Hello, Li Guangshuo.

I haven't heard your name mentioned for a long time, and I haven't heard from you for a long time Although we still live in the same city, we haven't seen each other for a long time. At the class reunion, my friend was a little drunk, so I started to count my former classmates. He mentioned you at that time. He said that you failed to start a business after graduating from college. Fortunately, your family has money to help you do business. Say that you are married and your daughter is almost two years old. I said that my married life is not good, that I am different from before, that I am no longer a simple and happy teenager, and that I have become impatient and impetuous. When I heard them talk about you, I suddenly felt sad. You are so strange. Are they talking about you? Li guangshuo

I used to think that Li Guangshuo was the whole youth. I used to think it would flow in the body like blood. I used to think that our story would be like that tree without rings and never grow old. However, how long passed, I didn't think of you again, and I didn't think of your gorgeous attendance in my youth.

I don't know if I am old when I write these stories about the past. All I know is that your short name is just three words, just like the hand of fate knocking on the door of my memory. I have no time to refuse about your years, and I can't refuse. You see, I never mentioned you, but I never forgot you.

The beginning of a story is always ordinary. I am a transfer student. I just came to the classroom to introduce myself. The whole class looked up at me. There is only one person in the last corner of the classroom, and that person is you, Li Guangshuo. What surprised me was not that you didn't look up, but that you were carefree with headphones on. In that high school where everyone studies hard, your appearance can be regarded as something else. What surprised me even more was that the teacher ignored you. She just glanced at you faintly, and then her eyes never stopped. Finally, she said, Starfish, sit in the empty seat next to Li Guangshuo first, and then we will readjust our seats after the exam. I'm actually quite unhappy in my heart, because you make me feel so arrogant, but one thing I can be sure of is that you are definitely not a person who loves learning. A minute later, I found that I had not guessed wrong. You sit in your seat and look down at the basketball briefing. Under your stool, a basketball stands out.

Yes, this is you. You are crazy about basketball.

After you read the basketball briefing, you found another me sitting next to you. You looked at me, put your face on the table when the teacher turned around and said with a smile, "You are my first deskmate." I'm not talking to you. Of course I won't talk to you. After going through exams again and again, I know what I came to this high school for. You see, I don't respond, but I keep talking. Only when I lower my head and finally bury myself in the pile of books will you stop chattering.

The days passed quietly, and you chattered with me in class as usual. You told your experience, your favorite stars, the jokes you saw, and then laughed at yourself at the table. I still played dumb and didn't answer a word. I am deeply tired of you. I hate it when you tell a joke that is not very funny when I am doing the problem seriously, regardless of my feelings, which makes my mind unable to concentrate. However, I soon found that other girls in my class envied me as your deskmate. They always like to ask questions around me after class, "Starfish, where is your old school?" "Starfish, go shopping this weekend, will you go?" Then, the question comes, "Guangshuo, is there a competition in our class this week?" Let's go and cheer for you! "At this time, you always look bored, completely without the cheerful appearance when telling me jokes in class. All you have to do is say, "All right, come along." There was no invitation in the tone, but they seemed satisfied and ran away with a smile. I don't understand why arrogance, people like you, are so popular. You are the darling of girls in the class and a good buddy in the eyes of boys. You take them to play ball and win glory for the class again and again. However, you have never been presumptuous in class because of this. You don't like studying, but your homework is always neat. Even if you copy it, it is true that you always say, "I don't like studying, but it is an attitude problem that my homework is not done well." "I think this is why the teacher can tolerate you. You don't like studying, but you still respect your teacher. Of course, I didn't know all this until later.

But these have not changed my opinion of you, because you still annoy me. Finally, one day, when you told a cold joke and laughed at yourself, I broke out: "Li Guangshuo, are you going to tell me everything you haven't said since you were a child?" I don't want to hear it. Just because you don't like studying doesn't mean I don't like it either. " I saw the smile on your mouth suddenly stiff, and the brilliance in your eyes suddenly faded, like fireworks that disappeared after blooming, leaving no trace in the sky. You said in your usual weak voice, "Starfish, this is the first time you have spoken to me." I didn't expect you to be so sensitive, even such words seem to make you sad. However, after that, you really don't tell those boring jokes in class. You either shut up, go to sleep or read a book of Tagore's poems. After class, you rush out with your basketball in your arms, throw a few three-pointers at the time in ten minutes between classes, and then return to the classroom sweating. You and I haven't met for a long time. I know you are angry at my words, but I am happy without your interruption.

One day, I came home from school, previewed my homework, and prepared to take out the set of simulation questions that I just handed out in the afternoon. However, I searched all the books, but I couldn't find them. Have you ever had a moment when something was in front of you and you didn't think it was precious? However, when you can't see it, you think it is indispensable. You didn't have to do that set of papers, but at that time I was obsessed with finding them. I ran back to school and saw the school gate locked in the distance. My heart was half cold, but as I approached, I saw a man standing against the street lamp at the school gate. In the evening of summer, the city slowly spits out the hot air sucked in during the day, and there is a hot air everywhere. I saw you standing so quietly, taking your time. Your broken hair is dyed orange by the light, and your angular face is half in the light and half in the shadow. I slowly slowed down and felt inexplicably moved. At that moment, I found your face so handsome in the light, and I seemed to have a hunch that you were waiting for me.

I finally walked slowly to your side. You weren't surprised to see me coming. The air stopped like this. We all stood under the street lamp without speaking first. Finally, I heard you rummaging in your schoolbag for a while, and then handed me the paper, "Good student." I took it silently, said thank you and left. You suddenly called me "It's getting dark, I'll take you back." I looked at the mosquito-bitten bag on your face and nodded. You suddenly smiled happily and followed happily. Along the way, you rambled and told all kinds of funny things as before. I found your jokes quite funny this time. I couldn't help laughing for a long time, and you chatted more happily.

"How did you know I would come to pick up the newspaper?"

"You are a good student, you are a good student with obsessive-compulsive disorder. If you can't find it, you will definitely come. "

"Are you just waiting?"

"Otherwise I don't know where your home is."

I only remember that the stars in the sky were full that day and the way home was short.

Li Guangshuo, look, it's been so long. I still remember you waiting for me under the street lamp. You see, I never remember you, but I will never forget you.

Since then, you have been as active as before. You said, "Starfish, is this ok? I know you have a class, but if I see a particularly good story, can I tell you, you know, I panicked? " Your eyes are so sincere that I can't help laughing. Time passed unhurriedly, neither accelerated by our good relationship nor slowed down by the upcoming exam. Finally, the exam is over, and I got the second place in my class. You are still the same, firmly staying in the bottom ten. You made a fuss about my grades. I winked at you and you suddenly blushed. I'm surprised that my glasses almost fell off. There was a group of people in the class at that time, and you became the object of my help smoothly. You kindly invited me to eat ice cream. You said, "Starfish, I want you to help me so that we can always be deskmates." I watched you eat ice cream with satisfaction and thought to myself, you are really worthless.

When there is a game, you always pull me to cheer for you, and I always shout myself hoarse because I do my duty. Li Guangshuo, I don't know if you have noticed, but I am actually a withdrawn person. I only study in my life, but because of your sunshine and happiness, I have become a positive person step by step. I'm better because of you, and I always thought so. When you scored the goal, you waved to me proudly. I give you a thumbs-up sign to tell you not to be proud. You always get messages. Seriously, Li Guangshuo, you look really handsome on the court. Your red sweatshirt jumps on the court like fire. Your every movement is so agile, fast and full of power. I see that all your opponents are afraid of you but appreciate you, so I think this is your battlefield in my heart. I was still daydreaming when you all came back to me. You put your hand over my eyes twice and said discontentedly, "I knew you didn't watch me play seriously." I pass you the water with a smile. After you take two sips, start from the beginning. In the sun, you shake your head like an animal dehydrated for yourself, so relaxed. I can clearly remember such a scene.

How time flies! We are going to be senior three. I received your message on time on New Year's Eve. You said, "Starfish, do you want to see fireworks?" I said, "All right." I sneaked out of the house. You wore a dark green down jacket and a black cotton hat that day, which was very energetic. By contrast, I seem too casual. I laugh at you. Why are you dressed so handsome? Are you going on a date? An unintentional question, but you admit the fact, "would you?" I don't know how to ask such a sudden question. Li Guangshuo, it's not that I don't understand that you are indifferent to all girls, but you talk endlessly to me. But I just said, "I don't understand." Fireworks exploded above our heads and people came and went in the square. They passed us with smiles and squeezes, and we froze opposite like focal planes. Colorful fireworks are in full bloom in people's cheers, and there is excitement and peace everywhere when the New Year comes. I can't see the color of fireworks, only hear the thunder that resounds through the sky when it blooms. I don't know what you read in my eyes I see loneliness in your eyes. I don't know how long it took, the fireworks fell, the crowd began to crowd, many people dispersed, and the child cried for his mother. People are always like this. Seeing the prosperity, they hurried home. At this moment, you took my hand. You push too hard. You said you were afraid that I would be excluded, so I followed you, and nothing needed to follow you. The way home seems lonely. You magically took a scarf out of your pocket, put it around my neck a little awkwardly and said, "Happy New Year!" " "I look at you smirking. You said, "Starfish, Starfish, I want to call your name several times. "Story here, always seem to be very sad, I also sad because of your tone. I have been worried about something, and sure enough, when I got home, I saw my mother's gloomy face.

The next day, the teacher changed seats. You were still in the last corner of the classroom, and I moved to the first row. I know my mother must have come to school to find a teacher. I saw you being called to the office quickly, with your head down from beginning to end, without looking at me. My tears can't help spinning in my eyes, and my hands are tightly holding the declining report card. But, Li Guangshuo, you are an innocent person involved. I have no freedom since I was a child. My life is always gray. You let me see the color of youth. However, in this world, if you are excellent, others will get used to it. When you are a little depressed, the whole world will investigate the reasons for you. Isn't that what the world is like? How I want to stand up and speak for you. But what can I say?

You won't talk to me from now on, Li Guangshuo. How many times I was about to walk beside you, but you always ran away like an escape. I never heard a word from your mouth again. I miss the days when you told me jokes. I always dream that we are on the basketball court, and you come running to me after playing in the sun. Your head and shoulders are covered with golden sunshine, and your steps are light and fast. You smiled. When I woke up, I was sad. Li Guangshuo, I want to apologize for my mother. I don't know what she said to make you hate me so much and never listen to me again. I don't know who to tell my feelings to. I'm back to the way I used to be, and only sports accompany me every day. I live in such an environment. I have no choice but to study hard for freedom. My grades have gone up again and I have never come down, but I almost never laughed again. Occasionally hear my mother sigh. She always gives me a glass of milk when I study in the evening. Then I heard her sigh. She said, "Daughter, don't be too tired." I didn't look up, only answered "hmm."

Later, at a class meeting, the teacher suggested that everyone recite poems. You raised your hand, even though you never spoke in the corner. The teacher's eyes were a little surprised, but then she encouraged you to go to the podium. This middle-aged woman is gentle and demure, and her face calms my heart. What you recite is Tagore's poem, which is always classic:

The furthest distance in the world

Not life and death.

But I'm standing in front of you.

But you don't know that I love you.

My heart suddenly ached. I remember the way you used to look at that book of poems on your desk. I thought you'd like it. You pointed out one of them to me, but I never cared. Later, you said, "I'll fold it up and watch it again when you are free." I give you this collection of poems. " Yes, this book has been on my desk ever since, and once I accidentally turned it up, just turning to the place where you folded it, that is, the song "The Farthest Distance in the World". Now, I watch you recite affectionately on the podium, your eyes are clear and sad, and the sunset glow gently projects your slender figure on the blackboard. I looked at your shadow on the blackboard stupidly. You seem to have lost weight. You didn't look at me from beginning to end. Finally, you bow deeply and applaud. Then you silently walked off the platform and hid in your little corner.

I don't know how long it takes to change a person's personality, but I believe this change is definitely not a day or two. You used to be so sunny, but now ... I don't know how much you have changed because of me, but I still can't help blaming myself deeply.

The countdown to the college entrance examination on the wall changed quickly, but you took a long vacation in the last three months, and everyone said you were going to transfer. I'm afraid in my heart. I'm afraid I can't even say sorry to you myself.

The story came to an abrupt end