"Do you have a boyfriend?" "I have."

In the year of graduation, I was still a rookie, stumbling and unable to do anything well. Luckily, I met him-Song Dacheng.

Song Dacheng and I are in the same office, and he always guides me intentionally or unintentionally.

Gradually, I like him.

I'm not sure if he has a girlfriend.

In this way, I had an affair with Song Dacheng.

Later, his words broke the window paper: "Do you have a boyfriend?"

I replied, "No."

"Now that you have it, shall I be your boyfriend?"

I bowed my head and said nothing, then looked up and smirked at him: "All right."

In this way, Song Dacheng became my big brother.

02: Sweet Time

A small office, you can see Dacheng when you look up. He will give me a hand when he is busy, and we will chat when he is not busy.

There was no fire in the paper, and another colleague soon found out, and often made fun of us, saying that she didn't have to eat every day, but she could eat our dog food.

On the first weekend together, Brother Dacheng and I went to the zoo to play.

While waiting for the bus, I found him swinging from side to side, uneasy and coughing. Just when I wanted to ask him what was wrong, my hand was tightly held.

I tried to break free and said, "It's all people."

Although I have worked, I am not young, so it is the first time for me to be hugged.

Inevitably, there will be some tension and panic.

Of course, Brother Dacheng didn't let go of my hand. It took him a long time to summon up the courage to hold that hand. How could he let go easily?

He didn't speak, but he held on tighter.

The bus came and we crowded on it.

On weekends, there are many people in the car and the space is very small. He stood behind me, holding my waist with one hand and the armrest of the roof with the other.

I was uncomfortable at first, so I tried to keep my distance from him.

I can't help shaking the car very loudly. He put his arm around me, grabbed the seat and circled around me.

I shrank my neck and shook my head gently, indicating that he was too close, breathing in and out, itchy.

There is nothing to say all the way, but my heart activities have come back and forth thousands of times.

Brother Dacheng not only didn't receive this signal, but deliberately gasped and made me blush.

When I got off the bus, I walked in front, strode quickly and pretended to ignore him.

Brother Dacheng caught up with me, grabbed my hand, smiled and said nothing.

I pretended to take my hand out of Dacheng's brother's, but my strength was no match for him.

My face is calm, but my heart is so happy.

Finally, I arrived at the zoo. Those furry animals kept me childlike and started the chatter mode.

"Wow, look at that giant panda. It's so cute."

Brother Dacheng pretends to please: "Not as cute as you."

"I want to touch it."

"You can't touch it, but there is a Dacheng cat around you. You can touch him. "

I turned my head and was captured by his sincere eyes. I subconsciously picked up my hand and touched it gently on his head. Furry, like touching a giant panda, I am very satisfied.

There are many animals in the zoo, each of which is my favorite. I am full of praise and love. Brother Dacheng pretends to be angry: "Since your love is so rampant, can you give your love to Brother Dacheng?" ! "

"How can they compare with you?" I don't want to be unhappy.

"So, am I cute, or are pandas, giraffes and monkeys cute?"

"Of course, Marxism is the most lovely thing in our family." I pretended to be telling the truth.

Walking out of the zoo, I grabbed his arm tightly before he took my hand.

"Why do you hold so tightly? I won't run. "

"You walk so fast that I can't keep up with you." I made a random excuse.

"Hum ..." He smiled contentedly.

"Let's go, Brother Dacheng will take you to eat delicious food."

"good!"

Just graduated, meager salary, I can't wait to break a penny in half.

Fortunately, I have a meal ticket.

Of course, only on weekends.

At work, I firmly refuse to let him pay for takeout, and I must stand on my own feet.

We meet every day at work and try to go out to play together on weekends.

Later, in private, he called me "wife" instead of my nickname, and I renamed him "husband". He thought that he and I would be together for life, and so did I.

03: Contradictions appear.

When I graduated from college, I couldn't resist my mother's indecision and came to Shanghai. My first job was introduced to me by my mother.

Because of my mother, I met Dacheng. Because of my mother, Dacheng and I parted ways. After that, it is impossible.

Brother Dacheng and I are in love, but I still can't hide it from my mother. Of course, I don't want to keep it from her, but I want to tell her when the relationship is stable.

I always come back late every weekend. My mother asked me what I was doing, so I had to tell her everything.

"He is very kind to me and I like him very much." Under the nourishment of love, I am full of confidence in my relationship with Dacheng.

"Where is he from? Does his family have a house and a car? "

It's not that we haven't discussed this problem. Even if Brother Dacheng and I don't eat or drink, we will struggle in Shanghai for ten years, twenty years, thirty years and fifty years ... Forget it, we can't afford a house in Shanghai all our lives. Here, Brother Dacheng and I are destined to be just passers-by.

It doesn't matter where he is, it's home.

When the relationship is confirmed, I will follow him back to his hometown and stay together for life.

People in love are always too idealistic.

"Break up, I don't allow you to be together. I raised you by myself, not to let others pick up a bargain for nothing and serve other people's parents. What would you do if you left me alone in Shanghai for a lifetime? "

When I told Brother Dacheng everything, my mother strongly opposed it.

She never wants to marry her daughter to a foreigner who can't afford a house in Shanghai.

It's not that I haven't thought about my mother Of course, I can bring her to live with us if she wants. If she doesn't want to, I will often go home and have a look.

In her eyes, I am her precious daughter. However, in Shanghai, I am just an insignificant working girl, and I dare not dream of finding a person with a house and a car in Shanghai.

I didn't expect my mother's questioning to complicate my relationship with Dacheng.

Every weekend, we will still be together, but my mother stipulates that I must go home before 6 pm.

Shanghai is so big. Brother Dacheng and I live in the suburbs. It will take a long time to go out to play, just on the way.

For this reason, my mother and I always had a big fight, saying that I didn't listen to her and found fault, that my cooking was not delicious, and that I didn't know how to wash clothes at home on weekends, so I went out to play. Whenever I feel unhappy, I have a cold war for several days, either not talking to me or losing my temper with me for no reason.

I know it's not easy for my mother to raise me alone, so I have to swallow it.

My unhappy mood was finally discovered by Brother Dacheng, who asked me what had happened recently.

I opened the box and said that I had told my mother about him. My mother disagrees and still doesn't want me to get married unless you buy a house in Shanghai.

"It's not that you don't know the conditions of my family. How can I afford a house in Shanghai? "

"I know, I don't want you to settle in Shanghai, but my mother is my only child and I can't come with her. My mother said that if I left with you, she would break off the mother-daughter relationship with me. From then on, whether she lives or dies has nothing to do with me. She doesn't recognize me either, and she never sees me again. "

Brother Dacheng was frightened. I didn't expect my mother and I to have such a stiff relationship because of him.

"Well, you should put in a good word with your mother."

"I said, I try my best to please her every day, but she just doesn't want to, and she is always against me, saying that I am not good here or wrong there, and I can't go out with you in the future. My mother asked me to come back before 6 pm. In the past two weeks, she has had a cold war with me for a long time because she didn't go home with you until 9 o'clock. "

"Why didn't you tell me earlier!" Brother Dacheng is unhappy.

"It's not that I don't want to worry you! Now, I really have no choice. "

Brother Dacheng tried to hug me, but I dodged because I was in the company.

He came back in despair without saying a word.

Later on the weekend, I really didn't go home until after 6 o'clock.

I dodged my mother's story, but Brother Dacheng was unhappy.

"How old are you? Can you have your own opinion? I am in love with you. Why do you have to listen to your mother, whether you are important to your mother or to me? "

"What can I do? I don't go home and she comes to me again. What can I do? "

He can still have his own family without me. I grew up in a single-parent family, with my mother alone.

Brother Dacheng and my mother have never met, but because of me, they are at daggers drawn.

On the first holiday together, I asked Brother Dacheng to bring something and come home with me to visit my mother, hoping that they could meet and ease their relationship.

Brother Dacheng refused, and he was a little scared.

I didn't expect the people who wanted to be with me at first, but now they don't protect me because of my mother.

I am very angry, breaking up for the first time.

He agreed without hesitation.

A few days later, he left because of his job transfer. We didn't say a word before he left.

04: We broke up again after getting back together.

My relationship with my mother has not eased because of his departure. My mother stopped messing around, but I didn't pretend to please, and I became cold to my mother.

Half a year later, Brother Dacheng found me and wanted to get back together with me.

I agreed without thinking.

I don't want to feel like thinking about it day and night.

When we were together again, he was more considerate to me.

But he still doesn't want to see my mother. He knew that if he wanted to be together, he had to convince my mother.

"Have you ever thought about our future?" I asked him angrily when he refused to see my mother with me again.

"It's not that I don't want to see your mother, but that you are an adult. Will you stop being a mother? You are what your mother said. Your mother wants you to be in Shanghai and you are in Shanghai, but you know my family conditions. Why don't we go back home together? "

"Didn't I say I would like to go with you, but I don't want to fall out with my mother. My mother is my only daughter. I want to know her. Even if we get married, we will often come back to see her. If possible, we can pick her up. "

"I don't want to go."

"Why?"

"I don't know what to say."

In this way, we broke up again

I'm the one who broke up.

05: "Do you have a boyfriend?" "I have."

I haven't heard from him for a long time since I broke up with him.

Later, it was late, he would call me and talk a lot, and I would listen to him.

Sometimes, he calls me without saying a word. He said nothing, and I said nothing until he hung up.

Less than a year later, I met my current boyfriend-Shen Shen.

I can't say how much I like him, but why am I still with him?

One of the main reasons is that he can meet my mother's requirements and live in Shanghai.

When I was with Shen Shen, I was no longer the little girl who couldn't even hold hands.

I still like Shen Shen, right? Otherwise, I wouldn't use a couple's head with him.

However, why do I keep watching Dacheng's circle of friends for fear of missing any news from him?

When I visited the amusement park for the first time, Brother Dacheng's funny appearance when he was afraid of heights remained in my mobile phone. I still remember the taste of cream on his mouth when eating ice cream; He said he would marry me and go home. I still feel sad when I think about it.

Brush to his circle of friends, the first dynamic after breaking up, the picture is hot pot, and the text reads "She says she doesn't like kelp."

That sentence is what I once said.

He promised me that he didn't want to face my family with me and he never forgot me.

I just want to strike a balance between my mother and my boyfriend.

I don't want to be my mother's enemy or give up my boyfriend.

In less than a year, Shen Shi and my parents met several times. Just when things were about to come out, my mother asked for hundreds of thousands of bride price money, but Shen Shi said she couldn't get it out. I also fought with my mother, saying that she was selling her daughter. My mother said she didn't want his money or the bride price money. She just helps to keep it. I can look for her whenever I want.

I couldn't beat my mother, so I explained it to Shen Shi in detail. Shen Shi said that he couldn't come up with so much money, so he could only come up with a part. Both sides regard me as a message bucket. After a long time, I lost patience with this relationship.

I broke up.

That's it. I don't want to get into any relationship, I don't want to get into marriage, and I really want to escape my mother's control. I just want to live alone in a quiet place, so that I can go to the end of my life quietly. Many times, I think so.

Unlike Dacheng, Shen cried and apologized to me when we broke up, saying that he loved me and could not leave me.

I couldn't bear it, so I gave up and continued to be with Shen.

Although Shen Shi doesn't like my mother very much, she is still reluctant to bring gifts to please her future mother-in-law during the holidays.

Brother Dacheng can't do this, but Shen can.

Shen Shi has many bad habits, which I hate. He likes smoking, drinking and singing bad songs. I told him to give up smoking, but he agreed, but he never did.

Brother Dacheng doesn't smoke or drink, which is good for me, but he just doesn't want to see my mother and think about our future.

06: Remember to tell me when you get married.

My relationship with Shen Shi is deadlocked because of the bride price.

At this time, the WeChat chat interface jumped out of Dacheng's message and said, "You must be good."

"Very good." I said.

After a night of silence and a year and a half of separation, Brother Dacheng suddenly came into my life.

I tried my best to forget Brother Dacheng. Unexpectedly, his words brought me back to my original shape.

Then one night, he said, "No matter what, you must remember that there is someone who likes you very much."

"What's wrong with you, are you still in Shanghai? I haven't heard from you for a long time. "

I don't know why I said that. We can still be friends after breaking up. After all, we used to like it so much.

"Do you have a boyfriend?" He asked.

"I have." I admit it.

A year and a half have passed, but Brother Dacheng still hasn't forgotten me. Are you still waiting for me?

"I used to call you my wife. I really thought we could be together forever. Your answer just now let me know that we are completely over, but I am still very happy for you. Really, I told you that day, don't make friends when you get married. Don't let me know, I'm afraid I can't stand it. Now I don't think so. When you get married, be sure to send me a message and tell me the address. I will silently watch you get married, see what kind of person you choose, and delete everything that should be deleted. Be generous, we can't be friends, we can only be the most familiar strangers in the future. I said too much, goodbye to my lover. "

"You must be very good. I will always bless you. "

I didn't tell Brother Dacheng the truth.

My life has not changed for the better because of Brother Dacheng's departure, but it is still as bad as ever.

I still have all the memories of Dacheng, and I still like him very much. So what? It's not that we haven't tried to be together. After breaking up, our relationship has not eased. No matter what, we can't be together.

When I realized that it was not only in this way that we could be together, I knew I had grown up.

I wonder if I will get married. Even if I knew, I wouldn't tell Brother Dacheng.

We can't go back.

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