Those who can't beat you will eventually make you better.

Buddha said, "If you put it down, you will get nirvana".

When many people and things in life are not satisfactory, we can only let go and learn to let go, otherwise, the road will be long and everything will become a burden.

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The year of 2020 is not "calm" at all, and the whole Spring Festival is shrouded in haze.

Before the Spring Festival holiday, how much I look forward to this Spring Festival: taking family photos, taking beautiful photos of my hometown, getting together with three friends, visiting relatives and deciding on marriage by the way. ...

But an epidemic sweeping across the country changed everything. I went home, and I was tired in the face of my father's stubborn love life and my grandmother who was seriously ill and demented.

A few days before the Spring Festival, I will sunbathe in the yard with my grandmother every day, cook her favorite meals and clean up my shabby home.

On the morning of the 29th of the twelfth lunar month, he told me that we would meet soon.

I am full of expectation and anxiety. I am looking forward to the love that has not deteriorated. I am anxious that my marriage may have a result and my future self will soon be a new identity.

I met him as I wished. No surprise, no unnecessary throbbing, very calm.

We go to the vegetable market to buy food and all the necessities for the New Year. I didn't want to go to the vegetable market alone before, because every time I went home, I had to fill the refrigerator and buy a lot of things, so I couldn't carry them by myself.

With him here this time, I won't have to worry about these.

When I got home, he helped me move the bookcase I bought from Taobao a few days ago. Because of my limited ability, I just repaired it casually in order to assemble it as soon as possible.

On New Year's Eve, grandma was sunbathing, dad and grandma were bickering, my aunt was helping me clean up, and I was reading Zhang Ailing's prose. He is cutting chicken and cooking. The years are quiet, and the taste of happiness comes to mind.

But this kind of happiness is very short-lived. Overnight, an accident changed everything I expected.

He is no longer him, and his father is no longer his father. In order to live, we have to live with another mask. In front of life, you can't cry or be too happy.

Because all anomalies will be seen through, I have suffered too much and learned a lot this Spring Festival. Forgive me for not being able to record these things in words.

At the New Year's Eve dinner, my father said that it has been a long time since everyone sat down for dinner in our family.

Since my grandfather died at 20 12, there have been no redundant people in my family. I always miss my grandfather when he was alive, although our life is not as good as it is now.

However, we had a good time. When we came home from school, we fried a chopped green onion tofu for grandpa and poured him a few glasses of wine, and the rambling days ended.

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I have experienced many things in these two days, so I want to understand a lot.

Life is too short to waste time and energy on people who have nothing to do with it.

My aunt took me to study Buddhism. At first, I had no interest and patience, and copying scriptures was just to cope. When people encounter something, they may feel overwhelmed in an instant.

People are powerless in the face of difficulties, and the way to deal with difficulties depends on our personal character.

My personality belongs to the "anxious" kind. It may be exciting or even extreme for the first time, but calm down and find that what you have experienced is not worth mentioning.

These days, I read the story about Lu Xiaoman, a talented woman in the Republic of China. Lu Xiaoman's life was so elegant for half a life, but a generation of talented women in the Republic of China ended in a tragic end.

You know, during the Republic of China, Lu Xiaoman was a famous lady, so many girls couldn't get it.

In real life, there are many girls around me who were born with golden keys. Rousseau said that everyone in the world is equal, but in fact people are unequal.

Different origins, adult life path is also very different.

My little Po is a very clever girl. She is a child adopted by her parents and has special feelings for her parents. After the college entrance examination, she was admitted to Baoshan College of Traditional Chinese Medicine. She gave up in order not to let her adoptive parents worry about tuition.

She went to work in the county town and met her current husband, who studied little and worked at home all the year round. Soon, they got married.

Many people are against it, and some people are sour behind it. They all said Po would be unhappy. If she goes to college well, life may be another scene.

She told me that she didn't regret it, because if she went to college, her adoptive parents wouldn't be able to support her, and getting married early might not be a bad thing for her.

Anyone's choice is actually an unforgettable story behind it.

Only a unique experience can create a unique life.

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There is too much helplessness in this chaotic life.

Not long ago, I watched a movie about the protagonist's tortuous life after he met school bullying.

When I first saw this film, my heart was deeply touched.

Because of the words empathy, I saw tears in my eyes.

In primary school, I also experienced bullying on campus. I was very simple at that time. I have always felt that as long as I study hard, I will get better when I grow up.

But no matter how hard you try, some people still don't like it.

I won the first prize in the composition contest. Someone tore up my winning composition, and someone followed me home from school. I am most afraid of going to school and going to physical education class for free activities, because everyone is rejecting me.

There is a kind of pain that makes you do nothing wrong, but you are still not treated well by the world.

When I grew up, I tried to escape from my family and change myself by changing the environment, but it was still too difficult.

I read such a sentence in a book: people with childhood scars need to work hard to gradually accept the world when they grow up, and those shadows in the past can only change a little, so it is really difficult to get out.

In 2008, I was hospitalized due to illness. I had a quarrel with my father because I couldn't stand the doctor telling me to take off my pants. I escaped from the hospital alone and cried in the underground parking lot.

After crying, I saw my father's back through the window. He's looking for me everywhere.

When people are angry, their IQ is zero, and they don't know how stupid they are until it's over.

I walked quietly behind my father, and immediately there was light in his eyes.

My signature of Tik Tok is: "Those who can't beat you will eventually make you better."

Suffering was yesterday. Although the pace is difficult now, I believe everything will pass.

After reading Hemingway's The Old Man and the Sea, he said, "Man can be destroyed, but he can't be defeated."

This time I went home for the New Year, although I did nothing at home every day, I also had more time to take care of my grandmother. Sometimes I am very happy, because I got here step by step on my own.

This is an inspirational phrase I wrote myself in high school. At that stage, I took the college entrance examination as an important shortcut for me to get out of the countryside, and I paid sweat and tears.

I can't remember how many times I fell into a difficult quagmire, had despair in the quagmire, and had the freedom to stand up again and shake off the dust of life.

Every time I complain and feel uncomfortable, I know I can only push forward.

I always believe that when God closes a door, he will open another window for me. Suffering will eventually make me better, and the sky will always illuminate those who are struggling. ...

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I am an egret, thank you for reading.