My path, only I can walk it

Looking through the photos in QQ Zone, looking at my former self in the photos, I smiled bitterly, with sadness. Time flies so fast. Thinking about myself now, I suddenly feel like a failure. Friends around me, one after another, are buying cars, buying houses, and getting married. It has been 5 years since I graduated, and I have accomplished nothing. I still haven’t found my true path. Where is my path? How should I go next?

The slogans that I was once proud of were "I am still young," "I am in charge of my youth," and "I want to do something big." They were full of passion. Now that I think about it, it's just a slogan to deceive myself and others, just to find a high-sounding excuse for my wasting and confusion. Do you know what you want? In the face of reality, do you have the ability to make the decision?

Until now, I haven't found what I really want. In other words, I have a vague idea in my heart, but I am unable to start due to reality. Although confused, he never gave up and kept going back and forth on the road of life. Working hard, getting married, having children, and being together for the rest of my life is not the path I want to take. I can be an ordinary person, but I cannot live an ordinary life. Some people and some roads are difficult, but they must be walked because this is their road. If he gives up, he will be passerby A, passerby B, a copy of others, not him.

I graduated in July 2015 and came to Shenzhen in early 2016, because this is a world for young people, full of opportunities and challenges, and here is the life I want to pursue. On May 1, 2016, my mother fell ill, so she resigned and returned to her hometown to take care of her.

In early 2017, Shenzhen, I came back. But I no longer had the excitement I had when I just graduated, and I no longer had the original ambition. I was very calm inside and just wanted to find a job and support myself. It was hard to find a job at that time because I had no work experience and the advantages of fresh graduates were gone. I remember one night, after finishing my interview, I was sitting at the bus stop waiting for the bus. He lowered his head and stared blankly at the floor, feeling lost and confused. Cars were coming and going, speeding past, and the piercing sound of the horns seemed to be roaring, complaining to the sky about injustice and venting their dissatisfaction. Occasionally I look up and look at the crossroads ahead. Is my life also stuck at a crossroads? Stuck, which direction should I go? Which way is right is the way that belongs to me. I don't know, I really don't know. At that time, I lost my arrogance, vigor, and self-confidence. I was very plain and ordinary, as if everything was taken for granted. This is reality.

It has been 5 years since I graduated. I have changed several jobs during this period, and now my work is finally improving. Now that my life is stable, it’s time to think about my own path. After all, work is only a small part of my life. If I don't think about it anymore, I'm afraid it will be too late. One day my mind will stop thinking and my life will be over.

I like a life with variables, otherwise it would be boring to see the end of life at a glance. Although I am very mediocre now and want nothing, I am glad that my mind has never given up thinking and I have never stopped looking for my own true path. There are still opportunities and turning points in my life.

The road in life is long and difficult. You may be alone, or you may be two people, and you will meet many people and many things along the way, including joys and sorrows, ups and downs, joys and sorrows. Most people get tired and annoyed while walking and can't hold on any longer. Then they give up on their own path, let nature take its course, and directly follow the path that others have walked.

Only I can walk my way. As long as I keep going, that will be my true path. I know that there are countless crossroads in my life, and there are definitely many crossroads where I will go wrong. But so what, as long as my mind keeps thinking and never stops searching, at the final crossroads, I firmly believe that I will be able to go right, find my true path, and reach the end.