A letter to Big Taro

Big taro, it has been almost two years since I met you. Time flies so fast. I can only be by your side for these two years. I still remember that day when you transferred to our class on the first day and wore a pair of black TSHIRT. The whole classroom was infected by your sunny and energetic atmosphere. I still remember that you smiled and said to us: "Hello everyone, my name is Chen Mingcai." Magnetic sound. But I never thought that I would happily spend two years as a classmate or even a good friend with you, who is so unexpected.

The way we get along is really special. We can chat on the phone until two o'clock when no one is around, and when we meet at school, we can walk over without turning our heads. Maybe when I was in school, I looked very happy on the outside, laughing every day, and crying when I saw ridiculously handsome people, but on the inside I was a girl with low self-esteem, loneliness, and no one understood me. . Only in the dead of night when the wounds are spreading infinitely can I have the courage to call you and express my youthful feelings. I still remember that we were not very familiar with each other at that time, but I was very dependent and trusting on you, and I confided all my secrets to you. At that time, I was very scared, and my sister was not around, so I would return home every day. When I get home, I just face the gray wall in a daze and shed tears. I am grateful that you are not idle and I am not annoying or annoying. You also teach me many things and sometimes teach me to do math problems. You say that it is not good for me to be with you. In fact, if It was when I met other people that I might not even be able to get into a decent university. It was through slowly and relaxed chatting with you that I stepped out of the darkness step by step and became interested in learning. But at that time, I was still very inferior in front of your friends, so every time I went out if you were not the only one, I couldn't refuse, or I agreed but didn't have the courage to leave. I still remember that time I said I would go but didn't go. I'm really sorry. . My friends all said that we are not in the same world and it would be better if we had less contact. But surprisingly, two years passed like this.

At this moment, I live happily with my sisters every day. I have enough time to do the things I like to do every day. I am completely out of the shadows. I will give you a bright smile next time you see me. I know that I have to stick to what I think is right and be brave to the people I like. That day I expressed my feelings and was rejected by you, but after crying for a minute, I was not very sad, because I was very satisfied with the time when I had many memories with you. I can't ask for too much, and I can't hold on too tightly, otherwise The sand will slide away faster. But I don’t think you need to be so cold to me. It’s such a blow. Although I still have a lot to learn about love, I am a friend who can teach with my heart. I am very lucky to have met you. I hope We have remained friends, lifelong friends. You don't have to worry about me going off the rails. I am a determined person and I will never look back if I give up. I hope you will cherish me as a friend in the same way. Because good friends are an interactive process.

The days we spent together were filled with happiness and sadness, but mostly memories, when I was proud to have fun with my grandson when my hair was gray.

Do you remember? Every time you ask me to play ball, but when it’s time, I still sleep in after making a phone call. I’m so angry that my hair turns white. Every time you tell me something, I can’t do it. Maybe you just say it casually, but I don’t. Listen carefully to every word. I am complaining a little bit when I say this, but I don’t want to gain any benefits from your relationship, because I have a good family, and they can fully meet my material needs, and I think people Only material needs are not enough, spiritual comfort is sometimes more important. I was really disappointed when you didn't come on my birthday. To be honest, I just wanted to be with you on that day. I didn't want anything you could give me. In my opinion, it doesn’t matter how I like someone. What’s important is how I look when I’m with him. Being with you is very relaxing and free. Even holding your hand and walking in a quiet town feels very comfortable. Sweet, really what I want is simple. But I don't know why you didn't come. When the clock passed twelve o'clock, I called to tell you that I would invite you to come out alone tomorrow, but you neither refused nor declined. After waiting with full expectation and planning for a day, I finally plucked up the courage to call you, but the reply was that the phone was turned off. I really had thousands of questions and thousands of questions to ask. I cried alone in front of the balcony that night. My eyes are swollen, but you will never see me cry because I only cry when you can't see me, because I remember you said that I look pretty when I smile.

I think even if you don't like it, you can refuse it frankly, but you can't take it seriously even if you are an ordinary friend. This is too hurtful. I hope you will understand.

Everyone has bright spots and dark places. We are no exception. I said all the things I usually hold in my heart. It’s not about a fair result, because there is no so-called fairness in the game of love. There is only one party constantly giving and one party constantly taking. There is no such thing as winning or losing. At this moment, I just want to communicate with you openly. , because communication starts from the heart. I hope you have something to say to me after reading it.

Xiaobaicai sent you a message at 10:19 on July 11th