already wet.

I always like to think about the future. I think I can graduate from college smoothly with you. I think two years is actually very fast and we can spend it calmly. I think we can find a job. It’s a job that’s neither salty nor light. You don’t need to earn a lot of money or have a lot of social activities. Go home from get off work early and I’ll prepare a meal waiting for you. When I have money, I'll be a little bourgeois. When I don't have money, it's okay to have instant noodles with you.

I told you my ideals, but you touched my head and said I was stupid. You said how could I let you suffer with me? If you can't live a good life with me, I will definitely let you go.

My birthday is in winter, very close to Christmas. You said, daughter-in-law, let’s celebrate birthdays and Christmas together. I said yes. You called me at night and said, Wife, come downstairs. I got dressed and ran downstairs. The winter in the Northeast is very cold, but I didn't see you. Just when I was about to call you, I heard someone calling my name in the distance. I walked over there, and fireworks bloomed in the night sky. You shout, happy birthday, wife. You know, there were a lot of people coming and going around at that time. I ran towards you and you opened your hands to welcome me. I felt at that time that I recognized you.

At that time, you must still love me very much. I believe it.

Girls in love have this common problem. They always think that boys will notice their unhappiness. If he feels that he is angry, he will definitely feel it immediately. If he feels that he is unhappy, he will definitely know the reason. But sometimes, they don't feel it at all. They don't have as sensitive nerves as we do.

You were angry because of his words, and you were sulking for a long time, waiting for him to coax you, but maybe in the end he didn't even know which of your words was wrong. So I understand now that communication must be the most important thing. If you are angry, if you ignore him, if you cry, it will only make him feel unreasonable. You think he can understand, you think he can understand, but in their eyes, it will only make him feel unreasonable. I feel confused. If you don't tell them, they will never know.

I once joked to you that I could fill a big bottle with all the tears I shed for you.

To this day, I am still crying for you.

At one department event, I wore a pair of ten-centimeter high heels, which were as tall as you. You said, wife, are you obviously putting pressure on me? I said with a smile, then I will find someone taller. I stood in high heels for a whole day and my feet hurt a lot. You said, wife, I’ll carry you on my back. Then you carry me back to the dormitory. I asked you if I am heavy, why am I not heavy? Do you have one hundred and fifty? I hit your head with my head, and I asked you to say it again, am I heavy? You said I am not heavy, my wife has no weight at all. This sentence happened to be heard by your classmates who were passing by. After you said that you went back to the dormitory, they laughed at you all night. Later, every time they saw me, they asked me, sister-in-law, do you still have no weight?

Girls may think they are fat. I always clamored to lose weight. During the days when I was with you, I gained weight. Quite a few, I said it was all your fault for making me fat. You said this is better. Only I can want you if you become a fat girl, and no one else can. I haven't eaten well these days, and I've lost a little weight. I have lost the weight I want, but I wish you could put all the delicious food into my bowl and keep asking me to eat more, eat more.

When I first got together with you, when you took me to meet your buddies for the first time, I was very nervous. Before going out that day, I changed into several clothes and chose from a row of shoes. Go, should it be more ladylike or lively, should it be more mature or cute. I kept asking you, but you were tired of being asked. You said you could wear anything, but you were so particular about it.

I don’t even know what to say when I’m having dinner with them. If I talk too much, I’m afraid they’ll think I’m annoying. If I talk too little, I’m afraid they’ll think I’m not approachable.

After finishing the meal, I kept asking you about their reactions and whether they were satisfied with me.

As long as I am satisfied with my wife, I don’t care what they do.

After getting to know them later, one of your buddies said that I made a good impression on them that day, that I felt gentle and sensible, and not pretending. I'm especially starting school, and I feel like I'm getting embarrassed by you.

As I write this post, I recall many happy times.

I was so happy at that time that it hurt so much after the separation.

I learned a lot of things for you, fell in love with cooking for you, and fell in love with watching basketball for you. In the past, I only knew Yao Ming, and paid attention to sports news for you. I watched it for you at all. I don’t understand the World Cup.

I have given a lot and received a lot from you.

You said that you should live well even after separation.

You are the same. I wish you happiness. I am really selfish and don’t want to say it. I don’t want to see you happier after you leave. I always feel that only two people, me and you, can be happy. .

But now that things have come to this, I have to say, I wish you happiness.

Goodbye my love, the love of my life

The future I have planned with you can only be remembered

Goodbye my love, please forgive me for my love for you Not confessing

Can’t let go but have to let go before I feel sad

goodbye my love