Talking about marriage and buying a house ~

"I dedicated this to him for the first time, and I am prepared to support him for life regardless of poverty and illness."

I'll handle the rest myself. Let me say a few words on the above point: you put yourself in the position of the weak from the beginning, which is not good for your later life. When he seduced you, you seduced him. Of course, everyone expects perfect love, but the fact is often not as imagined. You shouldn't let this tie you down.