Although my father is an adult, his mind is immature and he always argues with me. He said nothing, just that I was angry and pouted and smashed furniture. Always unreasonable

Let me tell you something about me. I haven't seen my mother since I was a child. Dropped out of junior high school before finishing school. I have a bad temper. A little thing can make me pick up a kitchen knife and chop people. Even if I am in charge, no one helps me, and I often run into a wall everywhere. Being scolded for no reason, even playing games, because I can't play well, being scolded by others. I said he had no quality, and he said I had no quality. I didn't scold a word from beginning to end. Finally, he killed me three times in a row. As a result, he said nothing, and then continued to scold me. I'm not stupid either. I tried to fight back and the enemy took the opportunity to kill me. So he has another chance, so call me garbage and get out of here. I also flew into a rage and picked up a kitchen knife to cut people, but who will cut them? I was considered mentally ill by my neighbors, which gave me an excuse. It's not illegal to kill by mental illness, so I want to try it, showing a ferocious face and holding a kitchen knife. Then, because I want to create a horrible atmosphere, I cut it on something that is not very hard. As a result, the knife was scarred, my finger was squeezed accidentally, and dark red blood flowed out of my nails. But I didn't feel much, and then my mind gradually became clear, and reason gradually replaced sensibility to guide my brain. Standing quietly for a while, I remembered my previous experience and shed tears unconsciously. Then look at this riddled world, and then go home to find spiritual support. Hypocrisy, I won't show the devil living in my heart to outsiders, but everyone in the village knows what a boring guy I am. So I dare not speak ill of me in front of me, but I learned it from my father. I know no one can understand me, even myself. It's beside the point. Never mind. Your father is not bad. Scold me if you don't listen to my dad. He gave him a push because I hated his chatter, but he stuck to me and said something. Don't listen to your dad. If I am old, you won't support me. I should have given you to your aunt when you were born. Now your elder sister-in-law definitely doesn't want you either. If he hadn't become so poor, there wouldn't be you. Anyway, the meaning has been achieved. How can I not support you? I want to see the eyes of the world.