Long Renqing's Tangseng Meat

I have been with my grandmother since I was a child.

It seems normal for children to stay with the elderly in the city-parents are busy at work, and it is natural for the elderly to take care of their children. Take my grandparents for example. At that time, they all worked in TV stations. Grandma is the host and dad is a reporter.

According to Baba, grandma was really busy at that time. She is very busy during the day and even busier at night-all kinds of parties are always held at night. Grandma often starts to make up when night falls, dressed up, appearing on the stage in high spirits, smiling at the camera and looking full of hope for life. Dad said that he used to joke with grandma privately, saying that her schedule and working methods were better than those of lesbians who called her "girl" first, then "miss" and now "princess". Grandma squinted at dad and said she would tear his mouth off. Dad said that he would never play such a joke on grandma again. In fact, Baba is very distressed by grandma. Dad said that at that time, grandma went home every day looking tired and tired, and she couldn't wait to lie down and sleep without taking off her makeup. Nothing is better than the dazzling "life is full of hope" on the screen. Dad always prepares some supper for grandma, beats her back and rubs her shoulders when she needs it. Dad also said that at that time, grandma loved to hum a song, and one of the lyrics was "My nights are getting more and more"-"For her, it is true." Dad said.

Tell me more about my father. My father is a reporter and goes out to interview every day. This is necessary. He always goes to the countryside to go to counties, although it is not necessary, but it is also frequent, so he is also very busy, not much worse than his grandmother.

Two people are so busy, it is natural to put me at grandma's house.

Put it at grandma's house, and naturally be close to grandma and have feelings. But for my parents, I am a little indifferent.

I remember that it was the weekend, and my parents were not very busy, so they came to see me at my grandmother's house. In my memory, there is a recurring plot: ABBA and grandma arrive at the door. When they rang the doorbell, grandma knew from the previous phone call that they were coming and shouted my name: "Ren Dan, your ABBA and grandma are here!" Yelling to open the door. The door opened, and I leaned against my grandmother, looking at the two adults in front of me with a calm face. "Ren Dan, quick, quick call ABBA!" Grandma looked down at me with a smile on her lips, encouraging me constantly. My parents' eyes were full of expectation and hope, but I said nothing. I looked at my grandma and my parents, then turned and walked away, and continued to play my game or something. I didn't feel anything wrong at that time. Now that I think about it, I didn't think the new person was very important to me at that time, or even had nothing to do with me, so I had this "contempt" move.

"Ren Dan" is a name given to me by my parents, which means a wise man, but I didn't like this name since I was a child, and the reason why I didn't like it was related to my grandmother. Grandma is from Qinghai Lake. She speaks pure Tibetan in the pastoral area around the lake. Her name is Ren Dan in Tibetan, and she lives in a pastoral area around the lake. It sounds as if she is shouting "meat and eggs" in Chinese. When I was studying Chinese in kindergarten, every time I heard my grandmother call me that, I would shout loudly in Chinese: "I am not a meat egg, I am not a meat egg!" " "

But later, my name really became "Meat Egg".

I put it at grandma's house because grandma lives in Xining city, which is also an important reason my father needs: grandma lives in the city and grandma is far away in the grassland. In this way, he can face my grandmother calmly, and he can also face those female colleagues who are usually nosy and nosy about other people's affairs, and he can confidently deal with their problems, such as why I was not placed in grandma's house, but in grandma's house.

Grandma lives in the city because grandpa bought a house in Xining after retirement. At that time, it was fashionable for retired cadres in the county to buy a house in the city. After my grandfather retired, encouraged and urged by my grandmother, he also bought a house in the city with everyone. "In this way, you can see your daughter every day and take care of their children!" It is said that this is the biggest reason why grandma persuaded grandpa to buy a house in the city.

My grandfather, an awesome figure, has been working in counties and counties, and has done almost everything: cadres of transportation bureau, secretary of agriculture and animal husbandry bureau, clerk of culture and education bureau, deputy secretary of party branch of Tibetan hospital, principal of boarding primary school, deputy director of rescue office of Gesar epic ... crossing the border is incredible.

Once, my father-in-law talked about my grandfather, and he said, "My father-in-law is really talented. He can do anything! "

Grandma glared at her father and asked him, "Are you praising him or telling a joke?"

"Of course I praised it!" Dad said at once, with a sincere face.

Grandma looked at Dad carefully and found that there was nothing evil in Dad's eyes. She said, "There is a shortage of talents between counties. Like my dad, he is bilingual in Tibetan and Chinese. It is even less to write some words, do some translation, draft a notice, and sort out a meeting minutes. Many units have to dig everywhere. "

After grandpa retired, a company intended to rehire him, but he declined politely. Lured by the beautiful vision of "seeing his daughter every day and taking care of his children", he came to Xining with his wife, who has been a family member all his life and lives in downtown Xining. I don't want to, but in the city, he is very uncomfortable. The house in the city is not like a small courtyard in the county, but a room separated by cement. The toilet is at home, even the living room and kitchen are next to each other. Cooking, eating and going to the toilet are all at home. He is not used to it.

"Eating at home and taking a shit at home," he said, "is an act that only the legendary savage named Lalo will have!"

He is not used to greeting his neighbors, but they are expressionless and don't respond. Once, my grandfather was clamoring to go back to the county seat. He just doesn't know it. At that time, he was terminally ill and had not realized his vision of taking care of his daughter and children. He died the year after he moved to the city.

I was born the year after my grandfather died. Shortly after I was born, my parents took me to my grandmother's house. According to my parents, my arrival made my grandmother, who was lonely and miserable, see the hope of life again. At first she always said, "Why didn't you come earlier?" Express my regret that grandpa didn't see me before his death. Later, grandma suddenly understood: I am the reincarnation of my grandfather!

It is said that when I was just able to speak, my grandmother always liked to ask me in Tibetan: "Who are you, meat egg?"

"I am Ren Dan!"

"Then where are you from?"

"Come from home!"

"What was your name before?"

"My name is Zhidan!"

It is said that every time my grandmother hears this sentence, she is too excited to know what to do. Every time she held me tightly in her arms and kissed my little face with tears and said, "I knew you wouldn't leave me alone in this city!" " "

Grandma's sentence needs to be explained here: my grandfather's name is Zhihua Tenzin. According to Tibetan custom, the first word and the third word are often used as abbreviations of four-character names, so my grandfather's name became Zhidan. According to the reincarnation theory of Tibetan Buddhism, it takes a year for a person to return to the world through the underworld after death, and the reincarnated person will certainly remember some things in the past life, such as names. I said my grandfather's name. Based on this, I can judge that I may be the reincarnation of my grandfather. After I went to college, my grandmother, who was already ill in bed, told me these past events. I smiled and said to my grandmother, "Yes, I am the reincarnation of my grandfather. God specially asked me to accompany you! "

"Are you going to take me to many places?" Grandma is very happy to hear my words.

"Of course, I'll show you around!"

I sat beside my grandmother's bed and prayed for her speedy recovery. Looking back, I judge that I always mistook Ren Dan for Zhidan because of my lisp.

But how correct this mistake is!

What parents didn't expect was that grandma, who was a family member in the county all her life and couldn't speak Chinese, quickly adapted to the life in the city, and even learned to buy food in the nearby supermarket and go out for morning exercises in the morning.

My grandmother even thinks it is much more convenient to buy things in the supermarket in the city than in the county. At that time, there was not an open supermarket in the county. No matter what you buy, you must call the clerk first and ask him to take it for yourself. In this way, you are asked to say what you want to buy. Once, grandma went to the county store to buy honey, but she didn't know how to say "honey" in Chinese. She gestured for a long time, but the salesman was still confused by the monk Zhang Er. In desperation, she suddenly stretched out her arms and ran to the store. As she ran, her mouth buzzed and she learned to look like a flying bee. Then, she "flew" to the clerk who was still at a loss, stopped, crouched down, pointed to her back and said, "That's it!"

Grandma always laughs when she talks about this past, as if talking about other people's business.

There is more than one joke about grandma shopping. Once, grandma went to buy a small mirror. She didn't know how to say "mirror" in Chinese, so she said to the salesman in Chinese, "That thing, when I look at it, it looks at me, and when I laugh at it, it laughs at me!"

Now in the city, when you go to the supermarket to buy things, you can just walk in and take out what you want, without asking the salesperson to get it yourself, which saves you the trouble of speaking Chinese with the salesperson and makes grandma feel a lot more convenient.

I don't know when I was left at my grandmother's house. I have lived in my grandmother's house as long as I can remember. Grandma takes me to eat, talk, walk and play during the day, and she sleeps with me at night. It was not until I went to primary school that my parents took me back, and I realized that this was my home. Knowing this, my little heart suddenly felt a little sad. I always thought I was grandma's child, but I had to leave her. I remember at that time, I missed my grandmother every day. When I was at school, I looked forward to the weekend every day. On weekends, I can go to my grandmother's house in a hurry.

I also miss those days at my grandmother's house, and my little heart has learned to remember.

I remember when I was three years old, I went to kindergarten. Grandma does one more thing every day: send me to kindergarten in the morning and pick me up at night.

The Tibetan calendar year is coming, the Lunar New Year is coming, and the kindergarten is also on holiday. One day, I was sitting on the sofa watching TV, which was introducing the Spring Festival delicacies from all over the country.

"Grandma, I want to eat!" I watched TV, swallowed my saliva and shouted at my grandmother who was lighting a lamp in the Buddhist shrine.

Grandma lit the butter lamp in the niche, recited a paragraph and came up to me and asked, "What can my meat and eggs do?"

"Grandma, I want to eat these, please make them for me!" I pointed to the TV and said.

Grandma looked at the picture on TV with a blank face. She turned to me and said, "Grandma can't make these things. They eat, but grandma can't eat! "

"What would grandma do?"

"Grandma can cook mutton pilaf, butter tea, and Baba with a lot of brown sugar!"

"I don't want to eat these, I want to eat these! These are all for Chinese New Year. Didn't you say you were going to celebrate the New Year? "

"We don't eat these in the New Year, we eat' ancient paintings'."

"What is an ancient map?"

"'ancient map' is cooked with nine delicious things, delicious!"

"Then I'll eat' ancient paintings'!"

"Ancient paintings are only eaten during the Chinese New Year, baby!"

"I want to eat, eat now!"

"That won't do, it's for Chinese New Year!"

"Then I will celebrate the New Year, and now I will celebrate the New Year!"

My words choked my grandmother, and her mouth was half open. She looked at me pouting and coquetry, picked me up and said, "Well, grandma will make you ancient paintings, and we will celebrate the New Year now!" "

On that day, my grandmother took me to the supermarket to buy all kinds of materials needed to make "ancient paintings" and made me "ancient paintings" at night.

Later, when Abba and Auntie learned about this incident, they looked surprised, blaming me for not being sensible, and blaming my grandmother for spoiling me too much, saying, "Where can I eat' ancient paintings' for the New Year in advance?"

Grandma smiled and said, "We celebrate the New Year in advance and eat' ancient paintings' in advance. Is it against Buddhist teachings? "

Dad and grandma have nothing to say.

Let's talk about grandma's "morning exercises".

Grandma's "morning exercises" are still somewhat different from others.

When she was still in the county seat, she got up every morning, and the first thing after washing was to go to the temple to turn the scriptures. When I arrived in the city, the temple was gone, and I didn't know where to turn over the scriptures. I remember when I first went to kindergarten, my grandmother once picked me up from kindergarten and took me to the supermarket to buy food. I want to play in the street because I don't want to go straight home. My grandmother took me another block and saw a park by the roadside. Many people are walking in the park. Grandma took me to the park. I didn't know until I grew up that this park is called Hutai Park, which was built on the basis of a well-preserved ancient tomb. In the center of the park, there is a huge mausoleum. People who come here for exercise will walk around this mausoleum.

Since the discovery of this park, grandma has often gone to this park to join the walking crowd. But the difference is that almost everyone walks counterclockwise, only my grandmother walks in the opposite direction and walks clockwise. She kept shaking the wheel in her hand, chanting six-character mantra in her mouth, and was puzzled as she walked in the face of people who kept coming.

Grandma walked clockwise to conform to the direction of Tibetan Buddhism. This is called right winding. When my grandmother went to the park for the first time, she was surprised to find that people were not walking on the right. In my hometown, only a few people who believe in Boni "turn left and right" when turning over scriptures.

Pedestrians are also a little surprised at the old lady. One weekend, my grandmother took me for a walk in the park, and several old ladies stopped her. They said to her, "You are going the wrong way. You should go this way!" " "Say, gesticulating with the hand.

At that time, I had learned to speak Chinese in kindergarten. Whenever grandma goes, she doesn't understand Chinese and asks me to be an interpreter. At that time, grandma had understood the meaning of several old ladies from their actions, but she still asked me to translate it for her.

"Grandma, they said we were going the wrong way!" I translated in Tibetan, "This is the way!" I motioned with my little hand.

By the way, I want to talk about calling grandma grandma, which was after I went to kindergarten. Before that, I always called my grandmother "Amarolen", which is the name of my grandmother's old home around Qinghai Lake, meaning "old mother". However, later I went to kindergarten and learned from teachers and children that "Ama Lauren" should be called grandma.

I remember the first time I renamed my grandmother, she thought I was lazy. She omitted the word "Grandma Lauren" and called me "Lauren" directly, so she said to me, "Meat and eggs, plus grandma!"

"The teacher said, no!" I'll refute it immediately.

Later, grandma stopped caring about this matter, and I began to call grandma safely.

I remember that day, my grandmother's face changed immediately after listening to my translation. She glared at the old lady who had just talked to her, and didn't know what she said. Then she lowered her head and said to me, "Meat and eggs, let's go!" " After that, I took my hand and strode forward, leaving several kind old ladies behind. When we turned to the second lap and met these old ladies again, she didn't even look at them, grabbed my little hand and walked straight past them.

On weekends, my parents came to see me at my grandmother's house. My grandmother asked my parents, "Do city people believe in Bonism?"

Abba didn't understand what she said at the moment, until she told Abba what happened in the park in detail, and Abba suddenly realized.

Dad smiled and told her: "Grandma, those people are exercising, and it has nothing to do with menstruation!" " "

"Is it necessary to' turn left' when exercising?"

"No, it's not meridian, so you don't have to worry about them. Just' turn right' according to your method. "

"If I go right, how can they talk about me?"

"It's okay, you just' turn right'. They are used to' turning left'. When they see that you are different from others, they will say it and will not say anything in the future! "

Grandma thought about it, and she also found that no one really said anything to her from that day on. When the old ladies see her, they will greet her with a friendly smile. Once, it was my little meat egg who asked her, "Grandma, why don't we go like others?"

Grandma grabbed my hand and replied, "We are Gruba (a sect of Tibetan Buddhism founded by Zong Kaba, commonly known as Yellow Religion), which is different from others! Just follow grandma Loren! " Say, pull me forward, whether I understand or not.

Having said that, I'd like to talk about the third reason for putting me at my grandmother's house, which is to learn Tibetan.

Living and studying in Xining is naturally in a completely Chinese environment. In the future, children will go to school and be taught entirely in Chinese. So my parents always have an idea in their hearts, that is, let me learn Tibetan with my grandmother and not lose the language left by my ancestors. I didn't live up to my parents' expectations. I can speak Tibetan fluently with my grandmother, went to kindergarten and learned to speak Chinese.

People who meet people walking in the park sometimes meet face to face, say hello and stop to chat. On weekends, grandma took me for a walk. At that time, I was grandma's personal interpreter. I have a string of Chinese and a string of Tibetan. Those old ladies thought it was funny and praised me in front of my grandmother, saying that I had grown up.

"When I grow up, I will take you around the world!" One of the old ladies said to grandma, and then looked down at me, waiting for me to translate it to grandma.

"I don't understand you!" I speak Chinese.

"What she means is that when you grow up, you will take grandma to many places!" Another old lady robbed the white road.

This time I understood, so I translated this sentence to grandma.

Grandma was very happy to hear that. She grinned and immediately said in her nonstandard Chinese, "She grew up and I died!" " "This is the Chinese level that she can express clearly.

"How can you talk like that!" The old ladies opened their eyes wide and were a little surprised at what my grandmother said. This sentence may have touched their taboo, and it seems that people are more taboo to mention the word "death" when they are old.

"That's true!" But my grandmother doesn't understand this. She smiled and said, "She grew up and I died!" " "

The old ladies quieted down and then walked away, ignoring me and grandma.

"Grandma, what do you mean dead?" Walking home from the park, I asked my grandmother.

"Dead, dead is that you can't find me!" Grandma answered in a language I can understand.

Grandma's words suddenly scared me a little. I grabbed my grandmother's hand, looked up at her and said, "I don't want to lose my grandmother!" " "There was a cry in his voice.

Seeing that I was about to cry, my grandmother leaned down and picked me up, kissed me on the cheek and said, "No, I won't miss my grandmother, my meat and egg lolo (lolo: Amdo Tibetan nickname for children)!" " "

Strangely enough, just the day after my grandmother told me that I wouldn't miss her, news came from my grandmother's hometown that the temple in my hometown had invited the Dade monk of Ta 'er Temple to hold an initiation ceremony in my hometown. This is something that a devout Buddhist cannot miss. Grandma wants to attend, but she's afraid she won't let me go. That night when I was asleep, I called my parents and asked them to pick me up. I was transferred to my parents' home in my sleep, but I didn't know it.

The next day, I woke up from my dream and opened my eyes. I found that my grandmother was not around, and everything in front of me was strange, even the sunshine coming in from the window seemed strange.

"grandma!" I let out a cry and rolled over and sat up.

"wake up, meat and eggs!" Grandma pushed the door and came in.

"Where's Grandma?" I asked grandma.

"Your grandmother has something to do and will be back in two or three days." Grandma said.

I suddenly realized something and immediately climbed down from the bed without shoes. I went straight out of the bedroom, crossed the living room and went outside, shouting, "I want grandma!" " "

Grandma quickly hugged me from behind and said, "Good boy, grandma will be back soon!" " "

I struggled to break free from holding my grandmother and cried, "I can't find my grandmother, she is dead!" " "

My words startled my grandmother. She hugged me tightly and asked me in surprise, "Who said grandma died?" Who told you that? "

"I can't find my grandmother! Grandma is dead! " I turned a deaf ear to grandma's question and cried like this.

Grandma was at a loss, just holding me around in the living room. I was crying and struggling.

It is said that grandma asked for leave to take care of me that day.

My crying that day made my grandmother very helpless and had to call my father. Dad, who was interviewing outside, quickly handed over his work to his colleagues and hurried home. Two people joined hands to calm me down, but I kept shouting, "I can't find my grandmother!" " Grandma is dead! "

What Abba and Auntie didn't expect was that Grandma rushed back to the city that night. She only attended the initiation ceremony for three days.

Seeing grandma, I immediately threw myself into her arms and cried even harder. I just cried all day, making my voice hoarse and unable to make a sound, so it was even sadder to cry.

"Grandma, why are you back?" Grandma asked my grandma.

"Don't come back? I knew you two couldn't mess with her! "

"But the Enlightenment is not over yet!"

"Well, I don't have the blessing to listen to Lama's initiation. My blessing is to listen to the cries of meat and eggs! " Grandma said: "Fortunately, after listening to the enlightenment of eliminating disasters and diseases, I pray that my meat and eggs will be free from disasters!" "

At that time, CCTV was broadcasting the TV series The Journey to the West. Every day when I come home from kindergarten, the first thing I do is to turn on the TV and watch Journey to the West.

Grandma doesn't know Chinese, but she can understand the story of Journey to the West. The Journey to the West has long been translated into Tibetan and widely circulated among the people, but his name is not The Journey to the West, but The Biography of Tang Priest and Lama.

"Look at the biography of the Tang Priest Lama!" Grandma put me on the sofa and then turned on the TV.

One day, it was shown on TV that several monsters arrested Tang Yan and wanted to cook him and eat his flesh.

"Why do they want to eat Tang Yan meat?" I asked grandma.

"Eat Tang Yan's meat and you will live forever!"

"What is eternal life?"

"Immortality, immortality means that you can find him at any time!"

I looked at my grandmother and asked, "Just don't die?"

"Yes, it's not dead! My meat and eggs are really smart! " Grandma hugged me and kissed me on the cheek.

In front of the kindergarten where I study, there are many small shops selling snacks that children like to eat, but my parents won't let me eat these snacks, and they specially told my grandmother that they couldn't buy them for me, saying that they were "junk food". Grandma is also very serious and never lets me eat these things. Among these colorful commodities, there is something called "Tangseng Meat".

After watching the story of eating "Tang monk meat" in Journey to the West, grandma came to pick me up again the next day, and I pestered her to buy me something. Grandma finally agreed to buy me a pack of "Tang seng meat" in the canteen on the premise that I kept crying and told my parents never to know.

When my grandmother gave me "Tangseng Meat", I immediately smiled through tears and gave it to my grandmother.

"Grandma, this is for you!" I said.

"Grandma doesn't eat these!"

"Grandma, this is' Tangseng Meat'!" I said.

"What is this?"

"This is Tangseng meat!" I speak loudly in Tibetan.

Grandma looked at the parcel doubtfully.

"Eat the Tang monk meat, grandma will live forever! I can find you at any time! "

"How can this be Tang Yan meat!"

"Yes!" I pointed to the Chinese characters above and read them to my grandmother. "Tang, monk, meat!" " "

Grandma looked at the bag doubtfully again, but she understood what I meant. She picked me up, kept kissing me and said, "Grandma, eat now!" "

Her tears wiped my face.

However, my grandmother didn't live forever. She left. Just when I can take her around the world.

As she once said, I grew up and she left.

I miss my grandmother, my grandmother Roland, every moment.