Who can help me put together the thoughts in "The Summer Solstice Has Not Come"?

Many times Fu Xiaosi thought that he and Lu Zhiang were just like two gangsters who depended on each other, laughing silently and crying hypocritically in Qianchuan, noisily living day after day. After so many years, he thought he had become accustomed to wandering around the city with Lu Zhiang, looking at countless beautiful girls, looking at countless strange stop signs, following countless strange and winding mountain roads and heading towards more unknown worlds. Those lush camphor trees grow in their annual rings and become a testament to their success day by day. He and Lu Zhiang slowly grew from three years old to nineteen years old. Those days that come back every time it rains really become memories. Fu Xiaosi sometimes looks at photos and suddenly feels sad. Their hair grew shorter and longer, their clothes became newer and older. They stood on the ground and cried and laughed. The big sun still rises in this city every day, lengthening and shortening their shadows.

So the years passed by year after year.

Lixia, you know, at that time I had no friends in Asakawa No. 1 Middle School. Before I met you, I had no friends since childhood. Therefore, the feeling of someone caring made me feel very warm for the first time. It's as hot as a sheep. Do you believe it? Even now, many years later, I still think so. ——In 2002? Meet me

Lixia, maybe you never know, it’s because you wait for me every night, so I don’t feel afraid on the dark way back. I don’t feel cold when I have it on me. Maybe when I know someone is waiting for me in front of me, I will become extra brave. ——1996? Met Xiaosi

Sometimes I always think that even if I stay around you, even if I can't help you much, it would be good if I could tell you that you are not lonely. Whether it was when you were a child or when you are shining brightly now. I always feel that you have your own unique world, and no one can understand your language, so I am afraid that you will be lonely. I have had a very silly idea since I was a child: If two people are bored together, then it is not boring... So until now, I always wonder, is Xiao Si lonely now?

So When I occasionally see a sudden shower of cherry blossoms on the streets of Japan these years, I always think, what a pity that Fu Xiaosi is not here.

It should be a pity to see the beauty of the world alone without anyone to share it,

——2003? Lu Zhiang

I will never Forgetting the way Lu Zhiang looked at me when he raised his head that day, Lu Zhiang's big, hot tears rolled down his face amidst the sound of the spiritual master's gongs and drums. I could tell that he was trying to control his emotions, but the corners of his mouth still looked like the pull-down expression he had when he was bullied as a child. I remember when I was in kindergarten, I would see him cry like this almost every day, for the scolding from his aunt, for the candies that we couldn’t fight for, for competing with me on the merry-go-round, for peeing in his pants, and for not giving the glass beads to a beautiful girl because I gave them to him. He... and when he grew up, Zhi Ang would always have a smile as bright as the sun. When he was talking, he had a face with lively expressions. When he was happy, he had a bright smile. When he was sad... when he was not sad, he grew up. He has never had a sad moment in front of me since he was an adult. I thought I had forgotten his sad face, but when I saw it again after such a long time, the shock suddenly increased tenfold, and in an instant it I became an empty shell, like a broken flag hanging in the wind.

In the thick night and among the noisy crowd around him, he looked like a pure white and quiet sad shepherd boy. I really wanted to go over and help him straighten out the hair that was messed up in the wind. I also wanted to sit down with him on the hot ground and say to him, "Hey, let's go get a haircut together someday." However, huge roots grew under my feet and pinned me to the ground, unable to move. Because I was afraid that if I walked over, he would see the mess of tears on my face. I didn’t want him to see me cry, because when I grew up, I never cried in front of him again.

Lu Zhiang, my mother will definitely go to heaven. You have to believe me.

——1996? Fu Xiaosi

Black dust began to fly out of the chimney, and the tall chimney looked particularly desolate in the dusk. When Fu Xiaosi raised his head, he suddenly thought that this entrance and exit of dust had taken away the sadness and longing of many people. In the dusky sky, a dark flock of birds flew past silently. Zhiang remembered that a girl who liked him once went to his house. His mother was very happy because she had been worried that she could not find a wife because of her idleness. The mother was very happy to see the girl and was even a little nervous. She kept chatting with them that day. Lu Zhiang knew that the mother was very happy. But the girl actually whispered in his ear, "Why doesn't your mother leave? I want to chat with you alone." Just because of this sentence, he kicked the girl out. His mother even scolded him for his bad temper. He didn't talk back at that time, thinking in his mind that he would definitely find the best wife in the world and let his mother know that I am also a very good boy. But he didn't expect that the time would be so short, and there would be so many things to do...

——Mom, I will never make my clothes dirty every day again. Mom, I will never forget you again. I like red but mistakenly bought green clothes for you. Mom, I will never throw the gift you gave me somewhere in the room on the pretext that I don’t like it. Mom, I will never forget your birthday again. Mom... Mom, I will never cry again. Mom, I will become the best CPA... Mom, you must go to heaven. I will come when I die. Don't worry, I will definitely come to heaven. , because you told me to be a strong and kind person. God will definitely like me, Mom... Goodbye.

Xiao Si once told me a story about an angel. It roughly means that everyone has an angel who has been guarding him/her. If this angel thinks your life is too sad, you If your mood is too sad, then he will become someone around you, maybe your friend, maybe your lover, maybe your parents, maybe a stranger you have only met once. These people He appears quietly in your life, spends a short happy time with you, and then leaves quietly. Then you will have happy memories in your life. Even if your future road is full of wind and snow, you can still be brave when you think of the happy things in the past. So those who left us silently are actually angels who have returned to heaven. For example, those friends who left, those strangers who once helped you, those who once loved you and finally separated, once told a good joke to amuse you. Your happy classmates, the singer who once sang a nice song to you, the writer who wrote a good book, they are all kind angels. Maybe you will feel sad or lost for their disappearance for a while, and you will look around to know where they have gone and what country they have gone to. But in the end, you will believe that they are in a corner of this world, quietly and contentedly. Live. So the loss and sadness of the past will no longer exist, time is the greatest healer.

Sometimes in class, I will suddenly have an illusion, as if I met her sitting next to me, and she was lying quietly on the table When she went to bed, the sun shone on her hair, her brows wrinkled slightly, and she seemed very stubborn in her dream. At the end of life, there is Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang. Xiaosi is drawing patterns on the table, while Lu Zhiang is sleeping next to him. As soon as I turned around, I could see those two heroic faces that I had seen countless times.

But if you blink again, everything returns to reality. Xiao Si is on the other side of the classroom. Many times when I look at him through various faces, I can see him looking at the blackboard seriously, and then quickly writing something in his notebook. Sometimes I feel sad when I look at his profile, and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I know that such days are too short, and I will graduate soon. Sometimes I hear the sound of piano coming from nowhere, and I wonder if it is Lu Zhiang playing.

What will graduation be like? I can't imagine it either. I have heard many people say before that graduation is like a windowpane. We have to smash it and then walk over with the sharp shards. After being bloody and bloody, we start a completely different life.

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Many times when Fu Xiaosi walks alone along the tree-lined avenue between the teaching building and the playground, he will vaguely think of many things about his first year in high school, and in his second year of high school, it seems that he is completely obsessed with it. Gaped away. It seems that 1997 has been missing from my life out of thin air.

And what exactly happened in 1997? So much so that I still feel resentful about it to this day.

In fact, it is very clear. I remember it better than anyone else. Just try not to think about it.

What happened in 1997? When Hong Kong returned to China in 1997, the whole of China was lively for almost a week. But there was also the Asian financial crisis in 1997, and the sky didn't seem entirely bright. In 1997, a Chinese naval warship made its first voyage around the world. None of this is of much significance to Fu Xiaosi or Li Xia. What is meaningful?

After the separation of arts and sciences, Lu Zhiang and Fu Xiaosi no longer went in and out of the same classroom at the same time.

It was when I met that I told Lixia, Lixia, I don’t want to take the college entrance examination anymore. I'm gone, but I will miss you forever.

1 In 1997, the school's new liberal arts building was put into use, so from that time on, science students and liberal arts students began to have classes in two different buildings, separated by an empty playground.

Now, Fu Xiaosi has become accustomed to parking his bicycles in the shed with Lu Zhiang every morning, waving goodbye, and then walking to different classrooms.

What else changed in 1997? Is it too much or too little? Fu Xiaosi couldn't understand, so he was reluctant to think about it. Many times, there is actually little time to think about other things. In a busy world like the senior year of high school, learning is everything.

But everyone knows about Lu Zhiang's change. Li Xia knows it, Yu Yu knows it, Qiqi knows it, and all the girls in the school who like Lu Zhiang know it, but no one feels it as deeply as Fu Xiaosi.

And this change is dissolved throughout the year, like salt sprinkled into water, and then gradually dissolves and finally completely merges with the water without any trace. On the way to school, when Lu Zhiang was sitting quietly outside Xiaosi's classroom waiting for him to finish school, in the lonely sound of Lu Zhiang's piano that occasionally came from the piano classroom, in the long holidays of winter and summer, when he looked up and down. During the break, in one text message after another, on the quiet road home at sunset, Fu Xiaosi felt his transformation day by day, feeling a little sad in his heart, like a rising tide.

And what has become of Lu Zhiang? Is it quiet? Or lonely? Can't understand. Li Xia often felt that Lu Zhiang had become another Fu Xiaosi, only he looked peaceful and quieter than Xiaosi. Because Xiao Si is a kind of silent person with sharp edges, and Lu Zhiang has gradually become a very gentle person towards everything. Unlike before, he likes to talk, laugh, and whistle at the beautiful girls passing by. Now he loves to talk every day. Biking quietly, when I had free time, I would ask Si Lixia to go to the library with me. Occasionally, I would wear black-rimmed glasses and frown while answering questions. In the library, I would find a sunny corner, and then take out a thick The reference book begins to calculate quietly on the scratch paper. The most exaggerated thing is that he will use mathematical concepts to analyze the problems you encounter in life, giving you the image of a nerd who has been persecuted by science for many years. Only very rarely, and only when there are very familiar people like Li Xia meeting Qi Qi around, Lu Zhiang will return to his former self, talking a lot, having vivid expressions, occasionally making fist gestures with Xiao Si, But more often than not, he has a very quiet face with a smile. When watching Lu Zhiang concentrate on drawing one function graph after another on the draft, Li Xia will recall the Lu Zhiang who dozed unscrupulously next to Xiao Si and himself, and the Lu Zhiang whose smile was like the rising sun in spring. A gust of wind will suddenly pass through my heart, blowing away all the past events from my heart.

After Li Xia left, the task of dealing with the teacher’s sudden questions seemed to be left to Lu Zhiang, and Lu Zhiang was helping to deal with many things that happened in the class. Sometimes I would ask Lu Zhiang when I met him. She said, would you feel lonely after leaving Xiaosi? Lu Zhiang just smiled and said nothing, and then said without any expression, "In fact, we met because I felt lonely after leaving Lixia, so I hope to hear similar words from my mouth, right?" When I meet someone who is so strong, he will never say such words as "lonely" or "lonely". In fact, there is no shame in this. There is no need for you to feel embarrassed. Just like I would complain to Xiao Si every day that it was so boring to leave him and that the whole class was a bunch of science machines.

When I met him, I gave him a blank look and said, "Don't come here. Why don't you come over? You have transformed now, and you are a quiet and silent prince type." Wow, wow, this is you two years ago, right?

One sentence made Lu Zhiang feel depressed. After holding it in for a long time, he began to complain that the world was unfair and his good intentions were not rewarded. I couldn't get angry when I met him and looked at him. I just thought it was great that Xiao Si had such a friend, so I silently said "thank you" to him in my heart.

Many years later, when I recall the last Christmas in Asakawa when I was a senior in high school, my heart is filled with emotions I couldn’t express. Xiao Si’s radiant eyes that day still appear repeatedly in my dreams. Many times I think, if we turn back time and everything goes back to the original moment, if Fu Xiaosi did not participate in that competition, if we met and did not leave, if Lu Zhiang is not Lu Zhiang, if I am not the beginning of summer, if everything allows us to choose to start again If we had been here, then we wouldn't be where we are now. If I had known at that time that fate would be such an arrangement and that the future road would be so tortuous, I think I would even risk making you hate me for the rest of your life by tearing up your finals permit. Because for so many years, watching you grit your teeth and come all the way, I am tired even if you are not tired. If you don’t want to cry, I want to cry. Words such as "things have changed and people have changed" and "the world has changed" that appear frequently in novels turn out to actually exist. But I know that even if I consume all my life, I can't turn back time for one second. We lost to the ever-changing hands of fate and were bruised all over. He was bruised and bruised from the fall.

Xiao Si, if we choose our destiny again, what will be our ending?

——2004? Beginning of Summer

The clear traces of the past can disappear. Therefore, many things cannot last forever, even if we think they can last forever. The earth exists, but the word forever seems to have never appeared, so many times I wonder, Zhiang, can we be good friends for life? Even if you get married, have children, and grow old in the future, will you still travel to the wilderness with backpacks on your back?

Are you still deeply upset because you lost a wallet I gave you?

——1998? Fu Xiaosi

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Zhiang, do you know that many years later, when I think back to the winter of 1997, At that time, I felt that you had become Lu Zhiang in 1995 again. You were still the boy who had never experienced grief, anger and pain. You would still laugh happily with your gums exposed. Your nervousness the day before the game was really quarreling with you. disappeared in the process. Sometimes I think, it is such a joy to have you by my side in this life, so I am always very grateful to God for letting you spend such a long time with me, from a child, to a teenager, and then to an adult. In this world, you have always been by my side, like a clear young god who never changes with the customs of the mountains. Thank you, both the one who loves to laugh and the one who loves silence, Lu Zhiang.

——2003? Fu Xiaosi

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Xiaosi, watching you stand up from the last row, in the envious eyes of people Walking towards the rostrum in a graceful manner, looking at your glorious appearance on the stage, I suddenly felt a little sad - you have left us who are still childish and ordinary, and run towards the long future alone, I don’t know why, but I suddenly thought of MARS for no reason, the god of darkness who led people to overcome tragedy. Don't laugh at my childish thoughts. I don't know why I am so sentimental at such a time when I should be happy. I think maybe under my increasingly mature appearance over the past two years, I have a childish heart after all. As childish and ridiculous as a little boy stuck in the summer of sixteen who can never grow up.

——1998? Lu Zhiang

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Meet, I’m so happy Miss you. Those days without you have all lost their color. I am like a lonely puppet. I have lost the other puppet who is inseparable from me, and I can no longer perform or move. Abandoned and gathering dust in the corner, desperate in loneliness, sad in despair, and then continue to miss you.

——1998? Beginning of Summer

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Yes, definitely.

I don’t want my best friend to still hate me until I leave China and go to another country. Moreover, Xiao Si and I had made an appointment to study together all the time. Therefore, I worked so hard to maintain my good grades throughout junior high school and high school, because I was afraid that one day I would be too far behind Xiao Si and not be admitted to his school, because you also know how good Xiao Si is. So now that I think about it, I should be the one who betrayed the promise and oath...

Lu Zhiang felt very sad when he looked at Fu Xiaosi walking alone in front. His lonely back looked even thinner in the wind. Lu Zhiang suddenly thought in a daze, after he left, would Xiao Si always live like this alone? Eat alone, travel alone, go to school alone, copy notes alone, ride a bicycle alone across the huge campus, run alone, walk up the tall steps of the library alone, cry alone, laugh alone, The man fell into a deep sleep. Because he had only one friend since he was a child, and his life was so simple that it was almost a blank slate. And what kind of shock would his departure be in Xiao Si's world? Is it as painless or itchy as a gentle breeze? Or is it like a tsunami, an earthquake, or an unprecedented glacier?

It’s separation. Friends who grew up together will live in two different countries after this moment. The sky above their heads is no longer the same color, and the hands on their wrists are also separated by time differences. When I miss you, I can say "I miss you very much" in my heart. That's all.

Seeing Lu Zhiang's busy and organized look, Fu Xiaosi felt a sense of sadness in his heart. Xiao Ang has really grown up and is no longer the ignorant big boy next to him. In front of him was Lu Zhiang's back, familiar, but slightly unfamiliar at this moment. In the hard core of time, the clear outlines and a figure that is taller than my own have faded. The medium-long hair is blacker than anything else. The sunlight flows at an oblique angle on the surface of the hair like fireflies. During the free time while waiting, I have the habit of tapping the ground lightly with the sole of my left foot. I like to put my hands in my pants pockets. He will give a slight nod of his head when he bumps into a passer-by to express his apology. These habits are like stars scattered in the universe, appearing frequently in one's life as long as the Milky Way. But these will no longer be seen soon.

As Lu Zhiang dragged his large and small luggage into the security check, the scene from half a year ago echoed in Fu Xiaosi's mind. At that time, Li Xia, herself, and Xiao Ang went to Shanghai together. Time flows so fast, and the whole world seems to still be stuck in the moment when Lu Zhiang and I were watching the rare falling snow in Shanghai on the window sill, but in the blink of an eye, it was as if the dream was suddenly blown apart by the strong wind, and the fragments of the balloon were torn into smaller pieces by the wind. The fragments were scattered into the sky. Lu Zhiang, this little doll who had been tied to him by a rope since he was a child, was about to go to Japan. Fu Xiaosi had to admit that the hand of fate can really change everything, and we lose to a life that cannot be changed. Complete defeat. Bloody and bloody. Bloody and bloody.

Xiao Si, I have to leave.

Well, take care.

——Cold tone. The sunlight that diffuses through the glass ceiling of the airport looks even colder.

I will send you emails every day when I arrive in Japan. You must remember to reply to my letters.

Oh, okay.

——It’s not that I don’t want to talk, but I’m afraid I’ll cry if I talk too much.

I heard that the buildings in Japan are so densely packed that it is impossible to see where the horizon is. There is a saying that says that people who cannot see the horizon will feel wandering and lonely. I was really scared to hear that.

It’s a bit too literary. nausea. Do you want to participate in a poetry reading?

——Actually, the original sentence was written by a Japanese novelist, or I showed it to you. You have forgotten it. That sentence means that if a person stands on the land where the horizon cannot be seen, then he will feel that there is a huge crowd of people but no friends, so he will feel extremely lonely.

No...I'm serious. If you leave Xiaosi, you will definitely feel lonely.

Really?

——Do you also know that you will be lonely?

Xiao Si... will you hate me?

Yes.

The word "hui" suddenly appeared, and at that moment Lu Zhiang saw Fu Xiaosi's extremely confident face. He thought frustratedly that Xiao Si would still be angry after all.

No matter how naughty I was in the past, no matter how much I skipped classes, got into fights, or struck up random conversations with girls, he never got angry. At most, he rolled his eyes at me or said to me affectionately, "Go to hell." But the current indifference and the touch of the glass made Lu Zhiang feel more uncomfortable than arguing with Xiao Si.

"The person who betrayed the oath and agreement...should be me..."

It should be me.

The moment before entering the security check, Lu Zhiang turned back to look at Fu Xiaosi, but Xiaosi only said "goodbye". At that moment, Lu Zhiang felt that the world was returning to darkness, with cold coming quickly, frost, glaciers, and the collapse of the unknown world.

"Goodbye." Lu Zhiang showed a beautiful smile, like the warmest sunshine in the world that flashed in an instant, illuminating the dark world. At that moment, Fu Xiaosi felt endless sadness in his heart, but his expression remained indifferent.

When the plane took off, Fu Xiaosi kept looking at the silver-white fuselage in the sky. He knew that there sat his best friend since childhood, and that this metal machine monster was about to take him to a distant country, across mountains and across water.

The huge roar of the plane seemed to fall directly from the sky and resounded on his scalp, and tears blurred his eyes.

The unspoken words are: I don’t hate you, but I can’t bear to leave you. Will you come back? Will you still remember that there was a playmate here from childhood who came to visit me?

Lu Zhiang’s seat was next to the wing, so he had been ringing in his ears since takeoff. Looking out the window, I saw the undulating white clouds and the vast blue sky. When you close your eyes, you can see the endless lake. The lake water that blooms in the eyes rises to an altitude of nine thousand meters.

Xiao Si, when I looked down from the plane window, I was thinking, am I really saying goodbye to the city under my feet like this? Say goodbye to the roads that I can find with my eyes closed, say goodbye to my bicycle that I smashed into a mess, say goodbye to Zeus who grew up with us, and say goodbye to you. At that moment, I vaguely felt an earthquake beneath my feet, and the whole city collapsed rapidly. I'm so scared. I'm so scared to stand in a place where I can't see the horizon and watch the sunset alone.

Is life, as you said on your sixteenth birthday, a movie that you can’t understand but make you cry to the point of being so moved?

Amidst the huge roar, I suddenly and inexplicably remembered the birthday song you sang to me when I was an adult at the age of eighteen. When I cut the cake, you just finished singing the last line of "Happy Birthday to You." At that time, you still had a dull expression, your eyes were blank and unfocused, but you had a face that looked particularly beautiful under the candlelight.

You said that you have finally become an adult and you must become stronger and stronger from now on.

I remember all these.

——1998? Lu Zhiang

When I returned home and lay on the bed, what played over and over in my mind was Lu Zhiang’s expression when he finally looked up at the sky and took a deep breath, and that sentence "If you leave Xiaosi, you will definitely feel lonely."

Fu Xiaosi kicked off his shoes and lay on his back on the bed. The ceiling seemed as far away as the sky. Fu Xiaosi felt that dust had been falling from the roof. Fine white dust fell on his face, eyelashes, body and feet, covering himself up bit by bit.

When I was three years old, I went to the same kindergarten with him. I have won the Big Red Flower for three consecutive years, learned a lot of Chinese characters, and can read comic books. And he is just a naughty boy who is often punished by his teacher. He likes to compete for candies and pinch girls' faces.

I went to primary school with him when I was seven years old. I have been the squad leader for six consecutive years. Ranked first in the school. At that time, I thought I was a little adult, so I pretended to be a grown-up and said sincerely to him who was obsessed with marbles and cards all day long, if you don’t study hard, you won’t be able to go to the same junior high school as me because I have the best grades. , you will not be able to get into the school I want to go to. His mouth opened wide when he heard it, and then he cried loudly, and the glass marbles in his hand scattered all over the floor.

When he was thirteen, he and he were admitted to the junior high school of Asakawa No. 1 Middle School. He worked hard to pass the exam, and his score just passed the admission line. He began to learn painting by himself. Although he still could not copy notes during class, he would take his notes and reorganize them carefully after school. He joined the sports team and entered the school's high jump team. Many girls began to have a crush on him, and he still couldn't get rid of the habit of teasing girls that he had developed in kindergarten.

When he was 16 years old, he and he went straight to the senior high school of Asakawa No. 1 Middle School, and their academic performance and art majors were on par with his own. In the second year of high school, I chose science. Contrary to myself, I continued to be the first in science in the school. After graduating from high school, I chose to study in Japan.

Looking out the window, even though my vision is blurred by tears, I can still see that when summer vacation comes again, the whole world is flooded with green. There are endless camphor trees in every corner of the city. But the two people who once looked at the camphor became one person. That person left, and the remaining person was still watching.

The summer of nineteen years old. That quiet full stop on the painting.

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Xiao Ang, the cherry blossoms in Tokyo are in full bloom now, right?

Many times when I see those skyscrapers, I really want to go to the rooftop. I always naively thought that if I stood high enough, I could see the far, far east. When I went to the Oriental Pearl Tower in Shanghai last month, in the sightseeing area on the highest floor, there was a sign on the glass exterior wall saying how many meters away from Tokyo Tower it was. I forgot how many meters it was, because at that time, I suddenly felt a little sour in my heart, and then my eyes became blurry.

I don’t miss you particularly, even though you have been gone for such a long time.

I also forgot to write to you and tell you that the thousand-year-old child who didn’t like to talk back then is now a young man. These are all in the days after you left. Slow changes occur. You have no way of knowing. You also have no way of knowing that the rainy season in Shanghai and the sandstorms in Beijing both disgust me.

You have no way of knowing how much I miss those lush camphor trees that cover the entire Asakawa River. But I think you have also forgotten those green and simple plants. In front of the cherry blossoms, which are as gorgeous as the haze in heaven, all plants will lose their color. In the photo you sent me last time, wasn't Tsukuru smiling brightly under the cherry blossom tree? I suddenly remembered the sentence we saw in the book before, the strong wind blows, the strong wind blows, the spring is brighter than the summer.

I was just wondering if you would be like me. One day you suddenly saw a similar figure on the street and couldn’t help but think of the annoying person who followed you around all day long four years ago. Where's the guy?

——2002? Fu Xiaosi

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Looking With Xiao Si in front of me, I actually had the illusion for a moment that time was quickly flowing back to the years under the Asakawa camphor. I stretched out my arms and hugged him. Four years later, although he has gained a bit of a manly and straight frame, he is still extremely thin. Amidst the noisy people around and the huge roar of planes taking off and landing, Xiaosi choked up and said, "I miss you so much" in my ears.

——2002? Lu Zhiang