To my late husband, Dr. Lin Liangjie: I will always be beautiful for you.

/Doctors of the Healthy World Group You have been away for more than 0/00 days, but I still can't help looking for you. After all, this has been a habit for more than ten thousand days. How can I quit in a short time? But in fact, you don't seem to have gone anywhere, because you are everywhere at home, and your photos and certificates are still there. Every morning, I will still gently shout to you: "get up!" When eating, my brother Hao Zhen will also call, "Dad, have a meal! "Every day of our mother and son still starts from your side. Recently, I have often seen the little things we used to get along with. People often ask me, "What impression did Dr. Lin leave on you at that time? Let me think about it. At that time, you were informal and sloppy, and you had kidney dialysis for three years. Compared with other people around me, you little R (resident) have the most empty pocket, the most ordinary appearance and the most ordinary family background. But with you, I am very comfortable. I don't have to pretend to eat less in front of you, and eat less to keep elegant. I am seven or eight centimeters taller than you, but you never care, and you won't forbid me to wear my favorite high heels; Every time you see me, people are still seven or eight feet apart, and my hands are eager to hold me. I am so confident that I am taller than all the men I know. You always make me feel so important and beautiful. Do you still remember those years when you transferred to Kaohsiung Chang Gung Memorial Hall? We live in a dormitory near the hospital, and our younger brother Hongzhen has been born. At that time, your early diagnosis often saw seven or eight in the evening, and there was no time to eat in the middle; As long as you feel a little depressed, I'll call you in the consulting room with Hongzhen. As soon as you saw our mother and son, you immediately cheered up and continued to show it to the patient patiently and carefully. You said I could calm your mood. Later, you went on TV, earnestly preached food safety, gained public awareness and gained social trust. A friend joked: "Dr. Lin came out to replace the voters, but Jenny can't wear miniskirts and shorts any more, or the votes of moralists may run away." "But you said with a smile," I just like her, and I'd rather not vote! We are the two most suitable people in the world. Maybe we are not perfect together, but we are lucky to find each other. Choose again, and I will still choose you. However, having you for more than 10 thousand days is really too short. One day, my brother hugged me and said, "Mom, there is a big stone in my heart. Only when I hug you can I move it a little. " Actually, I'm not? How hard I tried to let go of your hand when you left. I have been trained in nursing, and I know the meaning of those medical instrument data. If I continue to hold you, it will only make you hard and won't let us get you back. But in order to appease the children who can't accept the loss of their father immediately, I accepted the hospital to install Yeke membrane for you. Seeing too much infusion and water, your whole body is swollen, and the face lying in bed is not my favorite one, which hurts. Finally, I told myself that you have been abiding by medical ethics all your life and absolutely don't want to waste unnecessary medical resources! So I decided to let the hospital dehydrate you and make you feel better. What remains in our memory is your serene appearance and the most handsome face in my heart. The younger brother looks at you and says, "Dad, you are asleep!" " That makes us feel relaxed and calm. After you left, I made a written decision on palliative care and life-sustaining treatment, and also told the children my choice. If one day, they want to let go of my hand, I hope they don't have too much struggle. I also told this story to my dialysis friend who has been our friend for many years. Everyone can accept and respond. I'm sure you will support me. But life without you is sometimes hard. I woke up in a daze. I know I want to do my duty as a mother, but apart from my duty, where is my hope in life? What should I live for every day? Until one day, I saw an online movie and said, "melamine storm, you are there;" You are ... Dr. Lin, you are the conscience of Taiwan Province Province and the pride of people in Taiwan Province Province. It's good to have you in Taiwan Province Province. I suddenly woke up. I can't betray the love of the public. I want to live an active life and continue your mission to this society. Do you know that?/You know what? Do you know that?/You know what? Dr. Lin's health association is already in preparation. After you left, the food safety problem in Taiwan Province Province exploded. I'm glad you didn't see it. You lost a lot of anger and sadness. There is a lot of work to be done at present, and I will always work hard to continue your thoughts and career, which is the best healing for me. And I still wear miniskirts and high heels every day. As you wish, if there is a public welfare speech or activity that needs to promote food safety, I will try to run around. Keep your distance from all the interest groups you care about most. I will always be beautiful for you. -To my late husband, Dr. Lin Liang Jie. This article is authorized by Anning Foundation.