Life is not just the present, but also the distance.

Life is not just the present, but also poetry and distance. What a beautiful sentence, how many people put everything in front of them, carry backpacks, travel and go to a strange city because of this sentence. The seemingly literary behavior is actually an escape from reality. How many people really fly away for spiritual comfort, and how many people really just follow their inner yearning? Lu Xun said: A true warrior dares to face the bleak life and the dripping blood. Many times, we have escaped the immediate troubles, but when we go to another place, we will have the same troubles.

My best friend sent me a message saying: Xiaoxiao went to Hengdian. My first reaction was to play. My best friend said she quit her job and went to Hengdian. She went to pursue inner stability and dreams. I haven't spoken for a long time because I don't know what to say. I remember wanting to go to Hengdian at first, but after so many years, I am still in Wuhan.

"Smile, it's really a dare to say dare to go girl, much better than you. Look at you, you dare not do what you like for so many years. Xiaoxiao just complained that the job was not suitable for her and immediately resigned. "

"When did this happen? Why don't I know? "

"Already gone. We left when we were still internship. "

"............"

"Laughing is beautiful and smart. You said that if she really becomes a star, we can still sign it, don't you think? "

"Stars are not something that ordinary people can do, either extremely beautiful, with a background or with real skills. Even my male god Bo Huang has endured it for so many years. The best I can do is to meet a girl, increase my experience and then come back. That's enough. Really grab jobs with people born in other classes? "

"I can't believe it. Didn't you go to Hengdian for red? "

"When I was studying, I wanted to go to Hengdian for the sake of red. I think being an actor is very fast. But now we are not studying. We have already worked, so we should face the reality. Before Xiaoxiao, the job pay was not low, even if she had to stay up late occasionally, she couldn't stand it. Being an actress is tiring and often stays up late. Do you think she can stand it? Even if it is fun, is it really a cause to struggle? "

"In fact, I also know that this is just an illusion. But people have at least worked hard for their dreams. What about you? "

I didn't speak, and my best friend will never know. One day three years ago, I was as naive as a smile and wanted to pack my bags and live in Shanghai. At this time, I met a person who was very annoying and grateful in my life;

I like writing. Even after work, I often write online to earn some pocket money. I told myself that if I earned 10,000 yuan in writing, I would quit my job and go to Shanghai.

On that day, I wrote an article for an official WeChat account and hired three people. The person in charge only gave me money for one article. I asked him, is there a mistake? He said there was nothing wrong. I sent him the list of articles, and he said impatiently, "Do you think I will put your articles on it because there is not enough time? I don't even want to pay you a penny. Look at what you wrote. You still want to go to Shanghai at this level? You can't even mix well with ordinary small counties. " He went too far, and what he said was ugly, but I was powerless to refute it, because I knew he was telling the truth. Every article I wrote was rejected by major newspapers and platforms, and I am not reconciled. Even though I was rejected many times, I continued to contribute. Until I met him, he didn't have many fans on the official WeChat account, and the threshold was relatively low. He accepted every article I was rejected by others. Every time I contribute to his platform, it is basically a quantity, because I know that the threshold is low.

After that day, I began to look at myself, no longer daydreaming, and no longer wanted to go to Shanghai. In fact, in today's developed Internet, I write everywhere. I no longer contribute on his official WeChat account, but only on the big platform. Although I am still rejected, I will not continue to contribute every time I am rejected. I will put down my article, have a good look and revise it. Although I was still rejected, looking back at my article, I am still very happy because I have made progress.

During the National Day, several of our Wuhan classmates met and got together. My best friend told me that Xiaoxiao found a rich boyfriend in Hengdian, bought her a suite in Wuhan and opened a shop for her. Now she is the boss's wife. You see, is there anything in life that dares to fight? Like you, I can only be a part-time worker in my life. I smiled and said nothing. People are different, there is no way. Smiling is beautiful, and living well is right. I am a Cinderella without beauty, so I can only work harder.

During the dinner, Xiaoxiao was really beautiful. She drove four times and had a driver. I heard from my girlfriend that this car is very expensive. The students all came forward to praise us. Originally, we were going to find a small shop to eat, and said with a smile that his boyfriend arranged us in Prince Kanglong, a high-end hotel, and I never went in once. Xiaoxiao's boyfriend was there at dinner. Her boyfriend looks a little old, and I always think Xiaoxiao's breasts are bigger than before. I told my best friend about it, and my best friend said that I was horny and always stared at other people's breasts (I am a woman). I haven't seen you for three years, but I always feel that there is something wrong with my smile and my face looks strange. At dinner that day, Xiaoxiao was spoiled as a princess and envied others.

A few days later, Xiaoxiao asked me to have dinner with my best friend. I don't know why I always stare at Xiaoxiao's chest. It always feels weird. My good friend reminded me several times that people have changed since I last saw them for several years. Everyone has a boyfriend, big breasts, which is normal. But I just whisper in my mind, can the difference between the hill and Mount Tai be changed overnight? After dinner, I went to KTV to sing as usual. I answered a phone call in the middle of laughing. After I came back, I started drinking. I drank too much and began to cry.

"Small three, you have been staring at my chest, I know what you want to ask? Yes-I have breast implants. "

"Look at you …" My best friend kicked me.

"Smile, I'm sorry, I ..."

"You don't have to say sorry. I came to this step step by step and has nothing to do with anyone. "

"Didn't you go to Hengdian? We all thought you would be a big star. I didn't expect you to have such a rich boyfriend. It's actually quite good. My mother often tells me that it is better for a girl to marry well than to do well. Even if you are not a big star, at least you have a boyfriend who loves you. Look at me, single dog who has nothing, so it's me who should cry and me who should envy and hate. "

"Hengdian? Big star? Do you think Hengdian is so easy to mix? Do you know how many people there are in Hengdian? Do you know that Hengdian has to queue up to find a relationship even if it wants to do an ordinary group performance? "

"Smile, you don't cry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I'm curious, I have no other meaning. Don't cry. When you cry, my heart is in chaos. "

"Do you know who called just now? It was his wife who called. I know he has a wife, but he told me that he would divorce her. I went for breast augmentation and plastic surgery for him, but he never thought about divorcing his wife. "

"Meet this love rat, forget it, at least you have a house and a shop, you can start over. You will find something better. " Girlfriend hugged her and said;

"Fakes are fake." When I mentioned this, Xiaoxiao seemed to cry even more sadly, and the makeup on her face was spent. "False, all false, the house is not written in my name. I just found out today, let alone the store. He told me on the phone just now that he would give me 200 thousand as compensation. He wants to break up with me, I have nothing. "

"Smile, how did this happen?" My best friend doesn't know how to comfort me and keeps winking at me. But I don't want to comfort, who is not difficult to work outside alone? Who doesn't suffer? It's all the same, but no matter how hard and tired you are, you must have the most basic moral bottom line.

"I went to Hengdian alone, suffered a lot, and soon spent all my money. Before I met him, he was an investor in a play. He said that I was very talented and would treat me as the heroine. But he takes me out to socialize, sing and dance every day, and never mentions filming again. So we were together, and later I learned that he had a wife. I thought about leaving him, but I can't live without him. I can do nothing but sing, dance and drink all these years. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to go. I can only stay with him. I have no choice. I have no choice. He said he would love me all his life and never leave me. "

After I left Xiaoxiao, I didn't speak for several days, which gave me a great impact. At first, Xiaoxiao chose to be an actor in Hengdian because she couldn't eat bitterness. Later, because she couldn't eat bitterness, she became someone else's mistress. She said she had no choice, but she could. Will people starve to death in this society? You won't starve to death even if you go to a restaurant to wash dishes. How can you have no choice? Sometimes the life in front of me is bitter, tired, difficult, humbled and even crazy, but I don't have the courage to face the hardships and have the ability to tide over the difficulties. I can only go where I want to go, even in the frontier.