Children's book "John? Christopher 15

Christopher has seen enough of the leisure class's improvisation and posturing, and hates their decadent spirit. His music is not appreciated and accepted by the French. Stubborn self-persistence, loneliness, pain and anger, the soul struggles in the dark abyss and growls uneasily. Olivier? Jenan showed up This shy young man is like a light in the dark, which gives him surprise and comfort. Christopher's choppy heart calmed down a lot.

The Yan 'an family has lived in a province in central France for generations, belonging to one of the ancient families who have guarded the corner of the mainland for hundreds of years. From the wise to the foolish, people unconsciously have a deep attachment to the countryside, whether it is a country with beautiful scenery and comfortable life or the simplest and coldest place. People and land share the same fate, and they are in the same boat, with joys and sorrows. If there is no big change in life, people will not want to leave their homeland for several lifetimes.

Anthony? Yan 'an's father Augustine was good at business and opened a bank. He is short, fat and full of energy. Smart and capable, being an ordinary person is not rigid. Speak bluntly, love to laugh and be sarcastic, have deep pockets and be respected. Love to eat and drink, lewd, rude and straightforward. Once, I was not careful. I only wore a shirt and poured wine into the cellar on a hot day. As a result, I got pneumonia and died.

Anthony took over his father's business. He is also a short and chubby man, with no beard, rosy face and high spirits. My ability to do things is not bad, but I don't have my father's financial ability. Attentive and frank to people, easy to show true feelings, sometimes too close, a little civilian. Good popularity and respect.

He is a city senator and opposes the church. Love literature, deeply influenced by Latin literature, and love to write poetry.

His wife, the daughter of a judge, is completely contrary to his rude optimism and inherits her mother's pessimism, depression and complaints. She is tall and thin, has a good figure and can dress up. Very virtuous, but strict with others. Devote oneself to religion. Couples who love each other will also argue about it. Husband Anthony doesn't know the way of the world and is easily confused by sweet words and smiling faces. His wife is not interested in business and never asks questions.

They have two children: their elder sister Amdo Nader and their younger brother Olivier, who is five years younger than them.

Andonard, brown hair, very beautiful. Small round face charming simple and honest, imposing, eyes, small nose straight, chin is very thin. Optimistic personality with father.

Olivier with light yellow hair is delicate, sickly and short. Personality follows mother, unhappy, fond of loneliness, fond of fantasy, timid and sensitive, and is often ridiculed by my sister as cry baby.

Two children with different temperaments, with close hearts, play with each other and have their own fantasies. The longer the better. Andonard happily made up some dreams for the future. Olivier is a bit out of place with the outside world and spends most of his time with his imaginary three friends. His body and mind are separated. His family saw him: he got up, washed his face, studied and even talked to him, always in a daze and absent-minded. But in my heart, it is like a big beehive, whispering and chattering. The sensitive child silently used his eyes and ears to collect materials for his inner story. Locked empty rooms, furniture covered with cloth, mirrors and candlesticks, smiles on portraits of ancestors. The gasps of the blacksmith's bellows, the sound of the washerwoman beating clothes, the sound of the butcher chopping meat, the sound of hooves, the noise of the market, the cry of pigs, the out-of-tune singing in the church, the bloody smells in the kitchen, the terrible stories told by the old lady, and the strange things that move at night. A heavy ship passed by slowly. There were two lilacs, a bunch of anemones and morning glory in the yard, laurels and flowering durians in the wooden basin, shivering poplars on the roadside and larks hovering in the sky. When eating, everyone eats and drinks, talks about business and jokes. The child is like a little mouse, sitting quietly in a corner, chewing, but not eating much, listening to every word said by adults with outstretched ears. The snow-white bed where he sleeps at night is the island where he dreams peacefully.

There are no people in Biezhuang, a few miles away from the city. The two children often go there in the best seasons of spring and autumn. My sister Amdo Nader can run and play as much as she likes, while Olivier is an endless fantasy. Besides riding on branches and reading his myths, fairy tales and novels, Olivier will also visit gardens. However, most of the time, he regards his eyes and ears as his legs and feet, waiting for a place to wander. Niu Jiao, crowing chickens, busy ants and bees, and thousands of creatures in the garden are in his heart. Looking at them, he is full of doubts, worries and even disgust. The sound of pine nuts falling to the ground and dead branches breaking will scare him like a rabbit.

Amdo Nader searched the garden with his feet curiously. It seems that there is a cheerful bird living in her heart, singing constantly. She laughed and climbed trees to steal fruit, regardless of the ban on picking flowers. Step barefoot on the grass, step on the slate and visit the stream. Weave a crown with vines, dress up as a savage little princess, dance around the fountain until dizzy, and then fall on the grass, unable to help laughing.

Amdo Nader occasionally plays tricks on his younger brother for fun, tricking him down from the tree, throwing him down, finally putting grass in his mouth, and then slipping away with a smile. Olivier, the younger brother, will only be passive, angry and wronged.

These two children are very religious, especially Olivier. He is weak and sentimental, and has a natural sense of identity with religion. In the religious atmosphere of compassion, sympathy and tolerance, the body and mind are relaxed, practical and safe. The Bible is by no means a distant legend to him, but a reality. The characters in the Bible, the places he often sees and is familiar with, and the places where the story takes place are all close to his home.

Perhaps partly influenced by his mother, Olivier was born pessimistic, and a ten-year-old child actually wrote a will while eating snacks. He urgently needs religion as a lifeline. People at a young age seem to be burdened with endless troubles and melancholy. When no one can complain and be upset, they pour some into their diaries every day and tell themselves.

Both brothers and sisters have the heart of musicians, but no one can guide them in this respect. A limited number of tracks are repeated over and over again, and the wrong notes cannot be corrected. Poor acting skills were also used by parents to entertain guests. The two brothers, especially Olivier, were reluctant and even ran away. Olivier really likes music, which is another refuge besides his religious belief. Although he doesn't know music, he just sings passively, but he is deeply infected by it.

The Yan 'an family is very rich and respected in the local area. Everything has gone smoothly since Anthony took over his father's business. Among them, there are his efforts and luck. However, it is easy for people to feel good about themselves and attribute their success to their cleverness. He didn't realize that he couldn't cope with the accident because it hadn't happened yet. Perhaps, he thinks nothing will happen at all. A pair of children can be raised as painful as flowers in a greenhouse. He never thought about preparing something for their future life battle in advance.

Sixteen-year-old Amdo Nader, a rich girl as beautiful as flowers and pure as jade, the son-in-law of a large local family, competed to get close to please. Walking and chatting with a dude she likes, listening to flattering words, my heart is full of sweet happiness. Gentle first love will make her intoxicated.

However, disaster has come. Banker Yan 'an is weak, credulous and vain. Friends borrow money from him and never refuse; If people don't pay back, they will never; Never let anyone write a receipt. Kindness and cowardice, no one dares to offend, so we have to give in forever. He was so enthusiastic when he lent money to others, as if he had helped him by taking his money. In doing so, even if he loses some money, it is very small after all, and the borrowers are quite disciplined, and the impact is not too bad.

But the fat and docile sheep, without any defensive heart, will be coveted by the wolf sooner or later. A big schemer, with poor deception, rhetoric and high-income promises, bankers are willing to use their dreams and all their assets to hook up with depositors. The result was nothing. His temperament has changed greatly, and he is irritable, irritable and melancholy. Trying to be calm, he still showed confusion and absent-mindedness. His wife was afraid to ask, just worried. Unable to clean up the mess and explain to the depositors, he was overwhelmed. Say goodbye to your family in the dark, and shoot yourself in the office in the middle of the night.

The head of the family slipped away, and hell on earth was left to orphans and widows. Like an avalanche, their lives completely collapsed and their lives were unsustainable. The old friend disappeared, and the vicious faces and shouting accusations of bank depositors came. Carrying this shameful thing, they were tortured by self-blame. Even in the family, it is full of blame. Amdo Nader suddenly saw the truth of life, and her once sweet-talking boyfriend disappeared, and no one could rely on him. The wind and sword are unbearable, and the road ahead is boundless. I can't help it, so I have to decide to take a risk in Paris.

Three people went to the cemetery and finally said goodbye to their father in tears. Say goodbye to the old house that once carried their joy and pain, and leave the home where their ancestors lived. Afraid of embarrassing acquaintances, like thieves, three vagrants quietly walked out of their old house while the city people were still awake, and boarded the train to Paris as if to escape.

For newcomers, big bags and panicked mainlanders, Mrs. Yan 'an and their two children, Paris is leering, cheated by their accommodation, and naturally you're welcome.

Mrs. Jenan has a sister in Paris, and her husband is a rich judge. I hope my sister can give me some sympathy and help. I visited them at their home and they were treated with indifference and arrogance. I was angry that her family went bankrupt, and I was afraid of being dragged down. It is impolite to stay for dinner. I can't wait to push them out the door. My sister got a lot of bad words instead of help. Finally, the two sisters became sworn enemies.

Representatives and senators from this province often helped us before visiting Yan 'an, but they only saw a few ungrateful and selfish people.

Unwilling to be wronged by her daughter's work, the old lady in Yan 'an ran around alone and got only a meager and hard job.

Overwork aggravated the original heart disease. Dragging a tired body, struggling every day, life has reached the brink of collapse. Once, when she came home, she was too sad to speak and soon stopped breathing. At the last moment of my life, watching my two lonely children, how painful it is for my mother to leave!

Two children, one scared, one crying, one taking care of terrible affairs. With the sudden departure of their mother, the two children seemed to be pushed to the edge of a cliff, and they felt indescribable despair, especially Olivier, who really wanted to die with his sister. Sister Amdo Nader can't bear his brother's pain. She wants to comfort and protect her brother. So, the sadness of losing my mother quietly moved back. She must be strong and lead her brother to live.

Pride in despair. They didn't inform menstruation of their mother's death, preferring to be lonely rather than see those heartless and hypocritical relatives.

After dealing with mom, life goes on. The brother and sister changed to a small apartment. The monastery where my mother used to teach piano promised Andonard to take over her mother's job. Besides, she wants to find something else to teach. In the face of suffering, I found the toughness of life and will not compromise easily. She made up her mind to bring up her brother until she was admitted to a higher normal school. This idea has refreshed her body and mind. With the enthusiasm of "Super Brothers", the lonely and hard life ahead can be tolerated. If the cowardly brother had no sister to force him to struggle, work, survive and pursue happiness, he might have finished long ago, or he might commit suicide, be discouraged and be dissolute.

The future success of my younger brother Olivier has become two unique life goals for my younger brother and sister. Relying on asceticism, religion and noble wishes, they turned life into a belief, and any humiliation, pain and fatigue could be tolerated.

Amdo Nader takes care of his brother's diet and daily life like a loving mother, regardless of the fatigue of a day's work. She spoiled her brother and wouldn't let him help her with the housework. Supervise my brother's homework, teach him to recite and check the papers.

The difficulty of making a living did not kill the ambition of two lovely children. It took them three years to scrimp and save, and paid off the 200 francs that their mother owed her menstruation.

Andonard lived a hard life and tried to be frugal. However, I still have to use the money saved to decorate my brother and let him go to the concert to adjust his life. But how can my brother bear to enjoy it alone? They decided not to go to the concert, either not or not. She rented a piano for her brother with the money she saved. For the joy of expensive music, my sister does not hesitate to pay more fatigue. Occasionally patronize concerts and hide under the wings of music love, her heart will cry quietly because of its sweetness and warmth.

Anduo Nader sincerely believes in religion and prays warmly for a long time every day. She believes in the love of Christ. Even so, she is rational and withdrawn, and will never give up her free judgment. She believes in love, not obedience like a cheap animal. The cruel reality of coming to Paris disintegrated Olivier's religious belief, and he was depressed for it. However, his idea is very close to that of his sister. They all live in a religious atmosphere.

The two children struggled to survive and endured. Every day when they return to their small home exhausted, they need a quiet rest and just say hello with their eyes. I just want to forget the hard day and avoid asking questions as much as possible.

After supper, Olivier began to play the piano. This is the only pastime for brother and sister. When my brother plays the piano, he can't stand being next to others, so my sister doesn't come near, with her back to her brother and the piano. Music keeps them away from reality and floats in an ethereal dream for a while. Later, my sister tried not to show supervision, woke my brother up from his fantasy, walked out of the cloud of music and did his homework.

Olivier is depressed and often needs to talk to her sister about her pain. He has no self-confidence, and he is discouraged when he speaks. Andonade gives him courage every day and helps him overcome himself. Olivier's endless negative emotions unconsciously killed her sister's original courage and happiness. Her happiness is gone. Voluntary and helpless life of self-sacrifice, there are also times when I am extremely bored. I don't want my brother to see it, so I can only pray for self-comfort. After the clouds cleared, I felt a dull pain in my heart and a smile appeared on my face.

Olivier is weak, always sick, and sometimes there are signs of nervousness that seem heavy but not sick. Amdo Nader was tortured, often frightened and trembling, afraid that his brother would get sick and die.

Olivier, who is in adolescence, is growing physically and changing psychologically. He is weak-willed and free-thinking. Although he is quiet, he can't resist the unfair temptation. Inadvertently, Amdo Nader overheard many obscene words between his younger brother and classmates, and he was so angry that he was cold and indescribable. What is more fatal is that he once stayed out all night. Olivier reached the stage of fighting for independence. My sister is in great pain, but she is silent and blameless. He regretted it and blamed himself. Faced with the strangeness of her brother's unexpected growth, she was at a loss, both amazed and painful.

Lonely Amdo Nader has her own embarrassment that no one can sue, which makes her anxious and painful. Dressed simply, cold and unprotected, she walked in the street and was sometimes followed by irresponsible men. She doesn't know how to deal with it, and she doesn't want her brother to know about it. An enthusiastic Jewish couple, the Naduan couple, was very concerned about her and invited her to their family party. They hardly attended it several times. Although poor and shy, he was teased and insulted by glib teenagers, wrote obscene love letters and threatened to pester him. Finally, as a last resort, she asked Mrs Duan to help her get rid of it.

She has another sad thing. Mrs Naduan introduced her to a well-behaved man who was a consul in the Far East. Later, the man proposed to her. Because she didn't like him, she gradually became a little grateful and warm to him, but she could only refuse to fly away with him. Although the man understood why she refused, he was still very angry. After months of silence, I sent her a wedding invitation to marry another woman.

The bitterness adds to the bitterness, and I feel sad. The kindness of Mrs. Duan was hit, and she no longer cared about the little friend. From then on, Amdo Nader completely withdrew from society and no longer took care of his family. Take care of your brother more wholeheartedly.

Olivier didn't know the painful romance in his sister's heart. He is passionate and frivolous, living in fantasy, and can't rely on him for anything. Amdo Nader took good care of his brother, a very weak plant. Regardless of your own fatigue, accompany your brother to the outskirts of the forest for a walk, because fresh air and sunshine are good for your brother's health. Monitor my brother's homework from time to time, and be careful not to let him find out that he is angry.

Two struggling children just want to be admitted to normal university smoothly. Olivier is one of the best students, but when he comes to the exam, he will be timid and nervous. He lost the election. Andonard is as depressed as his younger brother, but he will smile and cheer for his younger brother, so he will play next year. She is only secretly worried about her physical and mental difficulties, whether she can persist for another year, and she has to. Brother doesn't have the courage to struggle alone.

Brother and sister who have been together for several years are going to be separated. There are no local teachers, so I have the opportunity to teach in Germany after introduction. Olivier can only go to boarding school. Panic about the unknown future can only move forward in pain.

The master of Germany was cold and nosy to Andonade. They don't let her have any freedom. The family snoops into her private affairs, discovers the secrets in her heart, and reads her letters like spies. This monitored life torments her all the time.

His brother Olivier is withdrawn and sensitive. Living on campus made him depressed to death, but in his long letter to his sister, he pretended to be brave. The two brothers and sisters warmed each other by writing letters, encouraging them to move on. Hide each other's pain, worry about each other, miss each other, but know each other's pain.

Andonard misses his brother and his hometown. There happened to be a French troupe performing, and she was eager to listen to French to ease her homesickness. She is a strange lady who Christopher rashly invited to the theatre when he was in Germany. The troublemaker talked a lot of gossip out of thin air. She was helpless and trampled to death in shame. Be fired. It happened to be facing Christopher through the window, which was on her train home. I only met Christopher once. She knows nothing about him, not even his name.

Brother and sister are reunited again. Olivier is ill. When he was sure that he was not dreaming, he cried with his sister in his arms. It hurts to leave.

They rented an apartment again and restored the old life is sweet. My sister earned some money in Germany, translated a German book and increased her income. Don't worry about money for the time being. They prepare for the exam wholeheartedly and are often anxious. Olivier was still nervous when it was time to play again. Seeing the result, they were so nervous that they hardly had the courage to go there. Thankfully, Olivier passed the exam and was admitted. I was so happy that I ran home without saying a word and told my parents, the parents in the portrait. Two people knees brittle, tears flow two lines. The nerves that have been tense for several years have relaxed, and the burden in Amdo Nader's heart has also been lifted. Her task was completed, and she saved her brother.

I can finally relax. They decided to live in Switzerland for a month to reward their efforts over the past few years, and both of them were very happy. On the train, Olivier was surprised to find that his sister was old and sick, with many wrinkles on her face. He was very upset and worried.

Long-lost field scenery outside the window, many novel and interesting things, this is a wonderful trip. Looking at his brother's sincere happiness, Amdo Nader can only pretend to be happy. She is tired, uncomfortable and not as happy as her brother.

When she arrived at her destination, she was ill. The doctor said it was caused by extreme fatigue and asked her to stay in bed for a few more days. Olivier doesn't want to enjoy the beautiful scenery alone, and her sister is willing to accompany her brother. They ignored the doctor's advice and began to enjoy the beautiful scenery. My sister is pale and struggling, so she can't go hiking with her brother. The young people in the same hotel are lovely, happy and educated, and Olivier likes to chat with them. The roles of Andonard and his brother have been reversed. She is now inexplicably depressed and bored with everything. Years of hard work and anxiety have damaged her body and mind and almost exhausted the vitality of her life.

In late autumn, when the sun is dim, it will naturally fade. On a gloomy autumn day, my brother and sister walked in the forest for the last time, silent and gloomy. Back in Paris, they were both very sad. Anduo Nader's body never recovered.

Spend the last savings to buy clothes for Olivier and take them to school. After taking care of her brother for many years, she is more like a mother. Working for her brother has always been her passion. She had a hunch that making bedding was the last thing for her brother. Brother and sister are inseparable. Olivier clings to his sister like a child, and his heart is full of melancholy about separation.

When my younger brother grows up, he has to fulfill his life mission. Parting with my sister is actually a farewell of two lives. My sister gave her ten years of life to my younger brother, and now my life goal is gone. The rope she used to hold tightly suddenly loosened, and she tripped and fell to the ground. The disoriented emptiness was a blow to her spirit. Eager to go to school to see her brother, only to find that his brother is gradually less eager to see them, which always makes her feel a little disappointed.

She's exhausted, and she doesn't have to grind her teeth. I'm in no mood or strength. I can only meditate on my past life in sadness. I don't think about eating, I'm lonely, I'm confused.

The new life at school and new friends attracted Olivier. My sister has accumulated her thoughts about her younger brother at home. When she met her, she was too concerned and attentive, but her brother who wanted to talk to her was silent. After leaving home, my brother regretted blaming himself, but my sister didn't know. I just saw my brother alienating himself more and more, and I was a little more depressed.

I used to listen to music with my brother in the theater. Andonard happened to meet and recognize the musician on the stage as Christopher. She doesn't remember this once-in-a-lifetime German. Seeing him again, I was ashamed to face up to it, and the feelings hidden in my heart floated up again.

Someone wants to humiliate Christopher through this concert. He is not worldly, and it is common to offend people. The audience sneered at the performance and was full of malice. Christopher was fearless, responded with arrogance and belittled the audience with children's songs. All this frightened Andonard and worried about Christopher. The two brothers and sisters appreciate his music very much. Olivier, who has always been timid, bravely stood up and scolded the people and even wanted to fight with them. Unwilling to see more such audiences, the two left early.

The feelings she didn't dare to face up to stirred her into a daze. Olivier took back a collection of Christopher's songs. One of the songs was titled "For the Woman I am Troubled" in German, which was written for Adorno. She was in poor health, so she was a little overexcited and confused, happy and sad. She has a terrible headache.

Take a walk in the street and have some fun. You can only think about Christopher. As a result, two equally poor and sick people met on both sides of the street, but were separated again because of the crowded and chaotic pedestrians and horses on the road.

Amdo Nader went home, although he was a little upset because he couldn't talk to him. But she's still happy to see each other. She was so hot and excited that she wrote half a letter to Christopher. Her enthusiasm waned and she resigned. Slipped the half letter into a book.

She felt that providence had come to an end. My heart is peaceful and quiet.

She has acute lung disease. There's nothing the doctor can do. Years of hard work exhausted her strength. The thought that her Olivier was finally saved gave her unspeakable joy. She smiled with tears in her eyes. She left this world. Many strangers were moved by her loyalty and saw her off.

Olivier's sadness can be imagined. He is also lucky that his new life at school takes up a lot of his thoughts, so that he won't be overwhelmed by pain. Olivier rented a small room to keep his sister's relics, which was his sacred place to commemorate her.

"Who wants to meet a loving heart in the world and experience a state of caring for each other, just to taste the joy of heaven and earth, the joy that will haunt you all your life ..."

"The most unfortunate thing for a generally weak and gentle soul is to taste the greatest happiness."

He sorted out his sister's letters and papers. His sister keeps all the letters he wrote to her, but unfortunately he lost the letters she wrote to him. He found half a letter from his sister to Christopher and knew that they met in Germany, and that his sister had loved Christopher vaguely.

I like Christopher's music. Now because of his sister, he believes that part of his sister's soul has been given to him. He is pursuing Christopher, eager to get close to him, but afraid of being discovered by him.

Finally, at a night party at a friend's house, two souls who had been looking for each other met. Christopher must have recognized the girl Andonard in Olivier's eyes.

Mother said:

Amdo Nader and his younger brother Olivier are like two seemingly tender grasses, growing in the cold and barren cracks. They are tenacious in the pain of blood and tears, not giving in and not giving up.

Although life is hard, it is not to drag out an ignoble existence. Brother and sister have dignity, ambition and persistence. Save money, but also pay back 200 francs for menstruation. Two self-reliant children will not allow others to trample on their dignity.

Adonade himself is still a child, but his tender wings are the most powerful wings to protect his weak brother and save his life and soul. I can be willful in my father's warm garden, I can be spoiled, I can be a proud princess, and I can be strong in the cold wind and rain alone. Facing the ugly face of life, she didn't complain about escaping, but fought bloody battles. Even if she fell, she was gratified and smiled. She is an admirable fighter.

As an elder sister, Andonard fulfilled her mother's duties and made her younger brother's life and future with more than ten years' life.

The brotherhood is deep, and my sister turned her youth into a piece of red, and the falling affection, sadness and beauty, moved the viewer to tears.

2020. 12.27