A pair of gold bracelets

I always have a pair of bracelets in my heart, soft and pure gold. One is on my wrist, and the other is on the wrist of a half-sister, but she is like a compatriot.

She is the daughter of my wet nurse Ayue, born in the same month as me. She is half a month, and I am the end of the month, so I named her Ayue. My mother told me that when we were about one year old, our twins were held by the same loving mother, waving four small fists, kicking two pairs of chubby legs and sucking rich milk.

Because my mother had no milk, she entrusted me to the wet nurse in the neighboring village thirty miles away. Besides breast-feeding, we have half a salted duck egg and a big bowl of thick porridge every day, which makes us black and fat. A year and a half later, my aunt insisted on taking me back, and soon I was taken to Hangzhou with my mother. The twin sisters parted ways. Before leaving, my mother took out a pair of gold bracelets that my aunt gave me. One is on Ah Yue's hand, and the other is on mine. My mother said, "Both sisters live long."

When I arrived in Hangzhou, my uncle looked at me like a piece of black charcoal, with a flat nose and cross-eyed, and asked my aunt if she had brought back the wet nurse's daughter by mistake. Aunt said angrily, "Her mother comes to see her every half month. How could it be wrong? Who wants to give her daughter to others? "

Mother explained, "Little things sit in the mud every day to blow and bask in the sun. Why not black? Cross-eyed, it must be two sitting opposite each other, watching cocks fight during the day, watching vegetable oil snuff at night, seeing eyes fighting, and Ayue is also fighting. " This made everyone laugh.

When I grow up, my skin is not so dark and my eyes don't fight. My aunt proudly said, "My daughter has changed since she was eighteen. Maybe she will become Guanyin in the future." But both I and Ah Yue are often told as jokes by menstruation's mother. Every time I talk about it, I clamor to go back to my hometown to see my stepsister Ayue.

When I was seven years old, my mother took me back to my hometown. The first thing I did was to see Ah Yue and see who we were. Tears welled up as soon as the wet nurse saw me. I want to know why you are crying. Am I really your daughter? Ah Yue and I are in my mother's arms, looking at each other from a distance, and we don't know each other at all.

I saw her feet from beginning to end, and felt that she was not dressed as beautiful as me, her skin was darker than mine, her nose was flatter than mine, but her eyes were bigger than mine, staring at me. The nurse came to hug me and asked me if I remembered nursing. I said a lot, but I can't remember. At that time, there was only one mystery in my heart, so I must tell Ah Yue directly. After eating the egg vermicelli, the two people are no longer so strange. Ah Yue pulled me to the low wall outside the back door and sat down.

She touched my thick braid and said, "Your hair is so black."

I also touched her thin yellow braid and said, "Your braid is like a loach."

She pursed her lips and said, "I don't have a hair tonic." I quickly took out a small bottle from my pocket and handed it to her and said, "Hey, here you are, perfume essence."

She asked, "Is it for wiping hair?"

I said, "I put it on my hair, face and hands. It smells good. " She smiled, and two front teeth fell out, just like me. I suddenly became happy and took her hand and said, "Ah Yue, my mother always said that we were wrong. You are me and I am you. " She said wait a minute, "I don't understand what you said." I said, "Aren't we twins? Aunt and wet nurse can't tell who is who. Maybe you should come to my house. "

She stayed for a long time, and suddenly she shouted loudly, "You are talking nonsense, you are talking nonsense, I won't play with you." He turned and ran, leaving me outside the back door, and I cried. My mother came to pick me up and blamed me for quarreling with my sister.

The more I think about it, the sadder I get, and I cry my eyes out. The nurse also blamed Ah Yue and said, "Look, Koharu is Miss Butler now. How gentle she is. " Hearing her say this, I have butterflies in my stomach. I don't want to be an official. I just want to be friends with Ah Yue.

Ah Yue's cheeks are bulging and she still looks very angry.

Mother pulled me and her into her arms and squeezed Ayue's chubby hand. She is wearing a silver bracelet and I am wearing a pair of gold bracelets. Mother took one from my hand and put it in Ah Yue's hand, saying, "Sister, are these gold bracelets one for each person?" Of course I don't remember the first pair of gold bracelets. The nurse said, "I'll put that gold bracelet away and put it on her when she gets married." Ah Yue lowered her head and touched the gold bracelet, which jingled on the silver bracelet. The wet nurse took a long time to take out a black cloth bag from her blue shirt, opened it and took out a shiny silver dollar. She handed it to me and said, "Koharu, the wet nurse will buy you candy." I held it in my hand, still warm. Looking at Ah Yue, Ah Yue suddenly smiled. Two people went out to play hand in hand again. I was so happy that I never dared to mention the sentence "both of them were wrong" again.

I stayed in my hometown until I was twelve before I went to Hangzhou, but Ah Yue and I couldn't play together all the time. On the one hand, it's a long way, on the other hand, I have to help my mother farm, cut wood, fetch water and feed pigs, and many things have to be done well. And I have to recite The Analects of Confucius and Mencius every day, so I can't go to Ayue to play freely.

But during the holidays, either she comes or I go. We ate like bees and gave each other many gifts: she gave me a pit girl (a doll made by a country girl) with flowers wrapped in branches, and even pebbles picked up from a stream, rings and collars woven with fine bamboo branches; I gave her British brand cigarette boxes, rhinestone hair clips and printed handkerchiefs. She also taught me to dye my nails with henna juice. It is rare for two people to be together, and they will not get tired of playing and chatting.

But as soon as I returned to Hangzhou, I lost contact with the other party. She can't read and write letters I seldom think of her when I have new classmates. Once I heard an English teacher say Mark? Twain's twin brother fell into the water and drowned, Mark? Twain said, "I don't know whether I drowned or my brother." The whole class laughed.

It suddenly occurred to me that Ah Yue had come, and there was no reply when I wrote to her. It's not easy to miss someone after being apart for too long. But every time I tidy up the drawers, I am a little disappointed when I see the gadgets that Ayue gave me. With the growth of age, especially without my older sister, I can't help thinking of her from time to time. Mother has already returned to her hometown alone and lived a lonely and secluded life. When I returned to my hometown at the age of eighteen, my mother's temples were spotted, and my wet nurse was even more white-haired.

The nurse held my hand tightly. Her hand was so rough and warm. Tears rolled down her eyes again, and she just murmured, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back, and finally I can see you." My nose is sour and I can't help crying.

Ah Yue has been married for a long time and is busy with farming, so she can't come to see me right away. More than ten days later, I saw the long-awaited Ayue. She is carrying a child on her back, holding a child in her arms, wearing a printed shirt and trousers, and there is a pigtail like a loach on the back of her head. It turns out that this 18-year-old girl is already the mother of two children. At first glance, I saw that she was wearing a gold bracelet on her left wrist, and I was too old-fashioned to wear it. I was ashamed.

She actually called me: "Miss, I haven't seen you for years." I quickly said, "We are sisters. Why do you call me Miss Big? " The wet nurse said, "When you grow up, you should have rules. I said, "We are different. We grew up eating your milk. "The nurse said," Ah Yue's life is not as good as yours. She became an adopted daughter at the age of fourteen and is now the mother of two daughters. I just hope that her stomach will live up to expectations and give birth to a son as soon as possible. "I was so sad to hear that I didn't know how to answer, so I had to say that I invited them to go to Hangzhou with my mother. The nurse shook her head again and again and said, "where can people farm?" "I don't have the money!" I looked back at my mother. She sighed and shook her head. It turned out that even my mother didn't want to go to Hangzhou again, and I felt at a loss.

That night, Ah Yue and I lay side by side on the big bed and put our two children in it. While patting the children, we talked about the trivial situation after we left. She shed tears when talking about her mother-in-law's suspicion that she would only have a daughter. Speaking of her husband, she showed an affectionate shyness. I really wish her a happy marriage. I also told her some interesting and naughty stories in school. Sometimes she giggled and sometimes blinked her eyes, as if she didn't listen. I suddenly feel that although we are so close, we live completely in two worlds. We can't have fun together as we did when we first got home. When I talk to her, I have to think of some common words that are not so flattering. I can't laugh and laugh like my classmates and understand what I said at once. I just looked at her gold bracelet, glowing slightly in the yellow vegetable oil light. She touched the bracelet affectionately and said to herself, "This bracelet was given to me by your wife when you came back as a child. The one I gave at the age of one has been sold because my father is ill and has no money to buy medicine. " By wife, she means my mother. When I heard her call me that, I felt that the distance between us was far away again. I just stared at her and said nothing. She added, "Dad still can't save you. At that time, you have already gone to Hangzhou, and you just want to tell you but you can't write it. " I don't remember what her father looks like, but I feel sorry for Ah Yue. I asked her, "Why did you get married so early?"

She smiled and said, "I'm not married. My mother asked me to go. My parents-in-law lent money to my mother to build a grave. My mother-in-law wants me when she sees that I will still help with things. " When she said these words, her eyes were always half open and half closed, as if telling a story. After a while, she opened her eyes, looked at my hand and said, "Where's your gold bracelet?" Why not wear it? "I was a little embarrassed and said," Keep it, because I can't wear it at school, so I won't wear it. "She sighed and said," You are lucky to go to school. I am a country woman. Mom is absolutely right. A person's life is like a scale nailed to a nail. There is no turning back. " I said, "You have to fight for your life." She said, "How can you fight your life? "

She looks a little depressed, but she still smiles. I don't think her mother would have such a comparison mentality if we didn't eat her milk together, so don't tell her too much about this, lest she be unhappy after knowing too much.

Life experience is different. Although we are nursing in the same arms, I have the opportunity to receive education because my family background is different. How is she? Being a filial daughter-in-law, a hardworking wife and a loving mother who is happy to have children is the happiness of her life. Although I know that the distance from her living environment will get farther and farther, our hearts are closely tied together and connected with each other, because we are "twin sisters", we have sucked the milk of the same mother, and the blood of the same composition flows in our bodies, and we bear the same love. Thought of here, I suddenly can't stop tears rolling down. Because I am going back to Hangzhou to continue my studies, although there are many classmates, no one has ever made a fist. But what ability can I have to take Ayue's mother and daughter to live in Hangzhou? Y=

She has big breasts. Clap your hands with one hand and stare at the baby wholeheartedly with a satisfied look in your eyes. I can't believe that this girl, who is only half a month older than me, was once a fully mature mother. What about me? Besides eating books, I will only be uncomfortable with my mother and angry with myself. I feel very ashamed.

Ah Yue is very tired, patting the child to sleep. The gold bracelet worn by Huang Chengcheng on Ayue's wrist shows that there is no electric light in the countryside, the room is very dark, and only the faint candlelight of the bedside plant oil lamp is flashing.

I think of the joke that my mother often told me that two children looked at snuff at each other. I also think of the expression on my mother's face when she returned to her hometown when I was a child, and she took off a gold bracelet in my hand and put it on Ah Yue's hand. I really feel that Ah Yue and I are tightly locked together. I looked at the two rushes under the vegetable oil lamp, leaning together tightly, sucking oil together and burning a snuff, no matter how small, it was also a complete snuff. I think Ah Yue and I are the kind of snuff, emitting mild light and heat for a long time.

Ah Yue hurried back with her children the next day, with the big one on her back and the small one in her arms, a little woman who looks so strong and can carry heavy burdens. I touched the faces of two children, and the older one grinned at me. The baby slept soundly. I kissed my cheek, and the smell of milk suddenly made me feel grown up. I said, "Ah Yue, when I earn money after graduating from college, I will definitely take you to Hangzhou to play."

Ah Yue smiled and her big eyes were wet. Mother suddenly remembered something, ran upstairs in a hurry and took something. It turned out to be a small silver bell. She tied it to the baby's arm with a red rope. He said, "Koharu wore this when he was a child. Give her a bite! When you have a son, I will give you a golden lock. " Mom is always so kind and careful.

After returning to Hangzhou, I took out my gold bracelet from time to time, put it on my arm and looked in the mirror once, then took it off and put it in the box. At this time, the gold bracelet is not only a souvenir for me, but also something that closely touches and looks at each other with Ah Yue, the twin sisters. How can I not love?

However, in wartime, due to the lack of tuition fees, I had to move after graduation. As a last resort, I cut off the gold bracelets one by one and sold them, turning them into money emergencies. At the beginning of Taiwan Province Province, I spent the last money of the gold bracelet. I remember when I took it to the silver shop for cash, I didn't feel anything. Is it because I am out of chaos and lost my life, which has numbed my heart?

It's been half a century since I said goodbye to Ah Yue, and it's been 35 years since my mother died. My wet nurse wanted to die, and the gold bracelet went up in smoke. But when you are old, what you can't forget is the old things, and what you can't forget is the relatives in your dreams. Ah Yue, where the hell is she now? What kind of life does she lead? Where are her children? Can she still wear her gold bracelet? However, in any case, I always have a pair of gold bracelets in my heart, one in my own hand and the other in Ah Yue's hand, which my mother put on us.

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