# I will describe a soul to you, it has ruthless youth #

When I first saw this sentence, it was written like this: I describe a soul to you, which has unremitting youth.

Later, I learned that this is a lyric in Mr. Tortoise's Boys Don't Cry.

The correct spelling is "you're welcome" rather than "perseverance".

I told them that I learned the lyrics specially, which is absolutely correct.

My understanding is "never wither".

Who are they?

They are a group of teenagers who call themselves diaosi, and they can really be regarded as diaosi. I don't study well and I don't have much money, that's all. It's really amazing. I'll know them.

The fate between us can actually be traced back to 20 13. Because if I don't know a person named wwc at 20 13, then I can't know them at all.

Wwc and I first met in a meditation class in my freshman year. We are free to team up and become teammates. Last semester, we went to Yixing together and completed several tasks together. But then, I didn't care about him at all. He is not handsome, but I can be said to be a member of the Appearance Association. I didn't expect to fall in love so soon when I was a freshman. So, I seem to have overlooked a lot of his hints. Ha ha da. That cold girl is me.

What happened afterwards? When I was a freshman. We have never met at school, and there is no such thing as chance encounter in fate. What I thought at that time was that there would probably be no intersection in my life. So at that time, I felt that many courses in the university, especially those we attended, were in large classes. Everyone took care of themselves and had no fixed classmates, so it seemed that I could meet different people every semester, take classes together for one semester, and then I never contacted them again. Alas. Look at your increasing QQ groups, which are actually "dead groups". No one came forward to suggest what to do together. After all, everyone has their own things, and everyone is very busy.

201August 5, 4. Now that I think about it, it's actually the day after wwc 19' s birthday. hahaha. What a coincidence.

This day was supposed to be ordinary.

During the summer vacation, I served as a student referee in a middle school sports meeting held by the school. On the way to rest, the water space is just right. I saw a wwc turn. Those who want to learn guitar can join the * * * * * group. I'm already thinking about learning guitar in the summer vacation. Of course, when I saw this, I added without hesitation. I thought it should be learned by a group of people in our school. Later, it was discovered after the water group. The owner of the bee colony is his cousin, a diaosi. Just finished the college entrance examination. Others are his cousin's classmates and so on. Then, inexplicably, I met such a group of people who can say that I am two different worlds. If there is anything in common, it is only: everyone loves music very much.

So ... we are in a group called diaosi guitar class.

They used to tell me to take pictures, but I never did. I will share with them my favorite songs or songs that I feel good every day. My master, my cousin wwc, also often sings or plays guitar to demonstrate. I think his voice is super nice. The song "The Moon Represents My Heart" that he sang is still in my mobile phone.

Yesterday was my fifth time to quit the group.

I remember it very clearly.

I quit the group for the first time because after I gave them half a photo of my face, they began to spoof it, put it together and vilify it, and often screened it in the group. I went back because of wwc's invitation. At that time, we had no relationship at all, just good friends.

When I left the group for the second time, I didn't know why I was with wwc. I think a large part of the reason is that I am lonely. It's really ridiculous to think about it now. I gave a lot of hints, but he didn't show them. So I quit the group when I got angry. After that, all negative emotions began to sprout. Wwc invited me and confessed to me. So we're together. Hehehe. It seems really incredible. I thought we were too serious. But sweet words are always too beautiful, saying, "I had feelings for me when I was a freshman, and I wanted to chase me at that time." Barabara is a group. Then I was moved to my head. I didn't even make it clear that he labeled "freshman" as "senior one" in his confession. Looking back now, maybe he used that confession before, because it was only afterwards that wwc's first love was the goddess who secretly loved high school for three years. I spent two months together when I graduated from senior three, and then I probably broke up because I went to different universities. Anyway, he was vague the day we fell out.

This is going to talk about my third withdrawal. When we decided to be together, it happened to be the national day of 20 14. I remember it was 10 year1the evening of October 2. We all went home then. Because my home is close to school, of course, I have to go home after a long vacation. Besides, neither of them had a boyfriend or girlfriend before. I went back to school on the evening of the 5 th because of class. Then he went back to school with me on the evening of the 6th. I put buoyancy forest's cake in his mailbox that night. Oh, by the way, we had a fight before that. Because a few days after we agreed to be together, he didn't seem to care about me at all You haven't called me all day. Although I know he is very busy, but there is no news all day, I am really sad. Probably because it was so lonely at that time. But ah, I also feel really strange, why I won't take the initiative to find him. Sure enough, I am still a cold girl. At the same time, everyone in my team and I are complaining about wwc. Later, after breaking up, he told me that this was one of the very important reasons. Because I have no regard for his face. So, yes, he did teach me a lot. So there are many reasons why we broke up. The fuse should be that he didn't invite me to dinner the day after he returned to school. I went to eat alone. Now that I think about it, I regret why I didn't take the initiative to invite him to dinner. But ah, I still can't figure out whether boys should take the initiative in this kind of thing. Then it fell out. It seems that my temper is really not very good. I said, "Do you treat me as a girlfriend?" ! If you don't want to be together, don't be together! "Then, he said," let him think about it. "I cried all the time that night, and my heart was stuffed to death. There is a movie "Best Friend" on the computer, but my eyes have been staring at the mobile phone, and my tears really can't stop. I have to go to the track and field alone. Then we met, and just the night before, we were sitting in the stands and chatting happily. At this time, I kept sobbing. He looked helpless and distressed. He finally admitted that he "didn't care so much about me", didn't take the gift, and didn't take the initiative to invite me to dinner. Then I said a bunch of things that made me feel even more embarrassed. Said I couldn't forget my first girlfriend. And there is a connection. God, what can I say? I didn't sleep well for the next few nights. Tears come down as soon as I sleep at night. The heartbeat is a stopped state. I really thought the end of the world was coming. Now that I think about it, I was stupid. But you said I didn't try to save this relationship. How is that possible? I kept trying until yesterday when I knew that he and his ex-girlfriend might be together again. I'm really determined to move on.

Then the last two exits were yesterday, and the reasons have already been said.

The other time was the day before yesterday. Yes, that means I quit the group twice in three days.

I used to think that I would never go back after this retirement. Just like I always make up my mind to forget, find the next love again and tell him that we can be friends again. But I find myself in a whirlpool every once in a while.

Before the exam week this semester, I deleted wwc's QQ. The reason is that he is likely to keep in touch with his ex-girlfriend by phone. But even after breaking up, he told me that "he will not get back together with his first love." What about the facts? So how many times do I have to be cheated to be smart? I thought I would sincerely bless him, but I once said that if one day he finds true love, I will sincerely bless him and hope that he will be happier than me. I can't accept the fact that he and his first love are back together. Because I don't want to be cheated again. So, during that time, I have been playing the song "Evidence" in a loop. I have been reading "I want to take the gentlest revenge".

Yesterday, wwc and her first lover probably went on a date. Why do I always add the word "probably" is because I still have a little hope in my heart that they are not together, just catching up and having a meal. But yesterday I shouted in the group for so long, but he didn't mean to deny it at all, didn't want to explain it at all, and didn't care if I was in a hurry. So, I think we're together.

The heart is blocked.

Alas.

I often think, if. If I hadn't lost my temper so easily, if I had thought more about him and his face, if I had been less arrogant and cruel, if I had been smarter, would we still be together now, and would he refuse to get back together with his first girlfriend?

Now I'm watching the Japanese TV series "Why You Can't Fall in Love". I suddenly feel that sometimes I am too heavy. Take everything too seriously and seriously, which will cause a burden to the other party. It's like saying that the other party was sentenced to death, which made the other party under great pressure and then left him scarred. Now that I think about it, it's just a love. As for being so serious, as for working so hard, as for being so lifeless. Divide and rule is the most common thing. People can still go when they are married. Michael Chen's relationship with his 14 first love girlfriend was not buried in the grave of cheating and changing his mind.

So sometimes it's really possible that I'm too emotional. Trust others too easily. It's too easy to say forever.

But what can I do? I still believe in love. Will still be desperate and black and blue when the next love comes. Still treat everyone sincerely. Still firmly believe that someone will really cherish you, care about you and protect you.

I haven't changed. I won't change either.

Just like at the end of that year's hurry, I asked how octagonal was now.

The answer is: she hasn't changed.

Hmm.

I won't change either. No matter how the world changes, always keep your faith.

Always keep that childlike heart.

I hope I can remember what I wrote here today.

Let's go Look ahead.

May you be your own sun.