On New Year's Day, I went to my uncle's house to drink and write a composition.

Hello, everyone, I used to be a sunset. I am an alcoholic, and I am glad to share my past drinking experience with you. First of all, I want to thank the Bar Association and all its members for their help. I don't think I'll share it with you here at the moment, but I'll keep living a life that has lasted for more than 20 years.

Let me start with my story about drunkards. I am 38 years old and 1975 was born in a rural family in Chifeng City, Inner Mongolia Autonomous Region. Although my family was short of materials and poor in economy at that time, in my memory, my childhood was full of laughter. My father is the only junior in our village. 1982 Graduated from Mathematics Department of Liaoning University and assigned to work in Chifeng Electric Power Bureau. Since my father worked, the family's economic situation has also improved. After his father worked for two years, that is, 1984, in order to get us out of the harsh rural environment, his father went to Wudongqi, Ximeng, Inner Mongolia Autonomous Region to support frontier education, and the purpose of supporting the frontier was to solve me.

Dongwu Banner belongs to the Mongolian border, and the climate is particularly cold. People here are very hospitable and can drink. It was here that I experienced my first drunkenness. I remember that I was fifteen years old and went to junior high school. I attended a classmate party and drank white wine. I don't know how much I drank. I couldn't go home that night after I got drunk. I rode home the next day and lay at home for three days. I got drunk for the first time

How time flies! Father's six-year sideline is coming to an end, that is, 1990. That year, when I was in the third grade, a new classmate, Xia Hong, transferred to our class. She was my first love and now she is my wife. 1September, 990, I returned to my hometown Chifeng with infinite attachment to Xia Hong and my second hometown. My mother got a job as she wished, and I went to a school to continue my high school.

In high school, I met an inspiring drinking buddy. I don't know if this name is right. Our two families study in the same class upstairs and downstairs. We don't study together, but learn to smoke and drink together. When we go to school in the afternoon, we will take an empty bottle, play half a bottle of loose wine in the shop with the change cheated by our family, go to the park not far from the school, drink up the wine and then go to school. This kind of thing often happens. Sometimes, there is still some leftover white wine in my desk. My father also knew something about these things, and probably didn't think how serious it would be in the future, so he didn't care too much about me.

Because my grades have not been very good, in 1992, that is, the year when I graduated from high school, my father asked me to take the entrance examination of Dalian Electric Power School within the electric power system, and I was accepted. At the same time, my brother was admitted to northeast china institute of electric power with excellent results in the college entrance examination this year, which brought great pressure to his family. I remember that my monthly living expenses were 65438+.

If the high school stage is the enlightenment of my drinking, then two and a half years in Dalian is the stage when drunkards grow up in my body at an accelerated pace.

When I left home for the first time, the only thing that could alleviate my homesickness was wine. My yearning for Xia Hong also reminded me of wine. I remember I wrote in a letter to Xia Hong at that time, once upon a time, I knew your name was Xia Hong, so I called myself the sunset. When I miss you, I go to the seaside alone, looking at the beautiful scenery in the distance and getting drunk.

In fact, there were many reasons for drinking at that time, such as missing hometown, missing friends, being happy, being sad and so on. There are also many classmates who can drink together. The best one is my fellow countryman, the brother who sleeps in my upper bunk, and the brother who once gave me a cigarette. We often sing Zheng Zhihua's songs about sailors who never tire of singing, letting the wind blow, men like me and so on. Flooding our hearts with bitter wine. We have been through a lot together. I remember once, because there was no money to cook, the two of us.

I always drink more when we drink together. Now that I think about it, it may be because he is enjoying the process and I am pursuing the result.

In this way, I spent two and a half years in a daze all day Dalian, a beautiful city, did not bring me some good memories because of my drunkenness. At that time, I was always drunk, full of nonsense and chaos. What's more frightening is that I will lose my memory after drinking. When I woke up the next day, I knew nothing about what I said or did when I was drunk. Once, after I was drunk, my friend ignored me for several days. I still don't know what I did or said. Because at that time I really didn't have the courage to face the fact that I was drunk. I didn't face it soberly, but chose to escape and keep those drunken experiences in my heart.

Studying in a different place will soon be over. Hearing the news of qualified graduation, our whole dormitory was boiling, and the students cheered. I also joined this team. We tore up all the books, and shredded pieces of paper covered the corridor of the dormitory. Students are cheering for graduation, cheering for coming to work, and I may be cheering for leaving this difficult life. I thought the new environment would bring me new hope, but later I learned that this drunkard would not let me go easily, at least not then.

When I got home, my father said to me, "After studying for three years, you didn't bring back any books. I really don't know what you have learned? " In fact, only I know what I have learned. After graduation, the three of us should have been assigned to work in the power plant. My father tried his best to transfer us to the electric power bureau through relations.

When I first joined the work, I worked hard, learned technology from my master with an open mind, and used my spare time to learn some useful theoretical knowledge, various rules, computer knowledge and so on. At work, my achievements have also been recognized by teachers and leaders. But these were quickly covered up by his fatal shortcomings. At that time, he was famous for drinking at work, and also formed the habit of drinking at the second meal. But at that time, it was normal to just drink at work and with friends and classmates, compared with the later development of alcoholism.

At that time, I not only didn't realize the influence of alcoholism on myself, but sometimes I was proud of it, because the students in the TV school I worked with didn't drink much. We work in a team. After each construction, I thought I could have a few drinks with the master, but he couldn't, thinking I was much better than him. Now this idea is really wrong.

Young people ride motorcycles in fashion. My father bought me one to satisfy my psychological vanity when my family was not rich. At that time, the management of drunk driving in our area was not too strict. Once, after drinking at work, I rode my motorcycle home drunk. Because I drank too much, alcohol quickly anesthetized my brain, and later I was caught by * * at a traffic post. As the saying goes, speak the truth after drinking. * * Seeing that I was drunk, you wanted to detain me. This just woke up and ran away while * * was not paying attention. At that time, I remember riding a motorcycle halfway and scratching a cyclist, but I didn't fall. I don't remember how I rode to that traffic post. Later, I felt that the intersection was not the only way for me to go home. For years, I couldn't figure out why I came out of there. I thought maybe then.