Listening to the Buddhist songs, I felt so sad that I didn't know what to say.

Then look what you did. Say it! As long as you don't give up, besides, what are you doing well for? Just be worthy of your parents, brothers and friends before you die. You can do more good deeds and be more sentimental than me. Don't listen to grievances. Relax, connie. Are you afraid of killing people? I'll be fine, too. Accept yourself from now on. Your family needs you.