Under what circumstances is all your efforts a big joke?

In real life, many things are beyond our control. Many accidents happened in front of us. We just found out. All your efforts and efforts will eventually become a joke in the eyes of others. Even if we don't want to admit it, even if we are deeply hurt. But still can't change this situation. Recently, I encountered this situation and felt deeply powerless.

My husband and I are college classmates. Freshman year, we fell in love, from love to marriage, to now, ten years. I always thought that there was a deep emotional foundation between us, and we would be each other all our lives. I always believed that we would grow old together. I have been working hard for the happiness of our small family.

Beautiful dreams will be broken one day. Just a few days ago, I found my husband looking for chickens outside. . I really can't accept it. I think the sky is falling. How did this happen to me? We were together for ten years and married for three years. In these three years, we have experienced marriage, pregnancy and childbirth. . But it was these three years that he went outside behind my back to find another woman and kept it from me for three whole years. I feel like a fool. I thought he wouldn't betray me when he came home from work every day, and asked me if I was very enthusiastic and careful every day.

I suddenly found that all my efforts were a joke to him. He knelt in front of me and said that he had regretted it and felt guilty, but he couldn't control himself and was controlled by desire. He cried and said that he still loved me, and I was his favorite person. He said that as long as I didn't divorce, he would accept all the punishment. And promise not to do it again. But my trust in him is gone. I think all this is just a joke.