When I miss you, I will look up and smile, you know?

Another Tomb-Sweeping Day. In Beijing, where it doesn't snow all winter, it suddenly snows. On a rainy and snowy night, I chatted with a friend on WeChat. Friends say this weather is suitable for nostalgia, lying in bed looking through old photo albums and missing relatives.

I smiled without a word, thinking, as expected, I am still young and don't know the taste of sadness. In a few years, you won't think so.

Once, every time I went to Tomb-Sweeping Day, I would think of my father, which would make my thoughts overflow and touch the old times in old photos. The warmer the memory, the more painful it is to return to reality, and the regret is profound and clear. So, for a long time, I didn't want to open the door of memory again. It's like, I'm outside the door and my father is at the door. I know he is fine, and I want him to know that I am also fine. Because, I know very well that when a daughter faces her father, there is nothing to pretend.

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Rene Liu sang "Do You Know", which is also the ending song of the movie "world without thieves", while Sang Song.

"Whether the clouds that day were expected,

That's why the footsteps are light,

In order not to disturb our time,

Because there are only a few.

The wind blows white clouds,

Where have you been,

When I miss you,

I looked up and smiled,

Do you know that?/You know what? "

A netizen left a message under the song that her husband died unexpectedly 20 years ago. In these years, she lived alone, and whenever she thought of her husband, she burst into tears and could not get rid of her sadness for many years. She liked listening to this song until one day, she remembered her husband again, and she smiled at the sky. She knew that she had finally let go. Since then, she changed the screen name to "Smile".

How to endure when you are strong, and have no complaints when you are deep. The departure of loved ones is like a wound in my heart. After the wound heals, there are still scars, and it still hurts when touched. It is not easy to say "let go". ?

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In the college entrance examination, I chose to feel the life track of my father when he was young, because I missed him. My father has been studying in Beijing for five years, so I am determined to go to Beijing to study and feel the places my father has walked and the scenery I have seen, as if there is still my father's breath in this city.

Photographic artist Zeng Yicheng once wrote an article about his father's departure, which was touching. More than ten years ago, Zeng Yicheng published his work "We Never Travel Hand in Hand". When he received the publishing contract, it was also the day when his father died. When he wanted to hold a solo film exhibition abroad, he took his father to travel abroad, but he never had a chance to go.

Before his father left, he stayed by his father's side, trying to keep his image with the camera, but fearing that the shutter would disturb him, he recorded his father's breathing with MP3.

After his father died, Zeng Yicheng put a card with his father's breathing sound in the camera. Accompanied by his father's breathing, he traveled to many countries and cities, and saved his eyesight through his father's breathing.

Before his father died, he had no time to accompany him to travel abroad, but after his father left, he always accompanied him in another way, seeing what he saw and feeling his feelings.

Until one day, he accidentally gave this card to a friend. My friend said there were files in it. Save or not, he remembered that it was his father's breathing. Tell his friend to delete it. It doesn't matter.

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How to face life and death is also a kind of outlook on life. Some people choose to let go, while others choose to be persistent. When you let go, you can see the meaning of life instead of clinging to losing it.

This year, my father has been gone for 25 years. On that snowy night in front of Tomb-Sweeping Day, I thought of my father. If you were still there, spring would be fine. Look at that colorful tree, a peach blossom tree, and the red wall and blue tiles of Haitang.

Sometimes, we have to face some parting. Some people we love, people who love us, have left our lives. I want to believe that they still exist in a certain space. When we miss them, we will look up and smile and they will know.