How many truths that I usually dare not tell can finally be told as jokes today

So you are here too. If some people are destined to be together, they will never be separated no matter what happens... In the classroom of Class 1 (1) of Senior High School, Lin Jingjing still looked dull and determined. On a pink sticky note, I wrote a sentence that I had recited countless times in my heart: I must be admitted to Xiamen University, and I must make my mother happy. At this moment, she had just been admitted to the best high school with A. In fact, before she was 11 years old, Lin Jingjing was a lively and cute little girl. Her teachers and classmates liked her. On weekends, her parents would take her to the playground or park, and give her lots and lots of White Rabbit toffees. She could act like a spoiled child in her parents' arms. She naively thought that life would always be about White Rabbit toffees. A taste. Beautiful dreams are always so easy to break. One night, her mother shook Lin Jingjing's shoulders with a haggard face and cried helplessly: "Dad is gone and will never come back. What should I do? What should I do?" Lin Jingjing was stunned for a moment. She felt that all the blood in her body had been drained, but she realized that now she was the only force supporting her mother, and she had to be strong. She hugged her mother's neck and said firmly: "Mom, you still have me!" Lin Jingjing's father On the way home, my brakes failed and I collided with a large truck. When it was delivered, Lin Jingjing and her mother had left forever. After that night, Lin Jingjing changed. She was no longer lively and cute. During recess, she would either immerse herself in the homework assigned by the teacher, or sit with a dull and determined expression. The teacher liked her as always, because she His academic performance was getting better and better, from being among the top ten in the class to being firmly ranked first. The classmates felt that she had become a stranger, and there was an insurmountable distance that made people afraid to approach her, but no one knew the reason. Back home, Lin Jingjing would make up a lot of interesting stories between her and her classmates to make her mother happy, but her mother's smile was always mixed with a touch of melancholy. She can only study hard, because she knows that when her mother hears that she has achieved excellent results, she will smile with the most gratification: "If your father knew, he would also be very happy, Jingjing, you must study hard to take the Xiamen University exam in the future. That's your father's favorite city." Lin Jingjing will be very happy to see her mother happy, but if she is admitted to Xiamen University, she will have to leave her mother. In order to make her mother happy, she can only choose to listen to her mother's words. After primary school and junior high school, Lin Jingjing has always been the pride of her teachers and a role model for her classmates. But Lin Jingjing was also lonely, because her melancholic expression and quiet personality had become an unchangeable characteristic, always giving people a feeling that it was difficult to get close to her. Until later, Lin Jingjing got used to this kind of loneliness and would listen to her alone. If you like it, read your favorite book alone and write sad words in your diary. As expected, she was admitted to a key high school. Strange environment, strange teachers, strange classmates, these don't matter to Lin Jingjing, because whether familiar or unfamiliar, she is lonely. Almost all the top students in City A are gathered here, and Lin Jingjing must work harder if she wants to stand out. The teacher arranged for a boy named Gu Xiaobing to sit at the same table as Lin Jingjing. Gu Xiaobing is a cool-looking boy, with an angular face that is clean and fresh, and soft and fine hair hanging down to his forehead. However, his academic performance is not excellent. He came to this school because of his father. Lin Jingjing was quite disdainful of Gu Xiaobing. She defined him as a "dandy". Of course, she would not say it out loud because they had not spoken a word to her deskmates for two weeks. Time passed by at random due to Lin Jingjing's efforts. Lin Jingjing thought that her high school life would be spent simply through unremitting efforts. However, accidents always come so unexpectedly. One day after school, some students were still studying in the classroom. Suddenly a girl said that her new information book was missing. Lin Jingjing looked up and saw that it was Yang, the rich second generation of her class. Jiaoru. Yang Jiaoru said anxiously that her aunt had sent it to her and it couldn't be reached here. She had used it in the morning. Then he described the cover of the book, etc. Lin Jingjing did not listen carefully because she and her classmates were just acquaintances, and she would not borrow other people's books, let alone take them. But there is no way to avoid unlucky times. Luo Yating, who was sitting in the front row of her, actually said: "I saw a book like that on Lin Jingjing's desk at noon." All the classmates looked at Lin Jingjing, and she subconsciously said : "I really haven't seen it." But no one would believe her, "Just take it, people have seen it and you still don't admit it." "I heard that she is a single-parent family, but even if she can't afford it, she shouldn't go Stealing from others." Lin Jingjing didn't understand why someone who had no enmity with her would slander her so bitterly.

"Why do you say it was Lin Jingjing who got it, just because of Luo Yating's words! I also heard that Luo Yating's parents are farmers, and she is fostered in her aunt's house. Why don't you doubt her!" The person who said this said It was Li Dan, who had no relationship with Lin Jingjing. Lin Jingjing never knew why Li Dan helped her like this. After this incident, Lin Jingjing and Li Dan naturally became friends. Li Dan was Lin Jingjing's only friend. They would chat together, go shopping together, eat together, and do homework together. But Lin Jingjing didn't understand why Li Dan asked about trivial matters about Gu Xiaobing intentionally or unintentionally, and Lin Jingjing just said that she didn't know. The fact is that Lin Jingjing really didn't know. She just wanted to study hard to make her mother happy, instead of being with a person. There is nothing wrong with poor students. Li Dan found it incredible that after almost one semester, he didn’t know anything about his classmates. The days passed day after day, and winter arrived in a blink of an eye. On the morning of December 18th, when Lin Jingjing arrived in the classroom and was about to sit down, Gu Xiaobing took out a pack of White Rabbit toffees and said, "Happy birthday! When you are unhappy, eating candy will make you forget the unhappy things." Lin Jingjing was surprised. As you can imagine: "How did you know today is my birthday?" "Of course I accidentally saw it when filling in my student information." Since her father left, Lin Jingjing has never eaten White Rabbit toffee, and today Only my mother could remember the day when she received such a surprise. She was really happy. She put a toffee in her mouth and it still tasted like when she was a child. Lin Jingjing thought about it carefully and realized that Gu Xiaobing had no other bad behaviors or habits except for poor academic performance. After this special birthday, Lin Jingjing lost her previous disdain for Gu Xiaobing. She discovered that Gu Xiaobing actually loved learning. She would take the initiative to tell him topics that Gu Xiaobing didn't know, and would also make some irrelevant jokes with him. . I don't know since when, Lin Jingjing's name appeared frequently in Lin Jingjing's diary. Sometimes she would giggle when she thought of Gu Xiaobing. She was not sure if she fell in love with Gu Xiaobing. When she told Li Dan this, she didn't notice the flash of sadness on Li Dan's face. Lin Jingjing still studied hard. The difference from before was that Gu Xiaobing was with her to work hard together, but she never told him that her dream was Xiamen University. After a peaceful day, there will always be some unexpected storms. One morning, Lin Jingjing came to school as usual. As soon as she walked to the door of the classroom, she heard Li Dan talking to several girls: "Yesterday I saw Gu Xiaobing sending a girl home. That girl was so beautiful and elegant. Lin Jingjing was so beautiful." She is only worthy of having a crush on her. Do you think Gu Xiaobing will also like her?" Lin Jingjing couldn't listen anymore and ran aimlessly on the street alone. She couldn't believe her ears and told the truth to herself. To your best friend, but told as a joke to others. When she got home in the afternoon, Lin Jingjing told her mother that she wanted to transfer to another school. Her mother didn't understand how her daughter, who was usually so sensible, could be like this. Lin Jingjing made many excuses and promised that she would be admitted to Xiamen University. Her mother believed her. In the new school, Lin Jingjing worked harder, but she would also think of Gu Xiaobing in her spare time, with sadness in her thoughts, and she knew that she really fell in love with him. Lin Jingjing, who had been hurt by friendship, refused anyone to enter her life. Lin Jingjing, who worked hard in loneliness, finally got her wish. Lin Jingjing was dragging her suitcase and walking on the campus of Xiamen University. "Lin Jingjing", the voice that was so familiar in her memory suddenly came from behind. Lin Jingjing couldn't believe it. The moment she turned around, tears became her only expression. The way of emotion, "Why are you here?" "Do you know why the earth is round? It's because God wants those who accidentally missed it to meet again." Lin Jingjing didn't know that Gu Xiaobing met An Anjing for the first time. And the girl with a stubborn face was deeply attracted; Lin Jingjing didn't know that Gu Xiaobing didn't accidentally see her birthday, but remembered it specially; Lin Jingjing didn't know that Li Dan liked Gu Xiaobing; Lin Jingjing didn't know that that morning she The words she heard were all made up by Li Dan and told to her on purpose; Lin Jingjing didn't know how hard Gu Xiaobing had worked in the two years after she transferred to another school; Lin Jingjing didn't know that her pink post-it note was inadvertently read by Gu Xiaobing After arriving, Xiamen University became Gu Xiaobing’s only goal. It turns out you are here too, Kaka squatting in the night, holding himself with both hands. Her white sneakers and white boat socks. I guess her eyes are moist and her lips are pale. I said: Oh, Kaka, let’s go. I said: Oh, Kaka, what do you want? I said: It’s just some small things and it’s over. ...Finally I said: You are bringing this upon yourself, I am not going to care about you anymore. After saying this, I turned around and walked away.

I walked past the messy building in front of the teaching building, the small row of camphor trees by the playground, and the spicy hotpot stall at the school gate. After walking forward for a minute, I turned back. I said to the little girl at the Malatang restaurant: I want a bunch of dried fragrant ham and a bunch of ham. Oh no, two of them. Also, two bunches of quail eggs. Add extra cayenne pepper. "It's really spicy." The little girl is from Sichuan, and her Sichuan accent is very strong. There was a time when Kaka and I had a lot of fun after class: imitating how she talked. No, Tutu, you don't want to be like this. Kaka, do you like this? But Kaka, I want to say that you really can’t do this. I stood on the roadside eating Malatang. It was really spicy, so spicy that I almost burst into tears. As I ate, I stared in the direction of the school gate. I hoped to see Kaka carrying a big green schoolbag. I saw her walking out slowly, putting her long arms on my shoulders and saying, "Brother, here you go." I'll have one too. "That's the Kaka from before, the Kaka like a boy, the Kaka who is bold and generous. I don’t know from which day she changed. Slowly, we began to change from familiarity to strangers. Alienation from knowledge. This is the secret pain in my heart. This is what Kaka doesn’t know. I am sad and sad alone. I didn't go home. I walked a long way to Lao Bei's house and stared at Lao Bei in a daze. Lao Bei stretched out five fingers and waved them in front of me, and I opened his hand. Lao Bei yawned loudly and said: If nothing happens, I'm going to sleep. I'm so sleepy that I play games until three in the morning on weekends. "I don't know what to do," I said. Lao Bei stretched out his hand and touched my long hair. He is a guy who is not good at words. I know he can't say anything to comfort me, but he can always make me feel comforted. "I'm hungry." "Then I'll take you to dinner." Lao Bei said, "I still have some money." Lao Bei is my cousin and my aunt's son. He is three years older than me, already a sophomore in high school, average-looking, loves to skip classes, loves to play video games, loves to quarrel with my uncle, and loves to wear pants that are too fat. I love to rely on him. So when I came to him, he knew without asking that I was depressed. Lao Bei is very generous and wants to take me to eat at Pizza Hut. But I said it was too far. I just wanted to eat a bowl of noodles in the noodle shop downstairs. Pork liver noodles, add some chopped green onion and some chili pepper, three yuan a bowl. I ate to my heart's content, but Lao Bei didn't eat. His three meals a day were never on time. I asked Lao Bei: Has your aunt visited you? He shook his head. So do you hate her? He shook his head. Added: What do you still hate when you are seventy and eighty years old? I said: I really want to be in my seventies and eighties. He asked me who I hated. I snorted a big mouthful of noodles, gritted my teeth and said: Kaka. I think I really hate Kaka. The reason why I never admit it is because I loved Kaka too much before. We walked arm in arm on the way to and from school, singing many not-so-popular songs as if no one else was around. We enjoy happiness and worry about sadness. I sincerely despise those mentally retarded girls who are so worried about friendship. I naively thought that Kaka and I could be happy like this until we are ninety-nine years old. However, I lost, completely. All this is just because of a sentence that Kaka heard from Kong Shasha. Kong Shasha said: Kaka, you can’t wear jeans. Tutu has said it. From the back, your buttocks are too big. Ugly. Kaka said, how can you say this to me. I can't bear the thought of you and Kong Shasha saying this. But, Kaka, I don’t remember that I said it, I really didn’t say it. You also believe what Kong Shasha says. I don't believe anything else she said, but I believe this. This is what you said. I believe it very much. Even if I said it, so what? It doesn't matter if you say this, but you just can't tell Kong Shasha, this is extremely disrespectful to me! I turned and walked away. In my memory, this was the first quarrel between Kaka and I. Later, she came from behind and hugged my neck. She said sorry to me and said she was not in a good mood. It seems that we are back to the past, but in fact we will never go back to the past, I know it in my heart. I know why Kaka did this to me, I know. Kaka also knows. But she didn’t say it, and neither did I. Neither of us said anything, we just kept holding hands, but our hearts went our separate ways. I returned home. Mom asked me why I was so late, and I said I was going to see Lao Bei. Mom sighed and asked, "Does Lao Bei still play video games every day?" Yes, I said. Have you tried to persuade him? No, I said. Alas, that’s right, it’s no use trying to persuade me. My mother cooked me a big pot of red date and apple soup, which smelled delicious. While I was drinking, I said to my mother, you should wash Beibei's clothes when you have time. His clothes are too dirty.

Otherwise, just a few new clothes, it's getting cold. I will take the prize money from the essay contest right away, use my prize money, the best, famous brand. "How is your uncle?" Mom asked me. Beibei said that he had lost money again. The innocence is really cold. It rained early in the morning, so I went to school wearing a thick coat. I like the coat. There is a flower on the chest that is not bright, but blooms warmly and unrestrainedly. I sat down in my seat, and my deskmate Li Shen said, "Since I won first place, should I treat you to a treat?" "What treat?" I shouted over fiercely. "Are you having a cold so early in the morning?" He looked at me strangely. I immersed myself in reading English. It was because of convulsions that I won first place in the province's composition competition. God knows, I turned out to be just a substitute. God knows, Kaka, who always takes first place, didn't even make it to the semi-finals. Those judges are really pigs, I remember Kaka said to me with a smile that day. But fortunately, you entered the semi-finals. No matter what, you have to rush to the finals to give me a voice! Kaka's tone was relaxed when she said this, but her eyes were extremely dark. I said Kaka has nothing to do with a competition. The judges are so weird sometimes, and we don’t care. Who says I care anymore? Kaka stared at me and said, I don't care at all. What the heck, so what if I win first place in this kind of competition, it’s meaningless! The meaningless first place just fell on my head. The organizer was also impressed, and the prize was five thousand yuan. "When will you get the bonus?" Li Shen leaned his head over again. I covered my face with a book. Just then I saw Kong Shasha walking in. Kong Shasha and Kaka. Kong Shasha and Kaka held hands. When walking past me, Kaka said casually: "Tutu, look, are my new clothes pretty?" Kaka wore new clothes, and the unpleasantness of yesterday seemed to be a thing of the past for her. I smiled and said: It looks good. "Tutu still understands me." Kaka gently hit me on the head with the palm of her hand and said, "Damn it Kong Shasha, she said I look like a vegetable in the market!" Kong Shasha on the side burst into laughter. Li Shen also laughed. I don't find anything funny. No one noticed that I was also wearing new clothes. During the break in the physical education class, Kaka went to play popsicles. Kong Shasha came over and said to me in a serious manner: Your article was inspired by Kaka, right? I said, what? You learned from Kaka, so you got the first place. I said nothing. I don’t believe anything else Kong Shasha said, but I believe this. This is what Kaka said. I believe it very much. I got a bonus of five thousand yuan. There was a very grand award ceremony, and the head teacher accompanied me by train to the province. On the train, my class teacher asked me where the idea for that article came from and how I could write it so touchingly. I looked into the head teacher's eyes and said that many people said that I copied Kaka. Do you believe it? The head teacher must not have expected that I would ask this. He was stunned by my question and didn't know how to answer. But I'm not. I firmly said that I wrote it myself. I said again: I don’t care about this award at all, I don’t even want to accept it, really. The head teacher thought for a while and said, that's not true. As long as something you do with your heart has good results, you should cherish it with your heart. This is also respect for yourself. I came back from the province to receive the award and missed two days of classes. I asked Kaka to take notes, but she said she didn't have any and she didn't attend the lecture. Then she said Tutu, you want to treat me and you took so much money. Before I could say anything, she was taken away by Kong Shasha. Kong Shasha asked her to go to the playground to watch a boy from the next class play ball. In the past, Kaka didn't want to go. She would scold Kong Shasha and say: nympho. But this time she went happily. I looked at her back with wet eyes. We can't go back. My aunt still hasn't come home. My aunt has been quarreling with my uncle every day since Lao Bei was a child. Later she simply left and never came back. No one cares about Lao Bei anymore. Lao Bei said that he planned to drop out of school because the school didn't want him anyway. Lao Bei proudly said that it was better now and he could skip school and play games openly. I pushed Lao Bei down and pushed him from the chair to the ground. He couldn't get up for a long time. I took a book and hit Beibei's body as hard as I could, once, once, and again. I fought until I was exhausted, and then I said to Lao Bei with tears in my eyes: If a person gives up on himself, he is a waste, a waste! I never treat Lao Bei like this. Ever since he broke a leg trying to save me when I was eight years old, I have always been so dependent on him and accommodated him unconditionally. Now I know that true friendship is not like this, and it is wrong. Lao Bei finally got up from the ground. He found a napkin and wiped my tears. I gave him my winning essay from my school bag. The name of that essay was "Brother Lao Bei".

Before I was eight years old, I was such a willful child. Because of a quarrel with my mother, I could rush into the vast sea of ??cars without looking back, regardless of life or death. It was Lao Bei who saved me. He said to me, it is better for you to die than for me to die. Look at me, how can I compare to you? As a result, Lao Bei became lame in one leg. From then on, he could only wear baggy pants. I said at the end of the article: Brother Lao Bei, we all need to be good, we must be good. It is said that some judges cried after reading this article. Lao Bei, we must do well and never give up no matter what. Later, Lao Bei cried. After crying, Lao Bei said to me, "Girl Tu, you are really harsh." I was almost promoted from a third-level disability to a first-level disability. It was very late when I got home that day. There were no buses, so Lao Bei took me to a taxi. I told Lao Bei that I would forgive Kaka and everyone who had hurt me. I really meant it. Lao Bei touched my hair with his hand again, but still didn't speak. Rene Liu's "So You Are Here" is playing in the taxi: Ah, does this person only exist in dreams? Why do I use all my strength to get half a lifetime of memories? If it weren't for your longing eyes, if it weren't for my redeeming mood, in Thousands of mountains and rivers meet each other, so you are here too... Oh, Kaka. It’s not easy to have many good friends. When the dust settles, as long as you look back, you will find that I have always been here. No matter how much time passes, I will always be here.