Pay tribute to twenty years old

I dreamed that I was standing in the snow, with thousands of troops in front and no one behind me. No one was there, so I didn't dare to fall.

These two sentences were written one day when I was twenty years old, and then I walked stubbornly for a year.

The mood of this year is like a pond washed in the countryside at the end of the year. Clear water and muddy water come in and fade away, and finally catch some fat fish to reward the reckless efforts this year. After all, the taste of these fish needs to be recorded, so that you can put on hemp fiber and get on the bamboo raft.

Rule number one: talk about people first. The more I grow up, the more I feel that feelings are a luxury. I am grateful that someone has given me love, appreciation and emotion, and also given me disdain and resentment. For the former, there is nothing but gratitude. For example, the southern girl who gave me lipstick took away a lot of negative energy and dark chicken soup through WeChat, and kept each other's secrets through more than half of China; After listening to my countless pains, complaints and unreasonable troubles, Zhang Zi finally smiled awkwardly after my cold joke was mentioned. My deskmate comes to see me every year, driving for several hours, just to listen to each other's stories. It's comfortable not to say anything You are all warm and shining beings in my life.

I still have something to say about the latter. Especially those who once cherished each other. We shook hands together and drew a heavy stroke, but later that stroke was not beautiful enough, and no one could escape the responsibility. But the responsibility is different, some strokes are badly wrong, and some strokes are badly wrong. I have suffered and apologized for my mistakes, but life is only that long, and I don't want to apologize or immerse myself in that sum. As for where you are wrong, I have no strength to pursue it again, but I don't want to pretend to be tolerant and blessed. I don't think you will be happy if some people are still selfish. From now on, in my heart, you are all passers-by, and luck and misfortune have nothing to do with me.

The second rule is to say things. When high school night self-study is impetuous, I often hear the teacher say "do something, do something". I was too careful in freshman year. I am very cautious about everything and have spent a lot of effort. Since I was twenty years old, I have done two or three things quietly in one semester, and my mentality has been much calmer.

Some things are useless, but not meaningless. Reading, writing and volunteering are all the same. I also want to continue "literature and art". It's not a matter of pretending or not, losing face. The combination of ideal and reality is a magical feeling. It is often poetic to see many different things in books and then project them into reality.

For example, in the spring, a big tree in the East Gate of the National People's Congress bloomed, and later wrote: "I sigh that there is a legacy of elegance, and I have never loved carmine since then." Poetry is useless, but compared with a person saying "white is super beautiful", I think what I see seems to be better than her.

Third, praise yourself for being more confident and determined than before. After living for so long, I finally know that people are masculine animals and like joy and happiness. The ability to create surprises for life is the greatest ability. Eating hot pot alone, watching a football match, and going to Farming steps to see the stars completed the regret five years ago. I think I am an interesting person.

If you still watch me write here after one year, I will grow into a better girl. I assure you.