I'm afraid of death, don't laugh at me

Text/A Girl

At night, in the dormitory, soak ginger, red dates and brown sugar water in boiling water, put them into a thermos cup, then climb into bed and prepare to sleep Went there, but unfortunately this scene was seen by a roommate. The roommate looked at his phone and said, "It's not even eleven o'clock yet, are you going to bed?"

"Yeah, it's not like you don't You know, I have to go to bed before 11 o'clock every night." I said with a smile. Before I could finish my words, my roommate said, "You have to make tea and soak your feet again, and you still go to bed so early. It’s like an old man’s life.”

“Yes, yes, I am an old man.” I replied with a smile and stopped talking. I lay on the bed. To be honest, I am an old man in the dormitory. Another kind, I get up early and go to bed early every day, I never stay up late, I live a very healthy life and exercise every day.

I have become an alternative among college students. In this world where everyone stays up late, I don’t stay up. I am an alternative to the times. In fact, when it comes to this, to be honest, I am completely afraid of death. Don’t laugh at me when I say it. , since I, a young girl under twenty years old, am afraid of death.

Zhang Xiaoxian said that we are afraid of time, but we don’t know how gratifying it is to be alive. We think survival is meaningless, but many people are struggling between life and death. When will we be grateful for everything we have?

The real fear of death came when, during the first semester of college, something happened that I will never forget. It made me want to live even more, and I was afraid of death. When I witnessed death with my own eyes, , only to know the beauty of life.

That day, the weather was very good, the school was very lively, and there were many boys playing basketball on the basketball court in the playground. I was walking on the playground, and suddenly the basketball court was surrounded by people. a lot of people. Out of curiosity, I hurried over there.

There were too many people watching. I squeezed in for a long time before I squeezed in. I only saw a boy wearing a basketball uniform lying motionless on the ground, and the people around him were helping him pinch people. Hit something. I'm not very clear either.

I only heard people around me say that he suddenly fell headfirst to the ground as if he was playing basketball. There were no signs of life. Soon doctors arrived at the scene and took away the student who fell to the ground. Suddenly this happened at school.

The school suddenly spread the news. I didn’t pay much attention at first, thinking that it would be no big deal if I went to the hospital. However, a few days later, I heard from my classmates that the boy was gone and there was no rescue.

The reason is not yet known, but he died suddenly while playing basketball. There are many reasons for this sudden death. Later I learned that the boy who died was the president of the debate association that I wanted to join a few days ago. God, I'm chatting with him.

Judging from the chats and his circle of friends, I felt that such a young young man just left without saying a word. I didn’t even say a word to him in person, and this life disappeared. in the world.

I remember clearly that one day after he left, his parents came to the school to collect his belongings. I even ran over to take a look that day. Although I had never seen the senior’s parents, they were among the crowd. I recognized it immediately.

The haggard couple held the relics of their son in their hands. Perhaps after a few days, their mood became much calmer. They held the relics of their son and did not cry loudly, but just silently. Wiping away tears with hands.

When I saw that moment, I felt inexplicably distressed. Maybe this was what the world calls a white-haired person giving a black-haired person. The child I had worked so hard to raise was suddenly gone. There was no time to say a word.

Just like that, I said goodbye to my parents, looking at the backs of the couple, the two supporting each other, as if one of them would fall at any time without the support of the other person. They just drifted away, slowly leaving my sight.

That night, the senior classmates and friends from the Debate Association prayed for this young life on the playground and sent this young man to his last journey. That night, there were many small candles flickering on the playground. Over there The road is dark and long and needs light to illuminate.

Looking at the moon in the sky like that, I was stunned for a long time, as if I still didn’t believe that the big boy who was smiling in the circle of friends, the big boy who had booked all the travel tickets, the big boy who hadn’t even graduated from college. The big boy who left.

Did you leave this world like this? He had just begun the best years of his life, and he had not yet had time to enjoy his youth. Why did he just leave without saying a word? As I watched, I seemed to see the senior in the sky.

He told me, you should live well, don’t leave this wonderful world like me, with so many things to accomplish, and leave with regrets, live well Take care of your body and see you soon!

That night, after a long time, people on the playground began to leave one after another. I also returned to the dormitory, turned on my phone, but did not dare to look at his circle of friends again. From then on, in WeChat, There is always one person, and there is one person who will never be dynamic again.

That night, I lay in bed and searched for the causes of sudden death while playing basketball. There were many reasons. For example, staying up late, drinking and smoking, sitting in front of the computer for a long time, overwork, high stress in life, etc.

The most important thing is that I did not take good care of my body. I acted recklessly and overdrafted when I was young. In this era of staying up late, not staying up late has become an alternative, getting up early and going to bed early has become an alternative, and maintaining health has become an alternative. Alternative.

After what happened to my senior, I began to pay more attention to my body. I was even afraid of death, afraid of leaving this world at such a young age, and afraid that my parents would look haggard after I left.

My parents used to tell us to take good care of ourselves when we are outside, eat on time, and not skip meals just to lose weight. I never took it to heart.

It wasn’t until I had a gastroscopy by myself that I realized that our parents’ concern was because they were afraid that something would happen to our bodies, but we always ignored them and hurt our bodies and ourselves again and again. healthy.

I don’t want to die when I’m young, and I don’t want to be sick before I’m old. I don’t want to see my parents worried about me. I want to have the best life in my life. time, there is enough physical capital.

It’s not that I don’t have time or life to do what I want to do. To be honest, I’m really afraid of death. I’m not afraid of your jokes if I say it. I have enough self-discipline to live well and go well. Feel the world.

No matter what age you are, whether your parents are with you or not, in this fast-paced society, take good care of yourself. As an old saying goes, health is the capital of revolution.

Classmates, when it’s time to eat, go to eat. Don’t always order takeaways from outside. The canteen is healthier and safer. Classmates, when it’s time to sleep, go to bed. Don’t stay up late again. Tomorrow Still here, we are in no hurry.

You only have one life, cherish it, senior, be well!

I'm afraid of death, don't laugh at me.

(I am a particle, a particle in the vast sea of ??people.)