A shop

My eldest uncle, my eldest father and my second father, my eldest aunt and my aunt, and my uncle Baobao all opened shops in Chengdu. Their children grew up and started working in this business one after another, including their cousins, eldest brother, second brother, and me.

Unconsciously, I have been running the shop for the fourth year.

Exactly four years ago, I had my first taste of being a housewife. The life of raising a child by myself made my mentality distorted. I couldn’t tell whether it was depression or irritability. In short, I would have sex every three days. Find something wrong with Du Jiangshan and start a fight. Jiang Shan couldn't stand it anymore and said that I should really find something to do.

At this time, a shop came to the door. I clearly remember that on a lazy sunny afternoon, I was sitting on the back of Jiangshan’s battery car and said to the guy, “The risk is not big, just do it. The big deal is just making less money, let alone making money, even if you lose a little bit a day, As long as I have something to do, I will be happy.”

In September of the same year, I became the boss’s wife.

The shop was taken over from an old couple. Later I called them Uncle Liu and Mrs. Yang. They said that they were too old to move a lot of goods, and they were tired after all these years.

After all, it is the world of young people. After three times, five times and two times, the old containers have been eliminated, replaced with a batch of new ones, filled with goods, set up a bed behind the shelves, and have a dream. It started.

Within half a month, I felt it was inconvenient. The shop was adjacent to a non-motorized lane, which meant that there was a risk of being hit by a battery car whenever I raised my foot. It is unlikely that adults will be in such danger. The bad thing is that I still have a "little person". It just so happens that you are just one and a half years old, which is the age when you are running around and not understanding anything. What should you do?

Don’t worry, I have a mother-in-law.

Before this, I only saw my mother-in-law for less than fifty days, including forty days during the confinement period. Although she was not very satisfied during the confinement period, that was a thing of the past after all.

My mother-in-law works outside the home, and her money will be deducted if she quits her job. She probably thinks that the safety of my children is not a serious issue, so she shortened the time we spent with her from half a year to three months.

If we get along well, there will be countless Marchs after March. It was really good at first. My mother-in-law and I slept on a bed less than one meter apart for more than half a month. Later, one bed turned into two beds, and one room turned into two rooms. Sadly, the days when we were tired of looking at each other still came. Thanks to my mother-in-law being so narrow-minded, we both felt that the following days were torturous, and our hearts were full of pain. Looking forward to the arrival of the New Year, they will fly away after the New Year, and they will forget each other.

The issues of safety, diet and health were solved in another way - I sent him to kindergarten in advance. The simple single room rented to my mother-in-law was also rented out, and the family of three huddled in the shop again. During this time, I read a lot and took a breath of quite comfortable air.

But the fatigue caused by the kindergarten being too far away wore me down day by day. I was worried about the business being closed and the time wasted. Of course, I would never ask my mother-in-law to help me at this time. There are elderly people to take care of and cannot leave. I simply lived the life of a willful landlady, and the Buddhist system opened the door.

I found that I closed the door more and more times, when my child was sick, my child’s parent-teacher conference, my child’s one-day parent-child activity trip... my aunt’s birthday, my second father’s daughter’s marriage, my uncle’s grandson’s full moon wine... Thanks to my self-anaesthesia day after day, "Well, you can't make all the money." "Well, a child only grows up once." "Well, people can't live without human touch." I just muddle along and let the years go by again. Go for a year.

During the Chinese New Year, my mother-in-law said: I have to take care of your grandpa, and your dad has to help my eldest sister. Only you have to work hard for another year.

Year after year.

Every time when nothing happens, Jiangshan and I are still in love. There is a shop to take care of my boundless sorrows, and I am content. But as soon as I encountered the above problems that required closing the door, I complained in my heart to Jiangshan's parents. Sometimes I would spend the whole day thinking about things in the shop, and I would be stunned. When Jiangshan came back from get off work, we would start a fight. Jiang Shan asked me what I wanted, and I said let your parents help us. He said that people don't have that obligation. Besides, it's not like his mother didn't come, it was me who couldn't handle it (relationship).

The strong melon is not sweet, so I can only continue to guard my shop. Whether the store's business is good or not, it's okay to support me, but I still want it to support my son. In order to open the store earlier, I moved my son to a nearby kindergarten, and the tuition was twice as expensive.

I really opened the door early for two days. As time went by, I saw that opening the door early had little effect, so I started living like a Buddhist again.

If a mother is lazy at heart, even if you open the kindergarten downstairs in her community, she will have a reason to be late. If a boss doesn't love making money from the bottom of her heart, and a customer knocks on her door, she will still say, "You can come later, I haven't gotten up yet."

That's the kind of person I am. My energy was gone, my body was broken down, I had three colds, and I was covered in hives. After thinking about it, I felt that the humid environment was the reason, and I couldn't move people around, so I opened the shop instead. Change the layout, move the refrigerator, change the position of the bed, and install a ceiling. It looks completely new again, and it's a different mood.

Until now, although Jiangshan and I have not shared the same joys and sorrows, we can still be regarded as inseparable.

It’s another New Year. The community wants to compete for excellence and spray paint all the shops on the street. The smell of the paint completely kills me. I couldn't bear it. I was afraid that I would get cancer, and I was afraid that Qianqian would also get cancer, so I took Qianqian back to my parents' home every day, leaving Jiangshan alone.

During the New Year, my father-in-law said: Although I no longer take care of your grandfather, your mother and you can't get along. If you ask her to go to Guangdong with me, you will have to work hard for another year.

The distance in the past few years has created great beauty. Although I complain about them when something happens, and I have to argue for them thousands of miles away, but when we meet during the New Year, I immediately feel that they are not easy either. . In recent years, it has helped more or less. So when I see their backs for a moment or two, I really feel that they are great, even though they always use sweet words to coax me.

They went out again. They came back within a few days, because grandpa, who had just lost his mother-in-law's care, no longer needed their care. This time the eldest sister and the second sister came back together. I found that the eldest sister was gentle and approachable, and the second sister was kind and elegant. My mother-in-law is also kind to me and thinks of me in everything. My mother-in-law and I have a heart-to-heart talk again. She said that grandpa still feels like a family, but without grandpa, home feels like no more home.

They soon went out again, and I returned to my shop. Although I am in this shop every day, it may not be able to keep me at night.

I often have a fever. When there is something wrong with the body, it's like the eyes are blind. You can't see anything but yourself suffering. He happened to be sick too and suffered with me. I started to blame Jiangshan’s parents again. Why go out!

The problem is raised again and again because it has never been properly resolved. Let’s make a fuss!

On a sunny morning, relying on the close relationship I have accumulated with my eldest sister over the past few years, I happily approached her and wanted to discuss with her the stay of my parents-in-law next year. I never imagined that the whole year of quarreling, separation, madness, determination, giving up, and despair would start from this conversation.

I am also stupid, thinking that as a family we can talk about anything, we can do whatever we want regardless of method, we can do as we please, and we can exchange our sincerity for our sincerity. I said, "When I come back next year, even if we are noisy, we are still a family after all."

I don't know if my sincerity has been replaced, but I must have regained my true energy. The eldest sister said, "I will just talk to them." Not a family anymore?" He also said, "Now that you think of him as your family, why didn't you think about it when he worked in such a dangerous place like a coal mine?" Finally, he said, "You have already discussed it, so what do you want to say to me?"

I had to say I would never mention it again. Jiang Shan came back and scolded me, saying that I was an expert in causing trouble.

Those days were sad every day. When Jiang Shan came back to the shop after get off work, he saw me with a straight face and said that I was showing off. His short-sighted eyes couldn't see the tears in my eyes. One day, I had a big quarrel with Jiangshan over a trivial matter. I said "why" and other angry words, which made Du Jiangshan very angry. He grabbed my phone, I threw his phone, and he also threw mine. I wanted to kill him so I pushed him, but couldn't push him. He gave me a gentle push and pushed me a long way. I cried and fussed on the shop floor and picked up Du Jiangshan's cell phone that had not been broken (mine was smashed to pieces) and called my parents-in-law. "You guys come back by the fastest plane. I want to divorce Du Jiangshan." Du Jiangshan grabbed the phone like crazy and yelled that I was crazy and crazy. My sister's call came in just before I threw the phone, so my parents knew everything. My younger sister and younger siblings hurried to the shop and took Xuan Xian away. Dad scolded me in his shop, and mom scolded dad.

Later on, we quarreled every day and cried many times. Jiang and Shan tried to coax me, but they couldn’t coax me well. A little thing exploded again.

We decided not to keep the shop, and it was all the shop’s fault.

But I can’t think of it, the shop obviously makes more money than them, and it’s easier than them. The most important thing is that his parents are sick, why would he rather risk his life outside than come back? My best friend said that you treat other people’s parents too much as a family. Many people gnashed their teeth when mentioning their parents-in-law, wishing they would die far away. I also gritted my teeth, but I was the angry type.

So I got angry and went to my father-in-law and sent a long text, accusing them of not understanding his son. My father-in-law was also a little angry with me because I had done something stupid before. Others complained that my mother-in-law’s family blocked everyone, and the worst thing I could do was to block my husband’s family. It would be better for me to block everyone and only open to my mother-in-law’s family. They must have felt that I was disgracing them by publicizing my inner grievances, so this time, my father-in-law pointed out that I had never endured hardship and didn’t know how the couples in the factory outside could live a stable life in a difficult environment. I did the opposite. Accusing this man who has endured hardship all his life that he no longer knows how to endure hardship, and does not know that his son is suffering. The more I talked, the angrier I became, and I actually said, "If I divorce your son, you won't be able to get a house, a shop, or a grandchild."

My father-in-law called me and asked me what I wanted. I am a person who dares to tell the truth, "I want both people and money." The father-in-law probably felt that his daughter-in-law's head had been kicked by a donkey, so he didn't say much and hung up the phone with a bang.

A few days later, the second sister Jiangshan found me. A quarrel broke out within a few words.

She said: "The person I'm sorry for is Du Jiangshan, not my parents. Why do you have to arrange for my parents to stay and go?"

I really wanted to laugh when I saw it. She is dead. She is the one who complains to me the most about her mother-in-law and daughter-in-law. I have not forgotten who was jumping up and down not long ago and threatening her that she would divorce her son if her mother-in-law did not come to raise children for her. She also said some She would only return to her hometown after her father-in-law died. Such nonsense. I didn't want to pay any attention to her, or I would just argue if I wanted to.

So I said, "I am the daughter-in-law they married upright."

The good girl who vowed to stand up for her parents said: "You still know that you She’s the daughter-in-law, I thought she was marrying an ancestor.”

My good aunt succeeded in making my scalp numb with anger and my whole head was buzzing.

I asked her what good would it do to her if I got divorced. She said that there would be no good and no harm. There would be another one without me. She also said that the money her parents give her is usually given to her son, right? It was given to me, and it just poked wherever it hurt. I poked her a few times, and I didn’t know whether it hurt or not. I swore that I would never care about this bad thing for the rest of my life.

I sat in the shop and Baidu prepared the divorce agreement. The house and son were all mine. When Jiang Shan came back from get off work, I threw it in front of him. Heartbroken.

Unexpectedly, when I returned to my parents' home, my sister saw the chat history, and my sister showed it to my mother. My mother scolded Du Jiangshan for the first time after marriage.

Jiangshan finally came to coax me again, but I was like a pouring flood, roaring loudly: "I don't want anything from the house, shop, son, as long as I stay away from your house and the whole family, they are all crazy, Bandits, lunatics, and impersonal robbers. Devils. "

Jiang Shan may be afraid that I will commit suicide. I would reveal my tendency to depression to him from time to time, but the man would put down his phone and close the shop. It always ends the same, a big fight and then me holding him and crying.

Later, I became more and more impatient with this shop, but Jiang Shan kept insisting. He was afraid that I would not be able to use the toilet, and even installed a simple toilet in the back, but I still refused to stay in the shop. , and we discussed installing an anti-theft system, so we might as well go home!

But my home is far away and the winter is cold. I still rarely go back to my hometown. After all, I still don’t worry about the belongings in the shop. My home, no matter where I go, is full of wind and rain, but school has resumed at ten o'clock, and the opening time of my shop is even later.

As the Chinese New Year is approaching, I finally want to be more generous and ask the second sister Jiangshan if she is still alive and how she has been during the six months without contact with her. He also told her that if she didn't reconcile during the Chinese New Year, she would have no chance.

She is like a hedgehog, her words are thorny, and she doesn’t want to get back together with me. In fact, she actually told her not to care about my mother-in-law whenever she talked about it.

An aunt like her is either suitable for scolding her until the end of her life, or else she is suitable for scolding her for the rest of her life. Spring has come recently, the snowflakes are slowly melting, and I can often hear her complaining about everything around her. She is also waiting to see what happens next with my mother-in-law, and she plans to be entangled with her like this for the rest of her life. Sometimes I have the idea of ??not making steamed buns to fight for my reputation, telling myself that I must have a good relationship with my mother-in-law, but that is too difficult, I know.

I brought my parents-in-law to my side at the cost of killing one thousand enemies and losing eight hundred to myself. They finally came. On the day they arrived, my heart was beating wildly and I kept pacing the room. , I don’t have the confidence to get along well with them, but I think I have grown up and understand their difficulties. I only have a sincere heart and will always treat them as family.

It is precisely this epidemic that has allowed me to offset a little bit of my regrets about being trapped in a cocoon. I don’t know when the kindergarten will start, and I can’t stay in the shop for a long time. At this time, my parents-in-law are here, at least to protect me from the rear. flatter.

Finally relied on them again. Admit my own incompetence, admit that I can't do it on my own, admit that I need their help, I admit it all.

During these years of running the shop, I understood the term "people's hearts are like snakes swallowing elephants". At first, I just pointed at the shop to pass the time, regardless of profit or loss. Later, I hoped to earn more and support myself. It is best to still be able to support myself. Son, but I don’t have the ability or energy to manage it, so I always blame my parents for my plans.

I still thought that my father-in-law’s illness was in danger of becoming a disease at any time, and I wanted to try to win more memories between father and son for Jiangshan, but who would believe this. Too lazy to mention it.

In fact, I am already over five years old, and I have really managed to keep the shop and take care of others by myself. They are all wondering why they want to take the parents-in-law back when the children are older. To be honest, I am also wondering. ——It feels like everything has been said, but it feels like nothing has been expressed.