What happens when a man becomes a woman?

This question is asked to the right person. I looked at the posting date, August 2013... It’s been a long time. Think about it, a year after that year (August 2014), I also had a The pure man turned into a tomboy.

I had deformities in my lower body when I was a child, so I was raised as a boy until I was 18 years old. I still vaguely remember that in junior high school, I had many physical problems (which were later confirmed to be normal secondary sex disorders). Symptoms of development, but these conditions were abnormal for me "as a boy" at that time) When I was a child, like many boys, I stood up to pee and ran around shirtless. The only difference from other boys was that I did not have testicles. But anyone at home, including my parents and grandparents, can tell that I am a "leader." Because I had no testicles, I took a leave of absence and went to the Provincial People's Hospital for an examination in kindergarten. However, the doctor did not examine carefully at that time. He simply asked and felt it and determined that it was cryptorchidism in children and required surgery. I was still young at that time, so I didn't want to have surgery if I cried and made trouble, so I put the matter on hold and wanted to wait until I grow up to do it.

Time flies so fast, and it’s junior high school in a blink of an eye. Like other boys, I like to talk about various games. At that time, PSP was very popular, and we all played online together and had a great time. Ever since, I gradually started to like playing World of Warcraft in my second year of junior high school, and from time to time I would talk about some Warcraft topics in a World of Warcraft discussion group we formed. In junior high school, I was a chauvinist. I would bully girls from time to time, and I was often bullied by boys who protected girls. I still remember that one day in the third grade of junior high school, our family suddenly got a kitten. It was a little female cat that was just one month old. A thought flashed in my mind: "Why did you want to be reincarnated as a female cat?" At the same time, I secretly congratulated myself Since he is a boy, he will not have to face the problem of having children in the future.

However, perhaps because of this, I suffered retribution, and God made me "become" a woman (yes, I still think that I was turned into a woman). When I was 14 years old and in my second year of junior high school, one day I suddenly developed blood in my urine. I also went to the hospital. After a urine test, I was diagnosed with a urinary tract infection. Later, I took medicine and it didn't get better. I went to the hospital again and was diagnosed with chronic nephritis. , I also switched from western medicine treatment to traditional Chinese medicine, and I would go to a traditional Chinese medicine hospital far away from our home every now and then to get medicine. In addition to this incident in the second year of junior high school, many strange illnesses followed one after another. The voices of the buddies around me all changed, but I still spoke softly. However, because I stayed with my classmates for a long time, no one regarded me as a "sissy", and they got used to it after a long time. .

Since I have to take the high school entrance examination, my family has never taken some of my strange "illnesses" seriously, thinking that they might get better as I grow older, including cryptorchidism, which I think will gradually come out as I grow older. Yes, so from junior high school to my second year of high school, I never went to the hospital for a checkup.

I was not under a lot of pressure during the college entrance examination. Because I was an art student and my major ranked very high after the school entrance examination, I was not very interested in studying cultural courses, so I became an undergraduate in my senior year of high school. This has been the most relaxing year for me. Because I will be 18 soon and I still speak softly, and my testicles have never grown. My family is afraid that the suppression of male hormone secretion caused by cryptorchidism will cause me to speak softly, so they decided to take me to do it during the winter vacation. Operation. I was still unwilling to undergo the surgery that time, but thinking about my future life with my lover and future generations, I still went to the hospital.

Because I was going to have this kind of surgery, the hospital arranged a consultation for me. As a result, the diagnosis put our family in an extremely tangled situation... Not only did I have no testicles, but I also had no turtle head, which means I don’t have anything that a man should have at all. On the contrary, that long thing is a strange-looking thing (you know that thing). And through in-depth B-ultrasound examination, the doctor discovered that... I have a complete set of female reproductive organs in my belly... uterus... ovaries, and the blood in my urine that comes from time to time turns out to be ** (cough, you still understand). . . So I was referred from the andrology department to another department, and it was found that my chromosomes were XX (female chromosomes). . .

I was officially declared a girl...

I didn't know about it the day the test results came out. Later, my mother suddenly said that the operation would not be done (I also proposed it without knowing it at the time) Because I was afraid that I didn’t want to do it, I didn’t expect my mother to respond and say that I don’t have to do it.) I suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. However, in the next few days, my father sighed and suddenly became polite to me. I felt a little strange that I didn’t prescribe any more Chinese medicine after I finished eating it at home, but I didn’t ask too much at the time, and the matter passed...

College Entrance Examination in June 2014 After I suddenly relaxed, I wanted to go to the Internet cafe with a few good buddies to play World of Warcraft. However, this time my mother scolded me extremely severely... I still remember what she said that day: "His father, you Take care of him!" My dad said, "You should take care of it." My dad was very strict with me before, but his behavior suddenly became abnormal. Not only my father, but also my mother became abnormal. I asked my mother why she didn't let me go to the Internet cafe? Later, I went over the old score again. On the day of the college entrance examination, I bought a bottle of iced Pepsi but she also took it away. Why? ! ! ! I was very angry and said, "My classmates have all made appointments and are waiting for me!" At this time, my mother said, "Husband, please go out first." My dad responded and walked out of the house.

I felt very strange, but the atmosphere at that time left me speechless. Mom said something that made my whole body goosebumps: "Dabao, don't play with your classmates anymore. Mom wants to tell you something... (waited for a long time)... baby ...You are actually...a girl..."

I was not very shocked after my mother said this, but I thought it was funny and felt like I was dreaming. I didn't force myself not to believe this, but I really didn't take it seriously at the time. But after a while, the "strange diseases" that I had suffered from before suddenly came to my mind, combined with what my mother said. , but I suddenly realized the seriousness of the problem. . . I had goosebumps all over my body, and even suddenly felt an inexplicable nausea, and my mind was spinning but I didn’t know what I was thinking...

I didn’t know what to do for a long time after that, and at the same time I was full of curiosity about my future, and the first thing I did after learning that I was a girl was that I did a stupid thing (it doesn’t seem stupid now), that is, I... I told my girlfriend the girl’s news using QQ (I have been dating my girlfriend for four years, and she later found out about my cryptorchidism, but she liked me as a person, and one thing she often said was that she really liked being with me. , I once asked her what I would do if I couldn't let you have children in the future, and her reply was that she wouldn't have children... We will live together for the rest of our lives). At first, my girlfriend said that I was really good at joking, but she didn’t believe what I said that night. I didn’t know what to say, so I didn’t continue chatting with her. The day after the college entrance examination, I told my girlfriend that I would take her to eat spicy hot pot, so I called my mother there that day. My mother didn't agree with me eating spicy hot pot because I "urinated blood" that day, so we changed it again. Arrived at the porridge shop.

Later, my mother told my girlfriend that I was a girl. When my girlfriend learned that it was true, she covered her mouth for a long time and looked at me up and down. After a long time, He burst out laughing again, and his first sentence was: "Thankfully I changed to a porridge restaurant, and my aunt is here and I still eat spicy hot pot..." followed by a burst of uncontrollable laughter.

The afternoon when my mother, girlfriend and I had porridge together became the happiest time for me. My girlfriend suddenly talked to me about everything, and she and her mother taught me how to make one in the future. A qualified girl... Because I felt extremely happy when I suddenly came into such close contact with my girlfriend, but then I gradually came up with the idea that being a best friend is better than being a girlfriend.

Although I enjoyed the time I spent chatting and laughing with my girlfriend, at the same time, she and my mother sang and talked about teaching me how to be a woman, which made me feel like a criticism meeting against me. I hugged her at the beginning. I had a glimmer of hope and asked the hospital if I could continue to be a boy, but my mother said that the hospital's plan was to let me have a lower body plastic surgery after the college entrance examination and transform back into a girl. It would not affect my fertility in the future. If I want to "maintain" "If I am a boy, it will not just be as simple as plastic surgery, but a sex change operation, and it will mean that I will have to take hormones for the rest of my life, and will not be able to have children... So later on, I could only follow the ideas of my mother and girlfriend...

In August 2014, after the operation, I officially became a girl. At the same time, the good news was that I was admitted to the animation major of Communication University of China.

After the conversation at the porridge shop, my mother began to let me try to wear girls’ clothes. I also understood the reason why my mother asked me to grow my hair long during the winter vacation of my third year of high school. However, women’s clothing is very uncomfortable for me and is tight. Fatty times, bra, and the extra part of me disguised as a boy... It made me very uncomfortable to wear girls' NY, and my mother couldn't laugh or cry when she looked at the protruding part... So after some failed attempts, I changed back to wearing the baggy boxer NK from before, and I hated wearing a bra.

However, after a period of recovery after the operation, I tried to adapt to wearing women's clothing again... I felt so dizzy without my "lifeblood". What's even more strange is that the crotch of the pants worn by girls turned out to be so tight. Yes, I always wanted to give up because I felt too overwhelmed, but in the end I had to wear it anyway. I just "experienced" the feeling of being a girl every now and then, until later I just wore it and left. I never thought that I would have to dress like this forever.

After I went to college, I rarely spent time with my parents. I also had to live in the dormitory with a group of girls. After a long time, I felt that it was dirty and troublesome. . . I didn't like combing my hair, and I wasn't used to putting on makeup. My hair was left hanging all day long, and I had no choice but to wear a hat when I went out. My classmates in the same dormitory were blow-drying their hair, applying facial masks, and removing and applying make-up, which made me feel very uncomfortable. In the end, I had no choice but to rent a house outside and move out. Girls say that I am always slovenly and that I look like a boy... I reply to them that I am a boy. . . The result was a lot of laughter, thinking I was a tomboy who liked to joke around.

However, I did not give up trying to change my condition. Because I found makeup to be troublesome, I bought Kuriyama Mirai’s red glasses on Taobao, and I often went out wearing a hat. As a result, I was later called a freckle girl. As a girl with a hat, I finally had to learn makeup from one of my best friends. I learned how to put on makeup, touch up makeup, and remove makeup. That best friend was also the only one who knew about my "past life identity" (probably, I don't know whether she told others about it), and she also knew about me. He used to be a boy and gradually started to talk to me about everything. He often asked me what it was like to be a boy, how I could interact with the male god I liked so naturally...

In short, " There are many things that I cannot accept after becoming a girl, but there are also many things that feel extremely good, such as wearing many beautiful clothes. Compared with boys' uniform clothes, girls' clothes have a variety of styles. I’m not a person who likes women’s clothing very much. Sometimes I feel that those clothes are too “feminine.” Maybe it’s because there’s a man inside me, but I won’t wear the shirts or jackets I used to wear as a boy. Instead of wearing similar clothes, wear something more compact and neutral. I learned how to use Taobao in the second semester of my freshman year, and started to be keen on buying all kinds of beautiful clothes on Taobao. Most of them were Japanese original clothes, as well as Japanese college uniforms and gymnastics uniforms that could only be worn at home. I appreciate my own clothes, and occasionally buy some cosplay costumes worn by characters in anime. Most of them are purchased from Japan, because I feel that the domestic ones are a bit too colorful. Sometimes I would spend a lot of money to buy some British-style items, but later my parents would find out. . .

Finally, to summarize, I feel pretty good after becoming a girl, but sometimes I feel a little out of place with other girls. Overall, it’s not bad. Well, I really enjoy my body as a girl now. At the same time, he still retains the heart of a man