The boring tech guy who accompanied me on my birthday ten years ago.

October is my birthday. I don't ask to celebrate my birthday every year, because my only birthday was ten years ago, when Hu Lin, a boring man in science and engineering, accompanied me. The people of Sri Lanka are gone, even birthdays have lost their meaning of existence, and the sense of ceremony has since lost.

In fact, I have understated my predecessor in several articles, but my whole love has never been described in depth. Tonight, the moonlight is dim, and I am leaning against the windowsill alone, and I begin to recall the dusty past little by little.

Let's talk about market research first. Do you believe in fate? I didn't believe him before I met him. After knowing him, I am convinced. On April 3rd, 2008, I wrote an article "To My Future Boyfriend" in QQ space. As a result, I met him on the way back from my trip to Zhuhai on May 3, which happened to be a month. What a coincidence. It is also my only trip to other places besides my graduation trip.

May Day in Zhuhai is very beautiful. The meeting with him was completely unexpected. Cheated by a chartered car, the car was two hours late, which indirectly killed him. The person in charge is so unprofessional that the phone can't be called. People must have a lot of complaints. They are receiving complaints from customers. But we must wait.

I met several victims, and I was in the same boat, blowing water there. What are the benefits of going to a hot spring? It blows like a fairyland. This makes my depressed heart even more sad. I wonder why you didn't say so earlier. It's a pity that they are all leaving.

I heard several boys say, "Now the advertisements are true and false. What is Qian Yuan's Qi? The ticket to Guangzhou is 35. " At this time, I couldn't help but put an uncivilized sentence: "Don't believe anything, if you are serious, you will lose." Then they heard the attachment: "Yes, the advertisement is too fake." Then a boy asked me if I should be a student. Where to study in Guangzhou? "Sophomore" "What a coincidence, we are in our junior year in Panyu Guangzhou University Town."

Later, they listened to my strong accent and guessed my native place, saying that his roommate was from my hometown, so I left him my QQ number. He was sitting right in front of me when the bus came. To tell the truth, there was no spark between us when we first met. This is not love at first sight. No wonder he is not handsome, and I dress casually. How can there be so much love at first sight? When you see color, you should be colored. Hey hey.

I was so shy that I didn't welcome the first spring of my life until I was twenty-one. He was sitting in front of me and embarrassed to talk to him. Give him a signal when you get off and leave. I don't want to see ghosts in the old site. Get off at 7: 30, but I can't find a car!

Walking around, carrying a bag, walking around at random, tired and hungry, walking around like two stray dogs. I've been in Guangzhou for two years, but I'm still confused. I'm embarrassed to say.

Finally, it seems that it took two and a half minutes to arrive in the past thousand years. I have been in school for a long time, and I didn't turn on my cell phone until I had a meal and a bath. I went to Q and found that he added me. He looked at me sympathetically after I told him my bad experience of getting lost. Since then, the label of "road idiot" and "confusion" has been stuck on me. At that time, there was no smart phone and the internet speed was slow, so I began to fall in love with him on QQ. Online, there are too many similarities with him. I once exclaimed that I was a twin, and I once boasted that "if you don't date, you should become sworn." You said dating was good. Feelings are dark and lovely.

He will read my article, so he appreciates it. The reason why "comparison" is used is because He Manxiu is not sweet-talking, does not like to praise others, and praise is also an understatement, such as "I read your article, which is not bad." There has never been such a tone "Wow! How can you write so well! I am very grateful. "

Too many coincidences doomed the spark of the second meeting. He invited me to visit the university town. Jeans and T-shirts are standard items in my life. I wore a skirt for the first time when we met for the second time. It seems that pretending to be gentle is not cheating, but the gentleness of the woman is stimulated. For him, I also specially permed my hair and was willing to make a change. I swear to God, I didn't like him then. Maybe I just don't want to be an ugly duckling when I meet him grandly. I still remember getting off at Central West Road by bus. He was calm when he saw me, and I was shy. His old bike took me to visit one landscape after another.

He took me to the playground. It was fun. There is also an entertainment water area, and I also went down, only flooding my lower body. I didn't expect a bunch of guys to start splashing water when they were full and had nothing to do. Oh, my god My hair has just been permed, so I'm afraid of getting wet. The coat is wet again. It's really unlucky and embarrassing. You should have guessed why it's embarrassing. No matter how abstract I look, I am still a woman. I hid aside to clean up the mess until I was better, and I deliberately kept my distance from him. At that time, I could really talk. Even in such an awkward environment, I can talk in Kan Kan. He is a science and engineering boy, whose logical thinking is n times stronger than mine, but he still has a literary heart. It was a good match for me.

From there, he took me to the Pearl River. Facing the picturesque scenery, I feel lyrical. He grabbed my hand and tried to shake it off, but his heart thumped and his heart suddenly accelerated, like a heart attack. In the end, I didn't leave him, but let his hand hold mine, and I walked with him, even to the end.

Passing through the Pearl River, I came to the endless grassland in the university town, and there was no one around. The wind is blowing gently. He said I was cute, he said he liked me, and he said … suddenly he kissed me. You kissed me without my permission and took my first kiss. Is this too soon? It's hard for me to accept being shy. I pushed him away again.

What a foolish, chaotic and uncivilized girl, severely bound by 5,000 years of traditional thinking! Today, I seem as simple as a blank sheet of paper. A man's primitive impulse to you can only prove that your charm is so great that he is out of control. This is something worthy of women cheering and setting off firecrackers to express their joy. At that time, I felt afraid that love would come too fast like a tornado and I couldn't understand his hormonal impulses.

Later, I also went to many places with him, and the places I walked through left a mark on my heart. I still remember that he helped me celebrate my birthday that year. I still remember my different interpretation of cultural relics when I went to Chenjiaci with him to listen to history in the morning. I still remember that it rained that afternoon, and there were no pedestrians except the two idiots watching the river with umbrellas. Plans for a night cruise by boat have also been broken; I still remember that at dinner, he personally cut vegetables and played hot pot, and then sang K with him and his friends.

It was blue at that time, and I gradually fell in love with him. I like the way he plays basketball; I like that he is better at math and English than me; I like him to listen to me quietly; I like him touching my head like a puppy and whispering "fool"; I like his literary talent which is weaker than mine; Even like him kissing me. ...

Sometimes I play a little prank, just to liven up the atmosphere. I have the qualities of an actor.

For example, once I said to him nervously, "honey, I'm sorry." Please promise me not to get angry first, or I won't say anything. "

He was a little nervous and said, "What's the matter? Well, I'm not angry. " I was a little smug when I saw you cheating on me, but I still pretended that you wanted to forgive me.

He was anxious for me to speak quickly, and I said hesitantly, "I didn't study for myself or play today, but promised you to study hard and didn't do it." Hey. "

He breathed a sigh of relief and said, "That's it? Scared me to death, I think ... Alas.

I said, "Hey, what do you think is wrong with me? Think I eloped with a boy? Ha ha.

He said, "Don't scare me like this, my heart is almost beating out ..."

Hehe, I'm glad to see that he cares about me. I am very touched. I shed tears and my shirt is wet. Hey hey.

One day, when it comes to fooling, it is said that the masses fool the director as a spoof, and the director fools the masses as a hype.

I am affectionate and lyrical. I said it was customary for me to fool you, but it was illegal for you to fool me. I will only lie to you in the future, and you are not allowed to lie to me, hehe.

The smelly tiger said, "Are you so arrogant? Well, I have no choice but to like you who is overbearing. From now on, I will learn to bear hardships, learn to be spoiled and learn to make a crying face. Ha ha.

Let go of me, tiger. I like you. Let me tell you something. I don't want to fool you. Enlarge the big heart.

Sweet time is always short. At that time, it was said that the mobile phone was very bad, and there was often no electricity. There was no city network, so I rarely made calls. I said I would take the special edition and customs declaration exam, but I ignored him. Even QQ is rarely used. Frequent contact leads to our feelings becoming more and more indifferent. But I haven't realized that I have a problem, but I blame him for not looking for me automatically as a boy. But I don't reflect on whether I deserve him.

I hate him for being cold, but he believes in poisoned chicken soup nervously. He gave me the cold shoulder, and I want to give him the cold shoulder. In fact, his indifference may be more inclined to follow my wishes and give more time to review, but he ignores women's duplicity. I have also made the mistake of being self-righteous and judging others.

When everyone finally faces the dilemma of finding a job; When he was ready to say goodbye to me and go back to his hometown to find a job, his mood was more complicated than ever. He should think I don't love him, right? In fact, I love him very much, including that he wants to break through the front line with me. I refused because I loved him and just wanted to keep the last card. I trusted my mother too much at that time. She said don't let men succeed, afraid of being unattractive, afraid of being abandoned, afraid of being suspected.

At that time, like me, he had never been in love and was ignorant. He never discussed future ideas with me to enhance my sense of security. I guess I don't love him after I have been attacking the city and plundering the land without success, and my heart is even colder. Although I used to have a smooth mouth, I never touched him or even told him I love you. So our relationship is getting weaker every day. I haven't taken it to heart yet, and I don't do anything to remedy it. I am so stubborn and stubborn like a man! If I could be coquettish and lovely at that time, why didn't you warm me up? It is estimated that you will show your sincerity and turn luck into luck.

At the end of February 2009, when I heard that he was going back to his hometown to find a job, I was shocked and willfully blocked his way and refused to go? It's naive. I thought that respecting his opinion meant loving him and holding back my tears. I felt that he should not be petty and delay his future. Actually, I have 10 thousand who don't want to be separated from him. I still remember the day when I last saw him, and the day when I left him. It was chilly in spring. I wore a beautiful but thin dress. It was beautiful and cold. In order to impress him ... it was as beautiful as it was at first sight.

I walked with him in high heels for three hours, tired but happy. I held his hand tightly, fearing that the chance to hold his hand in the future would be as rare as a giant panda.

We thought it was a short separation, but we didn't expect to meet again. Since ancient times, he has been sentimental and sad to leave, especially at the vernal equinox ... Later, he returned to his hometown. Something happened, and he said a few words of reproach to me. It is these words that make me conclude that he doesn't love me. March 8 is Women's Day, and I had a tearful Women's Day. I deleted his cell phone while crying, and vowed never to contact him again! I also learned to be silent, like a robot. The thought of him makes my heart tighten and my eyes blur.

I drank a bottle of beer that day and it was quite enjoyable when I drank it. I couldn't help crying silently when I was sitting on a stool waiting for the bus. If I hadn't been drunk, I would have ordered five or six bottles, and I would be dead tonight. Not dead or drunk, the most terrible thing is not being raped by hooligans. Are you afraid of ghosts? At that time, I felt that I would lose the whole world without him.

I wrote the last untitled sentence for him:

God's will makes people sad, with sad eyes and blood in their hearts. Is it wrong to miss the past and forget your dreams?

The road is dark, the liver is cracked, and first frost is dead. Saw the eagle with broken wings, heartbroken Momo!

Then someone pursued me, but I never felt a heart attack again. He is really not very handsome, I am more handsome than him in men's clothes; He is not tall, only one meter seven; His literary talent is inferior to mine; But that's all. He is something I can't forget.

It's been a long time since we broke up, and I don't go to Q. I used to write poems for him and put aside my words. Until 12, I went to Q again, and his friend Zhu Xiao told me about him, saying that he also deleted my mobile phone when I ignored him! When he tried to get me back, he couldn't find me. 10, he also left a message in my space, but I ignored it. Piggy also said that I was heartless, that he remembered me, and that he wouldn't stop until he ignored me.

Yes! I'm sick. I ... Why am I so heartless? I thought he didn't want me, and my poor self-esteem drove me to find him. You got it? Now that I think about it, how much is face worth? Are you happy to ruin your life's happiness for face?

Piggy also said that he was married, and she was much worse than me. Ha ha. I should be happy to hear that I am better than others. But I shed tears. I despise myself. What's the use of being so good? Lin, you boring science man, I hate you to death! He is married, but there is nothing in QQ space. It is impossible to know whether he is dissatisfied with her or afraid that I will be sad. Piggy also sent me her photo. Why does her curly hair and round face look so like me at first sight? The tears in my eyes flowed out more.

I opened the QQ space again, and it turned out that he had sent a message to find me. It turned out that he had read my article. It turned out that after he got married, he also saw my art photos. It turns out that every piece of paper still has traces of his visit. ...

Please forgive me for narcissistic thinking that he still has feelings for me. Because in his talk, I found another talk about me: time has changed a person's appearance, status and even identity, but the best memory of that life will never fade. I didn't name names, but I knew it was me, and I was in tears again. I despised myself again, and suddenly I seemed to fully understand what he had done in those years.

He restrained his male instinct and respected my every decision. But, science and engineering boring man! I want to ask you loudly: "Why are you so kind to me?" Why do you respect me so much? Why not simply and rudely conquer me? "So we will never be apart. Alas, I only shed tears.

Did he ever know that from beginning to end, I Han Yu wanted to get married just for him? He kissed me because he liked me, but I didn't understand; He wants to possess me, because I am also his first love. It is difficult for a 22-year-old boy to remain calm and be a gentleman when his blood is boiling. He never forced me to do anything I didn't want to do. He said he was afraid that I would hate him. He will pity me when he sees me crying. Crying is my killer. But I didn't understand it in place; He is inarticulate because of his personality, man show, his love for sweet words, and his commitment to the future because of his frankness, fearing that what he said can't be done, but I didn't understand it correctly.

In hindsight, I realized that I didn't take me back to his house not because I didn't love him, but because I didn't have confidence and was afraid to part ways.

What's the use of knowing after the fact? I have lost him who was so kind to me. If I knew his heart, I would go to him regardless. Or if I can say what I think of him, the ending will be different.

Forget it, why dig deeper? The skull hurts too much. Bless him. Thank him for accompanying me for a period of time, and for enlightening me in my ignorant emotional desert. I hope he doesn't die well, don't give up studying, and don't degenerate into a greasy person. Let bygones be bygones, drift with the wind and live in the present. I will also live a more exciting self.

Some people say that time is the wound to heal emotional changes. No, it's not how to stir a cup of coffee, but whether to put sugar in it. The pain is not in so hard to forget. The key is whether you have the courage to love again. Sweet hurt, hysteria, tears, farewell to him, life remains the same. Although I used to want to be with him all the time.

Birthday wish this year: If you read this article, you will encourage me, criticize me, sympathize with me and bless me. Don't be stingy with your language.

Thank my friends for helping me celebrate my birthday on the fourth day of the ninth lunar month. The new calendar is 65438+1October 26th, but that's enough. Gratitude.