I am a flesh and blood person, maybe this is the way to pursue my dream.

Warning, you may not be able to bear this article, and you may have a feeling of mental collapse, because the content of the article is quite dark, so don't say I didn't warn you.

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Actually, I was in middle school, or I was studying. I always had an idea that I would drop out of school. At first, I thought I just didn't like the atmosphere of the school at that time. After all, I don't know why I have an aversion to the school, but I can't say what the reason is. I don't know if it is because it is a boys' school, because of the learning atmosphere, or because of the teachers. In fact, I really don't know, but slowly I went to No.4 Middle School and No.5 Middle School and found that I had a problem, that is, I was dissatisfied with the system and current situation at that time.

In the third year of junior high school, I made a film with my friends. At that time, I was very happy and felt that I had found some value. Although many people thought it was an idiot's behavior, I didn't expect that although the film was very popular, it caused a big problem, that is, it affected the reputation of the school and caused me to get a demerit. Although it was not only kicked out of school, it had become a big shadow, especially when I went back to school, I heard people using movies or. I can only say that language bullying is heavier than fists and weapons, because you can't resist, and you can't resist. The only thing you can do is to accept it, accept it quickly, and swallow everything. At that time, I really wanted to drop out of school, leave this school and go to a strange place. Gradually, I discovered that the real problem came from the system.

I was going to drop out of high school and even tore my registration certificate, but I just found out that they can get a new registration certificate. I think at that time, the headmaster, teachers and other staff all knew that they were a very problematic person, a troubled youth. In fact, I have a bad idea about the education system. First, the whole system focuses on exams and competition. Although it sounds fine, the biggest problem is that our thoughts and actions are mainly exams, and we don't make mistakes and fight alone. Another problem is that we didn't have anything to do except exams. I also noticed that my sister's middle school has many interest classes, exchange groups, and even some activities that can go out. I don't mean to speak ill of my school, but I think we have fewer activities to explore ourselves or interests.

at this time, I began to study the possibility of different ways and different systems, and only then did I find out about the international diploma. It was only possible that I was no longer that child. At that time, I was no longer qualified to register or transfer to another school. After all, everyone told me that I would just pass the diploma test. So at that time, I decided to forget the diploma and try it. I don't have to think too much. When it's over, it's over. Because I have no affiliation or affection for education and school, I just want to leave school as soon as possible every day.

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In addition, we also talked about many ways out, and even some teachers have asked me about it, but I usually talk casually. I read a book in the third year of middle school and shared an incredible book, as if telling me to change, as if telling me how to go in the future, that is, financial freedom.

But the more I learn about financial freedom, the more I feel lonely and helpless. Because I am just a middle school student, people around me won't tell you about financial freedom, but they will tell you about your grades and employment. No one will ever tell you what entrepreneurship is and what investment is. I even secretly read books of accounting or economics students and found that everything is just illusory concepts and words. I really want to learn what money is.

and change step by step, I seem to have a hatred of poverty. I really can't accept some poor people's thinking or values, and it can be said that I hate this idea very much, but my family, friends and even teachers around me use such ideas and values helplessly. In other words, to learn this knowledge, I can't rely on people around me at all. I know exactly what I need. One of the values I hate most, but family members and even relatives will do it, that is, buy the Mark Six Lottery (that is, buy lottery tickets). If you do charity purely through the Mark Six Lottery, it is no problem, just like selling flags. But if you use it to get rich, I'm afraid that's what I don't like the most, because I don't believe in getting rich overnight, even if I become a rich man, I don't want it to happen to me in this form. Of course, a poor man's best hope is to get rid of poverty, but the biggest problem is that he only has such a beautiful idea, but he is never willing to pay anything, or even learn how to become a rich man. Then why should he get rich?

I think the world is fair. One can't get unexpected wealth or unexpected ability by happiness or other people's means for long.

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So I decided my own direction, although no one supported it. I want to learn about money and how to make money, so I go to class, read books and do research. Although I am not an expert, I can at least have some basic knowledge. For example, learning about investment, learning about every project or product, especially how to achieve financial freedom. In other words, to be financially free, I should at least know how to do it, right?

I tried to take a part-time job or something, but I found a big problem. I only earned a few hundred yuan after doing it for so long. And those job advertisements are not college students, but graduates, and those starting salaries are just over 1 thousand. Many people will tell me that doing so will make achievements and experience. In fact, they want to find a stable job and don't need to worry about life problems, but gradually they find that finding a stable job can't get rid of life problems, and even cause more problems, but they just don't want to let go of this job.

Besides learning how to invest and find money, I need to learn how to start a business. I don't know why some people think that they can learn how to start a business at school, and I don't know why they can learn how to start a business at work. The most puzzling thing is that they think that they can find contacts by doing these things. I have tried to find some contacts in schools or universities, but I found that these are not the people I want. Nowadays, young people seem to have lost their souls. I mean young people who are willing to struggle. There is basically nothing to talk to them except exams. What makes me most uncomfortable is that the topics they discuss cannot be separated from further studies, employment, where to play and what movies to watch. I feel uncomfortable because I feel out of place.

Therefore, I went to see some people who are starting a business, or young people who want to start a business, so that I gradually found myself with a sense of belonging, but it was only a flash in the pan. Those entrepreneurs all have their own businesses and jobs. What I usually do is to ask them, visit them, talk with them, and even participate in some chamber of commerce meetings, visit entrepreneurship days, follow those entrepreneurs here, where to go, and gain knowledge and ideas that are completely different from the same level.

So this is the time. I think it's time for me to find a place to belong and a platform and people who will support me. That's why I decided to set up a dream community (or what people call chasing dreams)

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However, this road is not satisfactory. When the school learned that I organized these activity communities, many students made fun of me and even thought that I was wasting my time. My family members also read the posts on the Internet or accidentally. Although they didn't say anything, I also know that they don't support me to do this in their hearts. Simply put, because they think that such things can't make money, it is better to take a good job.

When I chose to drop out of school, I clearly recognized what my family told me. You can call me holding a grudge, but I really can't forget: "No one will support you! It turns out that this sentence is more unbearable than swearing, and it is worse than giving birth to barbecued pork than giving birth to you, as if your life and the world have become blank. Why? Because you think in your heart that they are your family, you have such presuppositions and expectations, but they don't support me. In fact, they just can't meet my inner expectations. It doesn't mean that they hate me. On the contrary, they love me.

however, back to today, I have been going on and persevering. Although I can't make a lot of money, I always believe that I will succeed. On the day I published the article, I felt once again, and even recalled that sentence. They saw my article: "I would rather be an entrepreneurial wolf than a working dog. "Their action is to refuse and shake their heads. In fact, it has always been like this. They don't support this matter. Instead, they use some language to persuade me to work, and use their emotions and family situation to persuade me to work. Although they keep saying that they won't stop me from continuing to pursue my dreams, the implication is that I can't rely on this success alone. It can only be called not believing, but not supporting.

In middle school, I was basically used to language violence by my classmates, and I know that even if they want to do this, you won't follow me all your life, so forget it in a few years. However, family members are different. Their words and emotions not only affect them, but even if I am lucky, I am afraid that this will be something that I will face all my life. I can't get rid of it and I can't escape. In fact, I have always been afraid to watch the TV series "Everything's Fine" because I think it's too much like me. A family of origin affects the growth of my children, and I can't leave this home like them or like young people in other countries or regions. (Of course, I don't want to go so far. I don't want to leave this home, but the atmosphere of this home makes me want to leave every day.) But I don't want them to say that I didn't make a sound, just like some of my entrepreneurial friends.

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Actually, at that time, I no longer expected them to support me or even expect them to understand, so I just said nothing. I didn't tell them about some competitions I participated in, whether it was writing or starting a business, or why I left home, because I knew it was useless to finish.

During this period, I know very well that it is wrong and stupid to change a person, because it is basically impossible. The only thing you can do is to inspire them and let them witness your success and prove that you are right.

Actually, I don't need anyone's compensation for my language violence, because I know that they have already forgotten this matter. I clearly remember that my sister communicated with her family to convince others by reasoning, but the family actually responded that it was a person, depending on who it was. What I have said makes me deeply realize that in fact, family members can't choose and change. The only thing you can do is to keep going and become stronger as soon as possible, and let them know that you can, that you can succeed, and that what they wanted to say before is wrong. This is cool enough.

In this journey, two women are very important to me, but they have already left, one is my maid, and the other is my predecessor. They have all left, but I don't think this is important, because I know that I still have people to support me and I know that I can succeed, because it is dark, and as long as there is a faint light, it can already be called dawn. Besides, I already know how to change and how to do it.

But I didn't write this article because I wanted to complain about anything and turn over old scores, but because I wanted to remind myself in the future and not to be someone I hate. We must not do this in the future. We must communicate with our children well. If they do something that they are not satisfied with, we must first understand it and then judge whether I support it in the end. Instead of refusing immediately and opposing immediately, because you and I both know that if you give up because of an objection, how can you be called a dream catcher?

Finally, I want to clarify that I know and understand their purpose of doing this, and I know that they love me, but I also hope that they understand who they are or what they want to achieve. If they still don't understand, I have to tell you this sentence: "I am not satisfied with the current family situation, whether it is economy, relationship or life, and I have decided to bring about changes.

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