I urgently need a story (touching story)

I'm not a natural narrator. The editors I contacted all said that my writing was too messy. Actually, I'm just a brain.

Simple animals. And the decade I want to describe is like a broken bonsai with lush foliage, which is a headache. Inverted mouth

Later, I chose to start from scratch so as not to miss anything in the narrative process, this cruel decade, this crazy decade.

In life, nothing can be ignored.

two

In 1994, I was sixteen years old, with red lips and white teeth, and my eyes were good at staring.

Li Xiaojun is sixteen years old, with single eyelid, high nose, slender fingers and thin lips.

He is three months younger than me, three weeks and three days.

The book of life says that women are three years older than men, or three months, and they are doomed to struggle. This is the sentence I saw ten years later, surprised.

It sucks.

Li Xiaojun is a typical bookworm, taciturn, dull and indifferent. I haven't seen a man's face since.

The appearance can be described as cold.

He is my deskmate. My desk is against the wall and the window. Every time after class, I have to wait for Li Xiaojun to leave my seat.

Going out, he is a big man, and I can't help rubbing against him when I pass behind him. This is my secret. A girl of 16 years old, no

Willing to have any physical contact with the opposite sex.

It happens that Li Xiaojun is a boy who doesn't like sports. In addition to going to the toilet and doing exercises between classes, he is prone on the table to write and draw, banging.

The persistence of mathematical problems is amazing. . . I'm embarrassed to tell Li Xiaojun again and again that you let me out, so I'll lie prone.

On the windowsill, students from the next class come and go in the corridor, chatting with other students from time to time, as if visiting the prison through the window railing.

Sentence.

Because we are deskmates, almost all activities are with Li Xiaojun, which makes me extremely angry at the age of 16.

Li Xiaojun's hands are as white as a little girl. He can't be a boy in the labor class at all. I often sweep six when cleaning.

Group B, he just swept two groups, and then I swore that I must adjust my seat for the teacher.

At that time, boys and girls couldn't talk much, otherwise rumors of puppy love would fly all over the sky.

Li Jiao and I have no rumors. Because we seldom talk.

I despise his clumsiness.

He can't understand my sentimentality.

In the first year of high school, what we said most was: Li Xiaojun, I'm sorry. He will hold a chess piece.

Say: well, good.

When I am extremely bored, I also watch them play chess. When I don't understand, I will suddenly ask: Why does the elephant walk sideways?

? Why can't the horse walk straight?

Li Xiaojun's opponents always laugh at my mental retardation. I rolled my eyes and said, I don't understand. May I ask?

Li Xiaojun always patiently explained to me. Gradually understand that chess is so fun.

Gradually, Li Xiaojun's opponent became me. When the bell rang, Li Xiaojun took a chess game from his desk and put it in my ear.

Say: kill a set.

I was fascinated by chess at that time and was fascinated by it.

As far as I can remember, I spent three years in high school and about one year in my spare time playing chess with Li Xiaojun. One reason

Things started without warning. Li Xiaojun and I, sixteen years old, had a pure dream. He wanted to be a chess master.

I want to be a famous writer.

Our hobbies did not intersect at first. Finally, I was dragged into his world, fascinated by chess, and my literary dream was forgotten.

Outside, this makes it difficult for me to describe today.

I didn't ask the teacher to change seats. My deskmate relationship with Li Xiaojun lasted for two years, and our head teacher was a boring boy.

Dear old man, he hasn't adjusted my seat for two years.

Li Xiaojun and I, there are still no rumors-that's impossible.

Because we have to race against time to play chess, it is often contradictory to cook and clean at noon every day. If we clean together,

I had to wait in line until I got a meal, so I finally agreed with Li Xiaojun that he would take this meal, and I even put all the meal tickets.

I gave it to him and asked him to help me distribute it. I am responsible for cleaning and even doing my homework. I practice good handwriting, and I am good at it.

The imitation of Li Xiaojun's font has reached the point where it is genuine.

It only takes each of us 15 minutes to finish the work, and then we will start fighting.

At that time, it seemed that I would never be tired.

Stories often don't anticipate the direction from the beginning. Just like Li Xiaojun and I, pure chess friends have also been romanticized.

Lovers.

Who let Li Xiaojun take my lunch box? Who let me and Li Xiaojun have the same homework mistakes? Who let our head hit the first one?

Stay for one noon?

When Li Xiao and I were both called to the office by the teacher, I didn't agree.

I stared at my toes, listening to the teacher's earnest, listening to Li Xiaojun blushing and arguing with the teacher, dizzy and feeling.

Everything around me is spinning, and it feels like floating.

Until the teacher waved and said, all right, you can go.

Li Jiao and I both walked out of the guidance office and walked quietly through the long corridor, with steady steps and transparent mood.

At the corner, Li Xiaojun laughed out loud. He said, that's interesting. Is this sex news?

At the age of seventeen, his face was covered with fluff. I was only one meter away from him, and looked at him with a slightly crooked head, and he looked at me.

Laughing and laughing, the expression began to stiffen.

My heart is beating. On the silent stairs at noon, he came down, gently pinched my fingertips and said, you look beautiful.

I just like you.

I ran away like a deer

That year, that day, the sunshine was fixed in my life.

three

In the first year of college, I was tortured by thoughts.

The person I love, in the distant Guangzhou, is 14 hour's drive away, and the round trip is 282 yuan.

Tickets.

Li Xiaojun and I agreed to meet every two months. I left Wuhan on Friday night, arrived in Guangzhou on Saturday morning, and then on Sunday.

Go back to school in the evening and arrive at school on Monday morning. Next time we meet, Xiaojun will come from Guangzhou and then go back. Come like this

Yes, we ran nearly ten times in two years. Finally, in the crowded and dirty carriage, we both snored.

Deep sleep.

I watched Zhou Yu's train in the cinema last year, and I cried when I watched it. People around me looked at me in surprise. How could they?

Yes, I used to be like this, running around happily on the train back and forth.

At that time, we always had endless words, as if to show each other every cell. I went to his school and lived in his school.

In the female classmate's dormitory, he came to my school and lived in my male classmate's dormitory. To make your classmates happy.

Point, we don't know how many smiling faces we have paid and how many things we have done for others.

/kloc-in the summer vacation of 0/998, Li Jiao and I both decided not to go home. In order to spend more time together, they worked as tutors to earn money.

My birthday is August 8, and I almost forgot to look for a job during that time.

I received the manuscript fee the day before my birthday, which is not small, and can almost maintain my living expenses for three months. I am very excited.

Yes I decided not to tell Li Xiaojun, and went to Guangzhou to surprise him.

On the evening of August 7, I bought a ticket, dialed the telephone of Xiaojun dormitory before getting on the bus, and hung up when I heard him say hello.

Make sure he is here.

I wondered all the way how he would look when he stood at the door of his dormitory in the early morning.

But I don't know, Li Xiaojun was on a train opposite me, leaning against the window, trying to surprise me.

I don't know where we were when we passed by. But if that day, you see two young figures, damn it

By the window, Li Xiaojun, who is 19 years old, and his girlfriend Shen Yao, who is three months older than him, are laughing happily.

This is the second time we have passed by.

When I arrived at Xiaojun's dormitory, I was told that Xiaojun had come to see me. I collapsed on the ground and wanted to cry.

I went to the reception office to call the dormitory, but no one answered. There are few people in the dormitory during the summer vacation. I keep calling.

.

Finally, there came an impatient voice. Fortunately, I know that classmate. I asked her if anyone went to see her this morning.

I, she said no, and then I heard Li Xiaojun ask her voice on the phone. He asked, classmate, do you know Shen Yao?

Where have you been?

My classmate said with a smile over there, * *, the movie is not so clever! Wait, your boyfriend is here.

Li Xiaojun just gave a cry, and I cried. I am the uncle of the reception office. I quickly handed me a paper towel. I said it was Xiaojun.

This is a surprise for you. Why did you go to Wuhan? He said today is your birthday. I want to come early for your birthday.

What a surprise.

We blamed and regretted it on the phone, and finally decided that I would wait for him in Guangzhou, and he would take a bus back to Guangzhou at night.

I sat on the steps of Guangzhou station with a full face of confetti and red eyes, and didn't drop a drop of rice. The power of love is amazing, I

There is only one wish, and that is to wait here. The first time I saw him, I threw myself into his arms and cried.

I just sat there, surrounded by people, and all I saw were couples. How happy and happy they are.

You can spend a lot of time together.

In the evening, a policeman came over and said, Girl, are you picking up the car or taking a bus?

I leaned back and said, Pick up, K57 from Wuhan to Guangzhou.

He said kindly, go to the hotel to sleep. I'm so tired.

I shook my head and said no, I'm not tired.

He said, well, girl, it's dangerous when there are few people at night. If you have anything, come to me. I am in the duty room.

I snorted and said yes, and tears came to my eyes again.

I stood on the big stone pier next to the exit, wearing a red skirt and a white coat. I searched the crowd for my jun.

Xiaojun held me down from behind and kissed me in the crowd. I'm sorry that I didn't spend 19 birthday with you.

I can't cry, my hands and feet are numb. Tears of injustice never seem to stop.

He wiped away my tears little by little with his cold hands, and finally we all laughed.

He said that I was like a faucet. When the switch turned, tears came down.

Yes, at that time, why did I have so many tears to shed?

four

In fact, at this point, I still can't find the reason for our separation.

Sometimes, love to go is as unreasonable as love to come.

Actually, we are separated. In junior year, we broke up.

Don't think I'm making up a story. Who is willing, who has the courage to love with his life?

The ups and downs of the story?

Writing here, I want to cry. But no tears. As I said, without the passion of love, it's like being over 60.

The old lady is shriveled, and no matter how hard she tries, she can't feed her children.

My tears dried up as early as the autumn of 1999.

19981February, on Xiaojun's birthday, I went to Guangzhou.

At that time, the money I wrote for some magazines was enough to pay for my tuition.

I bought a big bag of gifts for Xiaojun, from clothes to socks, from razors to toilet water. The gifts were messy and trivial, but Xiaojun was tall.

Too excited to speak. He knows that this meticulous mind is love.

That night, I went to dinner with him and several of his classmates. During the dinner, I found him chatting with one of his female classmates.

Run on each other, wonderful dialogue, such a small average, I have never seen it. Everything I see is gentle, meticulous and profound.

Affectionate, I am a stranger to this poor boy who tells jokes.

That girl is a very smart and talented girl. They actually exchanged poems at the dinner table. It's a pity that I'm early

I forgot all the poems I recited in Tang and Song Dynasties, thinking how knowledgeable I was in those days. When did Li Xiaojun start to be right?

Interested in literature?

When they recited "Hairpin Phoenix" by Lu You and Tang Wan, I stood up with a black face and left, leaving a table full of people gaping.

In fact, there are some things I have overlooked.

I love Li Xiaojun to the bone marrow. I won't look at other members of the opposite sex, and I won't allow him to look at others.

I said, Jun, you are my world. I only have you. I have nothing else. I forbid you to leave me unless I die.

I am paranoid, willful and possessive.

I often call Xiaojun at midnight. As long as his classmates say he is not here, I can't sleep all night and get up the next day.

He kept asking questions.

On the night I left the dinner, I ran to Guangzhou Station to wait for the bus, still sitting on the edge of the high platform, with my head down.

Railings.

I want to sort out these four years. I lost myself for Li Xiaojun. I get what I want and he gets what I want.

Here, I finally found out that he didn't give everything, I thought it was all.

I am sensitive and melancholy, and hysteria lurks somewhere in my bones.

/kloc-Guangzhou in October/February, the sun is like fire during the day, but it is also stinging at night.

Fell groggy and fell asleep at Guangzhou station. I was picked up in the middle of the night, woke up, and slapped it in the past, only to find that it was

Xiaojun, he hugged me, let me fight and scold him openly. I bit out a piece on his white wrist.

A row of teeth marks. He just kept silent and followed me at a brisk pace.

He directly carried me to a hotel room near Liuhua Station and threw me on the bed. Turned away is a feeling of tightness in the crying.

The long silence made me feel chest tightness.

I rushed over and fell on his back. I murmured: Xiaojun, I love you.

He slowly turned around, hugged me and kissed my eyes, my pale cheeks and lips.

Then, he asked me.

This is our first time. We agreed to save this day for the wedding day, but we didn't.

Everything is natural. We are primitive, trembling, scared, excited and crazy.

Night after night, we shed blood, tears and sweat.

At dawn, Xiaojun took my hand and sneaked downstairs from the hotel waiter. We stole the sheets, so

It has my virgin blood red on it.

five

1in the summer of 999, I went to Guangzhou to find an internship unit, and I began to prepare to stay with Xiaojun for one year.

Flying life.

From that night on, we never crossed the line again. We made a ridiculous agreement to save the second time for our wedding night. We are here.

When he said this, there was a sacred expression on his face, which seemed true at the time.

I was very depressed during my stay in Guangzhou. I didn't expect it to be so difficult to find a job in Guangzhou. Short-term workers usually speak Cantonese, but I

No, I can speak fluent Mandarin and bold Wuhan dialect, but I can't speak Cantonese.

I stayed in a daze in a small house rented by Xiaojun all day. At that time, Xiaojun could already speak standard Cantonese. When he answered the phone

I looked at him like a bird.

I often bend down to listen to whether it's a man or a woman. At first, he smiled and pushed me away. A few times later, he obviously pushed me hard.

Xiaojun sometimes sleeps in a single bed with me, and we hug each other tightly, struggling to resist our own desires. Later, I told Xiaojun not to come.

Yes

Xiaojun nodded, kissed my forehead and said, anyway, I will hold you until I die. After three years and two years, I can still hold on.

.

I cried again, tears dripping on Xiaojun's shirt.

The days in Guangzhou are the sweetest days for us in ten years.

Every day after work, Xiaojun will come back with three or two vegetables and a little cooked food, and wear an apron to cook for me. I will watch from behind.

His busy figure made him want to cry. I cried and didn't eat. He sang to the rice basin: That man is iron.

Rice is the kind of panic that you can't get enough to eat until I grinned and he handed it to me at the right time, which made us all red-eyed.

Staring at each other, wolfing down meals, and then kissing, I am infatuated with his lips, and he is infatuated with my eyes and my neck.

. Sometimes when we are walking, I stop and say to him: Xiaojun misses you, and he hugs me and kisses my eyelashes.

Cracks also appeared during this period.

I have never found a job. I have empty ambitions and self-righteous talents, but I have no place to display them. I was there.

I have been in Guangzhou for almost a month. I am a very conceited woman. I can't stand this idleness, this decline.

Feeling. Xiaojun told me it was okay. He can support me. He is an intern at Motorola and is very popular. He is often invited by his colleagues.

He got together.

At every party, he said Yao, let's go together.

I bowed my head and said nothing. I don't want to see other people's clothes and champagne. I'm ashamed.

I am not only conceited, but also self-respecting.

Xiaojun gradually stopped asking for my advice and just left a message on my pager telling me that he would not come back to the party.

A few times, Jun Xiao came back late and smelled of alcohol. Lying beside me fast asleep, he didn't know I wasn't asleep.

Look at that.

He came back at one o'clock in the middle of the night that day, and I was lying glumly. He opened the door softly and took a bath in his pajamas. I rolled over and picked him up.

The shirt I changed smells of perfume. My heart suddenly fell into the ice room. I sat in the dark.

In the room, my brain was blank, staring blankly at the bright moon outside the window.

Xiaojun came out of the bathroom and went to bed in the dark. Maybe he didn't touch me, so he called Shen Yao softly and I was in the dark corner of the sofa.

Without saying a word, his name is Shen Yao. Stop it. When the room is dark, be careful to trip and touch the light rope. I got used to it then.

I saw his figure moving in the dark. I stood up and ran over to give him a hard push. He didn't stop and fell.

on the ground

He thought I was joking with him, got up and turned on the light with a smile, and saw me standing in the middle of the room unkempt and in tears.

It rained cats and dogs.

He just looked at me and said, What's the matter with you, Shen Yao?

I pointed to his nose and said, Li Xiaojun, you bastard!

He came to pick me up. I kicked him and fell to the ground. He said, What's the matter with you, Yao Yao?

I stood up and jumped on him like a female wolf. I grabbed him and bit him, but he stood still and let me vent. Until finally, I finally

I was tired and fell asleep in bed.

When I woke up again, I saw Xiaojun standing in front of the window smoking, cigarette butts flashing in the dark. I just lay on my side and looked at his back.

Seeing his eyes glowing, he just stood there motionless, lit a cigarette and lit another.

The sky is white and I'm tired of watching it. He is still standing there. I call him Xiaojun gently.

He seemed to turn around, but fell to the ground with a splash. I jumped out of bed, rushed over to hug him, screaming, and I dragged him to

By the bed, my heart is pounding, Xiaojun, my Xiaojun, what's wrong with him?

I picked up the phone trembling. I don't know what number to dial. I shook him and kissed him, but he didn't wake up I collapsed in despair.

Crying by the bed, I thought Xiaojun was dead.

I cried until my voice was hoarse. Without tears, I found Xiaojun slowly opening his eyes. male

Touch my face and ask: Shen Yao, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying?

I said in a hoarse voice, Xiaojun, I thought you were dead.

Xiao Jun smiled wearily. I'm just tired. I just want to sleep.

I climbed into bed, got into Xiaojun's arms and pestered him like a snake. He patted me on the shoulder and gradually fell asleep again.

That time, we slept in that little bed for two days and one night. We are too tired to stand it.

I often think that the most adequate sleep in my life is that day.

six

When I am narrating, I often get caught up in the scene and stop writing. I began to like myself in the past. I'm like a fan.

The little beast was on the road, and I stumbled and felt extremely uneasy. I had such a nightmare: I was chased by a bad guy and I ran and ran.

Ah, I just found a cliff ahead. I only hesitated for a second and then jumped down. And I woke up. I am still in Xiaojun's arms. I

I often cry at midnight. I am afraid of the feeling of running alone. If someone can hold my hand, I

You will feel safe.

Xiaojun said I was like a sharp weapon. If I don't pull it out, it will hurt people.

When he said this, he looked at me in pain. He hates my bad temper and my affection. Love and hate.

I fight with him more and more times, and my love makes him suffocate.

I feel like a madman and want more and more.

We quarreled again and again, hugged and slept again and again.

The summer vacation passed quickly, and Xiaojun sent me to the railway station without saying a word.

I stood on the platform, please hold Jun Xiao's hand, he held my hand, casually holding it, I can feel that he is.

Don't want to hold hands with me I always change my face in a second, and my temper comes for no reason. Finally, he got scared,

He stopped talking to me, but silently cooked and washed for me. This kind of life, even men are unwilling to continue, but,

I didn't realize until today that it was completely late.

1On August 30th, 999, Li Xiaojun celebrated my 2 1 birthday, and then told me at Guangzhou Railway Station that we were not suitable.

Well, we have to break each other into pieces.

I didn't speak, my eyes looked at Li Xiaojun calmly. This scene appeared in my dream countless times and woke me up. Today, it will end.

Become a reality, become helpless and painful that I can touch.

At that time, Li Xiaojun was carrying my luggage on his shoulder and a big bag of fruit in his hand.

I suddenly feel ridiculous. Li Xiaojun still does my boyfriend's job for me like a camel, but he

How can you break up? He should at least have a bad attitude and a decisive expression, but he looked at me tenderly.

Look at me with pity. You look more miserable than me. I finally couldn't help it. I turned over with a smile.

Li Xiaojun put the luggage on the ground and said, Shen Yao, don't do this again. I'm tired of watching it.

I stood up, carried my luggage on my shoulders a little bit, held the fruit bag on my chest, and strode into the carriage without looking back.

Head.

I just sat in the sleeping car with my luggage, my eyes glazed over, like a fool.

I jumped a minute before the train left. I left all my luggage in the car, so I carried an oblique backpack.

The crowd is looking for Li Xiaojun. Finally, I leaned against the overpass in Guangzhou Station in despair. It's already dark. I'll take it step by step.

I stumbled to the exit where I was waiting for him, and naturally I saw him. He was next to the stone.

Squatting by the dock, smoking hard.

I stood a meter away from him, waiting for him to look up. When my feet were numb, he didn't look up. I clearly saw cigarette butts.

Burn his hand.

When I was about to faint, he finally stood up, patted the dust on his body and saw me. He came up to me and stretched himself.

Reaching for me, I was dragged by him and walked with my eyes closed.

He dragged me to the side of the road for a ride, and I asked him, Where are you taking me?

He didn't make any noise. I said, Xiaojun, I'm leaving tomorrow. I want to go back to Wuhan. I just want to spend the last night with you.

Let's go I don't need your pity. Don't.

I became hysterical when I said this. I waved my hand and said loudly, I won't depend on you, and I won't jump the train.

Depend on you.

Then I cried for nothing, I whispered, I just forgot the smell of you holding me to sleep.

He grabbed me and gasped and cried, Yao Yao, Yao Yao, I love you. I love you.

He almost held me in his arms and went back to our little empty room.

There is only one mattress left on the bed. He pressed me to the bed and kissed me desperately. I feel like I'm going to be kissed and vomited.

I don't have that many tears. A person's tears really have a certain capacity, and they will flow dry one day.

He hugged me and kissed me inch by inch. He cried and asked me like a child. Tears pattered down my chest.

After many years, I can still feel the hot tears.

We are familiar with each other's bodies as if we were born with a tacit understanding. I saw charming flowers on the roof, which were blooming loudly.

My nails have stained Xiaojun's back with blood.

We desperately wanted each other, leaving the last passion of my life on the bare mattress.

The next day, I quietly went to the airport and took the earliest flight back to Wuhan. It was my first time to fly, and I decided.

I will never go to Guangzhou Railway Station again. At that time, Li Xiaojun slept soundly on the mattress of the rented house, and his arm was habitual.

Spread it out as if I were still in his arms.

seven

Writing here, I showed this experience to a friend. He didn't speak, but cried while holding the printed manuscript. He said, those years.

, bitter for you.

I smiled, and I told him that the pain has just begun, and the days with Xiaojun are sweet. I deserve it. I use it.

A rope called love murdered my lover.

Back in Wuhan, I lost my pager. Moved to the dormitory.

Xiaojun called, but I didn't answer. I asked my classmates to tell him that I dropped out of school.

Xiaojun didn't come to Wuhan to find me. I know he is tired, and he is tired of my willfulness. I miss him, but I forget myself on purpose.

He, he's tired of me, and I'm so self-respecting that I won't go looking for him again. number

Twenty days have passed, and I have severe insomnia, with a long series of blisters on my mouth. I hardly eat. I began to resent him.

That morning, I finally couldn't get up. I was lying on the bed in the dormitory, and I felt like I was going to die.

I struggled to cook a bowl of instant noodles, tore open the packaging bag and felt like vomiting. I can't stand the taste of instant noodles.

I took a lunch box to * * to buy rice. I just entered the gate of * * and felt sick again.

I returned, bought a bowl of bean jelly outside the school gate, put a lot of peppers, and squatted on the side of the road and wolfed it down.

Yes

Back to the dormitory, the food that I just ate poured up. I ran to the bathroom and vomited everything I ate.

Let's go

I straightened up and stood by the faucet and thought, am I anorexic?

I went to the hospital and was told that I was pregnant.

Walking out of the hospital, I couldn't find my feet and almost drifted back to the dormitory.

There is a life in my body that makes me afraid and sad.

I never thought I would be a mother at the age of twenty-one.

I'm still a child. I'm not safe as long as I don't snuggle up to someone else's chest.

I vomit almost every morning, and my body is so thin. Students gradually. . .

When I hesitated whether to have this child or not, the child has become more and more stubborn in my body.

After a sleepless struggle, I decided to keep the child, and my love for Li Xiaojun turned into extreme hatred for him.

I'm going to have this baby. I'm going to take the baby to him and ask him how to make me sad.

I became completely crazy, and the child became a tool for me to torture him. I have fantasized countless times that I am carrying a man who looks like his face.

Son, stand in front of him, tell him with a smile that this is your child, and then look at his painful expression, I will laugh and be sharp.

Laugh.

I have been a drawn knife since 1999 10.

I contacted a well-known beer group in Shenzhen as soon as possible, and then wrote an application to the school in advance 10/0.

I stood on the street of Shenzhen, where I worked was a big seafood city, and I became a beer promoter. I wear wide clothes.

Clothes, I want to make some money in the shortest time, and then leave here and find a quiet place before my stomach swells.

We are waiting for delivery.

Shenzhen is two hours' drive from Guangzhou, and I am two hours' drive from Xiaojun. I work hard, even on the right.

The guests smiled charmingly and played ambiguous jokes. I hold every penny tightly in my hand like a real bitch.

I have to endure the violent reaction in the early stage of pregnancy. I go to the bathroom every ten minutes and then throw up.

I can't see anything yellow. Throw up when you see it.

It's hard for me to describe that feeling in words. As I said, I am not an embryo of narrative. Now it's getting harder and harder to describe.

Because there are no adjectives to express my feelings at that time, I was angry and wronged, but I was pregnant with a woman's natural sympathy.

I feel more and more distressed about the life in my stomach. Finally, I think, I want to find him a father, so that he can be born.

I see a generous shoulder. Thinking about me is just a daze.

At that time, I stopped crying.

I have given many names to my children, such as Schenk, Chen Tian and Zhao Shen. I went to the bookstore like a real young mother.

For pregnant women, I will never stay up late again. I drink a lot of nutritious soup, but I just can't get fat. My child will be four months old in a flash.

My abdomen is still flat, and the company still treats me as a coolie. I carry it alone.

Walking back and forth with twelve bottles of beer, no one knows that my waist can't stand straight.

19991On February 25th, I fell down the stairs of Shenzhen Carnival Seafood City, and blood flowed out of the high walking ladder.

Dropping down, winding like my youth.

My baby, it's gone.

That little life, the only mark of my youth on my body and skin, died when I fell lightly.

I think of the big empty operating room, the high maternity bed behind the blue screen, and the cold instruments stirring in my body.

I bit my lip tightly, and the gynecologist in his fifties looked at me affectionately and said, son, it hurts to scream.

Just shout. I didn't scream, my lips began to bleed, the doctor wiped my sweat, and finally she said, what a pity, it's a boy.

It's been almost five months. It wouldn't have been necessary if it hadn't been for a fall.

Do you want to see it? She said while packing the equipment.

I shook my head desperately, and then I fell into a coma.

Writing here, I collapsed on the case and had no strength at all.

My love for that Shen Yao is getting stronger and stronger. I don't even think that was me five years ago. I want to extend my arm to 1999.

In the winter of nine years, give Shen Yao a warm hug and let her have another sweet sleep in my arms.

How did I get here? How did I bury my past? Or am I really just writing a story, and the story is flowing?

False blood?

But I clearly saw Shen Yao, who was weak, walk out of the hospital gate with simple luggage in his hand. She saw one in front of the hospital.

A group of people gathered around to play chess, and she leaned in to watch. It's like five years ago, during the break in high school, she watched Li Xiaojun play with others.

Chess, she squatted on the side of the road, solved a game of chess and won fifty dollars. She took the fifty yuan and thought, Jun, what are you doing in your life?

How much is hidden in life? I can't believe I'm still making money from the skills you gave me!

I didn't know until I got back to the dormitory that everyone in the hotel had heard about my unmarried pregnancy and I was fired. I'm in someone else's

Pack your bags with your eyes held high. I can't stay any longer.

I took out all the money in my passbook, went to Guangzhou Railway Station, bought a ticket, and called my good friend Shantou to ask her to go to Wuhan.

Han came to pick me up, and then there was only 2 yuan left in his hand. I was so hungry that I bought a cantaloupe with a bamboo stick.

I stand in Guangzhou station, my Guangzhou station, my Guangzhou station, my hair is unkempt like a migrant worker, and all my sad memories are there.

Guangzhou station.

While I was thinking about it, the cantaloupe was taken away by a beggar. Xi。 I got on the train hungry and slept all the way. I