At what moment did you feel like a retard?

The moment I quarreled with my boyfriend, I felt like a retard. Because when I quarrel, my aura is quite strong, just like a queen. But in a few seconds, I mainly gave up. Suddenly, I felt like a retarded person, and I took myself to the sky, and I fell heavily. This leads him to be an unreasonable party. I remember we had a fight last week. I had a good chat with him, and then he suddenly said he had something to tell me. Wait a minute. I waited for about half an hour and fell asleep directly. When I woke up the next morning, he sent me a message. I took a look and didn't reply to him, because I was really sleepy.

Later, he subconsciously complained that I couldn't love him every time I saw his news. That really hurt me. I am very unhappy. Every time he wants to find you, he comes to you, no matter what you are doing. If you want to find him, you can't find anyone. There is always a feeling that your boyfriend is someone else's home. It may belong to Lao Wang's family next door. And every time he leaves me, the reason is always because he wants to play the glory of the king, or play basketball with his classmates, or swim. These three reasons are circulating every day.

In fact, there are many feelings in my heart that he doesn't know. So we had a big fight. But afterwards, I bowed my head again, because I didn't think I should say it so badly. Don't give others a step. I think I hurt his face. In fact, I am a mean person myself, and I don't want to make things so ugly many times. Although he does make me feel weak. But several times I chose to keep my head down.

At every such moment, I always feel that I am mentally retarded, and I will always regret it afterwards. If you don't apologize, you feel that you have hurt others. If you apologize, you have hurt yourself. Actually, I don't think there is anything wrong with myself at all. Falling in love means two people understand each other. If he can't appear when you need him, what's the point of such love? It's like we had another fight yesterday. So I choose to work hard today, I don't want to talk to him, I don't want to bow my head, I don't want to be mentally retarded all the time. ?

There are many times when you are in love that you will lose your mind. I don't know why. And every time I lose my mind, I feel mentally retarded. People who may fall in love are always in a morbid state.