Our high school here requires accommodation, and I don’t want to live in it, but I like to read, have average grades, take notes, and do homework, but due to the reasons for accommodation,

Why do you feel like dying when I ask you to stay overnight? Are you afraid of wool when you live there? You are like this for such a small problem. When you go out to work and your boss scolds you, are you going to jump off the building? You should stick to what you like and give up if there is any small problem. It seems that you don't like it that much, just say it.