Empty Valley Youlan Xueyan Fairy (1)

Recently, I was reading the paper version of Fairy Xue Yan's Diary of Burying Snow Mountain. I remember that I paid attention to the fairy's space not long after studying Buddhism. Many of her diaries have been read before, and many of them have not been read. There are also spiritual experiences and growth experiences written by other senior brothers Lian You. Now look at the sentiment again and it's different from what I've seen before. I've been busy at work recently, and I'm a little stressed and in a bad mood. Seeing this can reduce stress and divert my attention.

practice and study are lifelong things, which need to be persisted for a long time.

I haven't read most of the diaries before, and some of them are written by other fellow initiates. I only choose the interesting parts written by Xue Yan.

Here are two passages from Fairy's diary, which are for the reference of practitioners or interested friends.

Lord Shangguan Xia Yu, time is really running out, and there is no time for making love.

don't forget the vows you made for your own selfish desires, but take the vows of all beings. All beings have endless vows, which is no joke! You really have to do it. You promised me. You have to do it. Don't break your word!

I know it's hard for you to accept that I choose big love over small love, but I finally made the decision after watching many things and going through many vicissitudes. I know that you simply can't read my poems, articles, Buddhism, exhortations and so on.

But you know what? Many people have purified their hearts because of these things, and they have solved the poison of love flowers for many years. In the Jedi Garden, they can see the dawn, and the flowers will pick up and regain their confidence.

Some people think of being filial to their parents because they watched Songs of Grace for Parents. I do these things, in your eyes, you may think these are rubbish, you may think I am doing stupid things, I am stupid, stupid not for myself, just for others, but I have no regrets.

I have realized, from now on, but for all beings, not for myself. If I only have ten years to live, I would rather burn my life out, all of it to light up the darkness of this world, and Yi Deng can extinguish the darkness for thousands of years.

Although I am dead, these words left by my poems and articles will not die. My sad wishes and my soul will live forever and can continue to persuade people. Form can be destroyed, but soul can't be destroyed. I often hear people say, "Every man for himself, the devil takes the hindmost". Everyone in this world is for himself, but I am for the whole world, and I am the one who will be destroyed by the devil take the hindmost.

I am willing to be destroyed by heaven and earth for the sake of the whole life. I know your family's situation and family's hope. Originally, we grew up in different family backgrounds, and many concepts are different. Your family often arranges you to go on blind dates, which is normal. After all, we are the wrong people, and I know you like me very much.

However, if you have someone you like, get married! I will sincerely bless you. I went to South Africa to study this time, and I have no intention of coming back.

I must learn English well in order to reach more people. I must break through this language barrier, just like I was learning simplified Chinese characters. If I don't learn it, I can't communicate with my mainland friends. If English is not good, you can't communicate with foreigners.

These are all things to learn. I have nothing to worry about. Whether my sister wants to get married or not depends on her. And you have parents and family to take care of! For all beings, I can sacrifice anything and die.

I have been to Wutai Mountain in my dream, and I will never forget the vows I made at the top of Beitai Mountain. When I told my grand wish to the sky, snow fell from the sky, very beautiful snow, like the snow of a Buddhist relic, slowly. A

master at the top of Beitai Mountain saw it and said, this grand wish is really touching, and it is really admired by all Buddhas!

heaven and earth are shaken by it! Anyway, I just know what my ambition is. From now on, I only know what I can do. It's useless to say more. After all, there's really nothing to say. At the end of March, I'm really leaving. Thank you for being so kind to me. I am very touched.

I will never forget you in my life. I hope you can practice well and don't go through emotional robbery again.

In fact, I'm suffering these days. I'm not without worldly desires. My senior wants me to make the final decision. If I stay in Taiwan Province and marry him, he will marry me after I graduate, and I can live a good life. He recently arranged a blind date at home, and he fell in love with a nice girl, but he still focused on me. I hope I can make a final decision. Because as soon as I leave Taiwan Province, he will probably marry her. Now I am facing a judgment (

Dagy). Should I choose heaven or hell? I admit that I like him, but I have to go to Africa to fulfill my big dream. There are many buddhas in Buddhism, such as hell is not empty, and you will never become a Buddha.

I don't want to be a slogan, just shout it, but I really want to do it. Many people say that I am crazy. Why don't I agree to such a good condition? Who doesn't like a good day? Yes! Who in this world doesn't like to live a good life! Everyone is going to heaven, who is going to hell! And Africa is such a backward place, who wants to go there to suffer! The stupidest person in the world is our Xue Yan. It's really stupid enough, so stupid. As I said, I can sacrifice anything for all beings. I'm not kidding.

how long can a person's life be! How long can love last! The suffering of all beings is endless, and I can't bear to see it. Especially in that part of Africa, how pitiful the sentient beings there are! Without medical care and medicine, there are all kinds of diseases. AIDS, tuberculosis and even an unknown cold can kill people. There are all kinds of disasters, and it is simply not a place for people to stay.

it is very painful and uncomfortable for me to let go of my feelings. But compared with those suffering beings, this is nothing! Forget it. What? I'd rather not live a good life. I don't want any good life. I just want to help them do my best. It rained today, and I shed tears, because I really like him. < P > I really do. I'm not a cold-blooded animal, and I have no feelings at all. For all sentient beings, just for all sentient beings, I gave up my splendor. This is really a difficult decision, a difficult decision! Heaven and hell, this doomsday judgment, I chose hell, I went voluntarily.

I don't want to be happy for myself, but I want to save all beings. ?

for the sake of all sentient beings, it is inconceivable to be robbed in hell.

a moth wound hurts both hearts. My senior asked me to make the final decision on January 25th, 28, that is, whether to marry him or not. He gave me an ultimatum that if I didn't marry him, he would marry the girl whose parents had arranged a blind date before him. It's really hard for me to make a decision. On that day, it rained, as if crying for me again. I am crying, and the sky is crying. I'm facing a doomsday judgment, and it's hard to choose. I cried and told the sky, what should I do to marry him as a housewife or go to Africa to practice medicine for all beings to save the world? God didn't answer me, it just kept crying with me, and it was crying. Should I choose a good day or a hard day?

shall I go to heaven or hell? I am struggling painfully, and I really don't know how to choose. It suddenly occurred to me that I often read Guanyin Bodhisattva as a child, and I remembered Guanyin's sad wish. "Guanyin's bitter Sapu door products" says: "If you listen to Guanyin's deeds, you should be kind to all parties' great vows, and you will never think about it." I think of the true chapter of Avalokitesvara, who is inspired by great compassion and compassion, and it is incredible to show it. I suddenly woke up, I can't marry him, I can't stay in Taiwan Province. I can't spend my whole life in the mansion. For the sake of all sentient beings, for the sake of all sentient beings in Africa who can't smell the Dharma, I would rather take a step west than live half a step east. For all beings, I would rather give up my wealth and my life. I'm going to Africa to practice medicine and preach, which is my lifelong wish. So I turned him down by phone, which was the most painful decision in my life. He never spoke to me again, and soon they got engaged and were waiting for their marriage. Since then, everyone has their own karma, and I sincerely wish them well.

Brief comment on diary: I always thought that the fairy didn't like anyone. Until now I read this diary, it turns out that fairies have first love. For the sake of great compassion and great wishes, the fairy gave up her wealth, preferring to suffer and suffer, suffer from poverty and hunger, go to Africa to practice medicine and preach, give up little love and move towards great love, and even sacrifice her life for righteousness. At that time, when I was only 18 years old, I had such a state of concentration. It was really a bodhisattva coming again!